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I thought about how on my worst nights out where I ended up in some altercation that could've landed me in jail, I had no real desire to go out clubbing alone but just forced myself to do it in a bid to try slay, then my failure to slay combined with being blackout led to suboptimal scenarios.
Last night I didn't really want to go out but I thought I may as well give it a go since I've ridded myself of pale failo for the first time in 5 years, I had no shifts to work over the weekend and some foid who asked for my number while I was bouncing who requested to set up a date with her left me on delivered when I asked her if she would meet on a certain day.
I left it until 9pm last night (bank holiday weekend) to decide I would start pre drinking and I needed 3 cans of cider + 200ml vodka to motivate me to get ready and get out of the house.
Something I heard in a hamza video once was him claiming that the work you do is the fun part of life and the degen stuff you do comes with loads of drawbacks while just sticking to your work routine doesn't.
I think labelling drinking alcohol and going to a club as "degen" is zoomer youtuber terminology as every gen before zoomers seen drinking on nights out as simply normal adult socialization.
The point I'm getting at is that in recent times, focusing on my work while sipping on a Monster and making progress on stuff actually is the "fun" part of my mundane life because it at least gives me some feeling of accomplishment while I know before leaving the house that clubbing is a complete waste of time and just sets my gymcelling and fitness back a week or two but I still buy that lotto ticket in the hopes of a slay every few months to truly remind myself of how shit it is.
I went to 2 clubs last night, in one of them the ratio was abysmal and every foid in the club was a chav who looked 30+ and haggered, none of them even looked like appealing milfs.
I somehow ended up talking to 2 foids and one of them asked me to guess her age and it played out like this scenario
I thought she was like 35 so I said 29 to be polite and to indicate her being younger than me and she told me she was 25 and acted like I just ruined her life and shattered her ego.
To cope she then told me that I look 40 and later on when I tried to tell her I was only joking with the age guess I told her I look 40 anyway and she said she didn't mean that. I am too empathetic tbh, I had to tell her like 5 times she looks 25 and that I just said 29 as a joke and so that she would be closer to my age.
It's crazy how one comment to a foid can ruin their life, when I was in uni at age 20 I was talking to some foid who said that she was 21 and has been going to the particular dance event night for years and it isn't as good anymore and I said maybe she's getting too old for it and she actually took it personally with a gobsmasked expression and despite telling her 10 times I obviously didn't think she was old she took it to heart.
She told me she had a BF but her friend was single and her friend was a chubster with the patented british pug face.
Of course she dismissed me as not being good enough for her and I feel like there were hoards of lads trying to make some attempt at her due to being 1 of about 5 foids in that area of the club.
When I was leaving at the end of the night the club was somehow full of blacks who all seemed to enter in the last 20 minutes.
I walked out along with 2 LTB chubsters and just tried chatting them since I was drunk
Then a white guy and a group of 3 black manlets tried to run NT game on them and asked them to come walk with them or come to an after party or something and they rejected them.
After this I spoke to them again for a few seconds but what I picked up on was that they obviously weren't waiting for any of their friends but were still lingering around outside of the club almost as if their purpose was the see how many desperate male approaches they could receive to boost their egos with the rejection of guys who mog them to the grave. That's all that clubbing is now
When I was in a different club briefly it was pretty dead so I just went to the back of the dancefloor and danced on my own @MoggerGaston style and the only other guy at the very back of the dancefloor was a tall black guy who was blatantly gay.
Then the only 2 goodlooking foids I seen all night walked onto the dancefloor and stood to the left hand side of me pretty close to me.
I didn't look in their direction once and was just getting into the low inhib mood and after about 2 minutes they walked past me to approach the gay blackcel
I was the biggest mogger in the venue being completely objective and the only goodlooking girls in the venue who stood next to me walked past me to approach a guy who was doing the exact same thing as me, dancing alone at the back of the dancefloor almost as if to taunt me with the differences between us being that he was a gay black truecel and I was a white mogger.
I left right after I seen this because it felt like the simulation was fucking with me but foids either do this shit to taunt males who are ascended in every metric and give their attention to a truecel because foids know their 5'5 frame and boneless face makes them inferior to a masculine heightmogger or else they just approach a guy who they feel can't reject them and a gay blackcel is going to be grateful for their approach. If they approached me they are risking me brushing them off and damaging their egos.
Despite not drinking a crazy amount (6 vodka + lemonade in the clubs) I still slept from 5am to 9pm just waking up at moments to vomit. I started drinking on a full stomach as well to ensure I held my drink well yet a puked up the alcohol that would've been a moderate night for me in my going out prime. The fact I did nothing retarded at the end of the night was a fantastic outcome though.
It's one of the few nights I don't have cortisol releasing flashbacks to any of the stuff I said or did.
Going out drinking is such aids and I genuinely never regret staying home and rotting or else getting work done
Last night I didn't really want to go out but I thought I may as well give it a go since I've ridded myself of pale failo for the first time in 5 years, I had no shifts to work over the weekend and some foid who asked for my number while I was bouncing who requested to set up a date with her left me on delivered when I asked her if she would meet on a certain day.
I left it until 9pm last night (bank holiday weekend) to decide I would start pre drinking and I needed 3 cans of cider + 200ml vodka to motivate me to get ready and get out of the house.
Something I heard in a hamza video once was him claiming that the work you do is the fun part of life and the degen stuff you do comes with loads of drawbacks while just sticking to your work routine doesn't.
I think labelling drinking alcohol and going to a club as "degen" is zoomer youtuber terminology as every gen before zoomers seen drinking on nights out as simply normal adult socialization.
The point I'm getting at is that in recent times, focusing on my work while sipping on a Monster and making progress on stuff actually is the "fun" part of my mundane life because it at least gives me some feeling of accomplishment while I know before leaving the house that clubbing is a complete waste of time and just sets my gymcelling and fitness back a week or two but I still buy that lotto ticket in the hopes of a slay every few months to truly remind myself of how shit it is.
I went to 2 clubs last night, in one of them the ratio was abysmal and every foid in the club was a chav who looked 30+ and haggered, none of them even looked like appealing milfs.
I somehow ended up talking to 2 foids and one of them asked me to guess her age and it played out like this scenario
I thought she was like 35 so I said 29 to be polite and to indicate her being younger than me and she told me she was 25 and acted like I just ruined her life and shattered her ego.
To cope she then told me that I look 40 and later on when I tried to tell her I was only joking with the age guess I told her I look 40 anyway and she said she didn't mean that. I am too empathetic tbh, I had to tell her like 5 times she looks 25 and that I just said 29 as a joke and so that she would be closer to my age.
It's crazy how one comment to a foid can ruin their life, when I was in uni at age 20 I was talking to some foid who said that she was 21 and has been going to the particular dance event night for years and it isn't as good anymore and I said maybe she's getting too old for it and she actually took it personally with a gobsmasked expression and despite telling her 10 times I obviously didn't think she was old she took it to heart.
She told me she had a BF but her friend was single and her friend was a chubster with the patented british pug face.
Of course she dismissed me as not being good enough for her and I feel like there were hoards of lads trying to make some attempt at her due to being 1 of about 5 foids in that area of the club.
When I was leaving at the end of the night the club was somehow full of blacks who all seemed to enter in the last 20 minutes.
I walked out along with 2 LTB chubsters and just tried chatting them since I was drunk
Then a white guy and a group of 3 black manlets tried to run NT game on them and asked them to come walk with them or come to an after party or something and they rejected them.
After this I spoke to them again for a few seconds but what I picked up on was that they obviously weren't waiting for any of their friends but were still lingering around outside of the club almost as if their purpose was the see how many desperate male approaches they could receive to boost their egos with the rejection of guys who mog them to the grave. That's all that clubbing is now
When I was in a different club briefly it was pretty dead so I just went to the back of the dancefloor and danced on my own @MoggerGaston style and the only other guy at the very back of the dancefloor was a tall black guy who was blatantly gay.
Then the only 2 goodlooking foids I seen all night walked onto the dancefloor and stood to the left hand side of me pretty close to me.
I didn't look in their direction once and was just getting into the low inhib mood and after about 2 minutes they walked past me to approach the gay blackcel
I was the biggest mogger in the venue being completely objective and the only goodlooking girls in the venue who stood next to me walked past me to approach a guy who was doing the exact same thing as me, dancing alone at the back of the dancefloor almost as if to taunt me with the differences between us being that he was a gay black truecel and I was a white mogger.
I left right after I seen this because it felt like the simulation was fucking with me but foids either do this shit to taunt males who are ascended in every metric and give their attention to a truecel because foids know their 5'5 frame and boneless face makes them inferior to a masculine heightmogger or else they just approach a guy who they feel can't reject them and a gay blackcel is going to be grateful for their approach. If they approached me they are risking me brushing them off and damaging their egos.
Despite not drinking a crazy amount (6 vodka + lemonade in the clubs) I still slept from 5am to 9pm just waking up at moments to vomit. I started drinking on a full stomach as well to ensure I held my drink well yet a puked up the alcohol that would've been a moderate night for me in my going out prime. The fact I did nothing retarded at the end of the night was a fantastic outcome though.
It's one of the few nights I don't have cortisol releasing flashbacks to any of the stuff I said or did.
Going out drinking is such aids and I genuinely never regret staying home and rotting or else getting work done
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