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By authority figure I mean parents, teachers, etc
No person likes to be told what to do but they just think: well that sucks I have to do it. That's it.
Me for example: a teacher tells me to be quiet. I start to hate him and try to avoid him at all cost
They would talk to me after the class just an casual conversation and I would get uncomfortable.
Even I had some teachers that were amazing and were the favorite of everyone. They would mandate me a simple
thing and I still wouldn't like him at all. This person would interact with their students like if he were their friends, I still wouldn't be able to treat him like one.
There was this teacher that was really nice and she checked my notebook and there was something that I didn't have and I grabbed my notebook and leave the class. I didn't want to do that, it was very rude and impulsive of me. I felt I was about to explode.
Worst part is when it comes with my parents. My mother has always treat me like if I were her best friend,
but the moment she would get upset to me like any normal parent, I could dislike her more and more. It happened when I was teenager, I used to
make her cry often which it's something I really regret. Fortunately I no longer get mad at her even if she straight calls me a piece of shit (something she would never do)
I really hate this part of myself. Because of this I couldn't have a normal relationship with her and always acted cold/neutral towards her.
Also you may thing I was a spoiled child, but my parents were more strict with me than my retarded friends parent's with them.
I really really regret this.
To this day, I have no idea why I behave like this, what could be wrong with my brain? I had a normal childhood no traumas
No person likes to be told what to do but they just think: well that sucks I have to do it. That's it.
Me for example: a teacher tells me to be quiet. I start to hate him and try to avoid him at all cost
They would talk to me after the class just an casual conversation and I would get uncomfortable.
Even I had some teachers that were amazing and were the favorite of everyone. They would mandate me a simple
thing and I still wouldn't like him at all. This person would interact with their students like if he were their friends, I still wouldn't be able to treat him like one.
There was this teacher that was really nice and she checked my notebook and there was something that I didn't have and I grabbed my notebook and leave the class. I didn't want to do that, it was very rude and impulsive of me. I felt I was about to explode.
Worst part is when it comes with my parents. My mother has always treat me like if I were her best friend,
but the moment she would get upset to me like any normal parent, I could dislike her more and more. It happened when I was teenager, I used to
make her cry often which it's something I really regret. Fortunately I no longer get mad at her even if she straight calls me a piece of shit (something she would never do)
I really hate this part of myself. Because of this I couldn't have a normal relationship with her and always acted cold/neutral towards her.
Also you may thing I was a spoiled child, but my parents were more strict with me than my retarded friends parent's with them.
I really really regret this.
To this day, I have no idea why I behave like this, what could be wrong with my brain? I had a normal childhood no traumas
