happybird
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(long thread but deeply relatable for some here)
I’m tired of this life.
Always chasing something and never really reaching it.
It started with red pill and the gym.
Then I got into money maxxing. I actually had some success, but I stopped after realizing I missed out on life between 16 and 17.
Now it’s blackpill and genetics.
I’m just tired of jumping from one thing to another and mostly consuming instead of actually getting somewhere.
Right now it’s just school, scrolling on my phone, and maybe doing something with newer friends once a week.
I don’t really feel driven by anything.
And I keep comparing myself.
There are people who are just born into better situations. Tall, good looking without trying, rich parents.
I’m not ugly and I do fine with girls, but I’m 5’10, not 6’1, and it feels like that already puts me a step below.
They grew up in cities, had friend groups from early on that they still have now.
They travel to the US, Dubai, St Tropez. They actually live.
At home it’s different. My parents stress about money a lot.
We go on maybe two vacations a year.
I’ve never been to places like the US, Dubai, Japan.
There’s so much out there and I feel like I’m missing all of it.
When I was younger my dad used to get mad at me and my brother for being on our phones and say go do something.
But what were we supposed to do
No friends nearby, no places to go, nothing going on in this town.
At the same time kids in cities were already getting girlfriends and having a social life.
I just want to experience that kind of life at least once.
Being that guy. Really Good looking, tall, rich, surrounded by real friends, actually enjoying life.
Not constantly wondering if people really like me or just tolerate me.
Money maxxing kind of messed things up for me.
I isolated myself, lost connections, stopped being known in school.
Stress and lack of sleep made it worse.
Now I’m 18 in a class where most people are 16.
I hate having to explain that every time.
It wasn’t even really my fault.
I wanted a normal school experience with real friendships and memories, but I’m not really getting that either.
And I don’t even want to continue school.
It feels like time is running out and I need to get rich soon if I ever want to live the life I’m thinking about.
But I’m stuck.
Either Stay in school, finish at 20, and risk wasting these years and ending up with nothing special
Or drop out of school, work a minimum wage job and go all in on building something, but risk being alone and failing
and I don’t even know if my current friends are real like that.
I’m never the one inviting people.
I’m not part of a solid group, just someone trying to fit in.
That part gets tiring too.
I keep thinking why couldn’t I just be one of those guys who already has his circle
Or like my brother who has good friend groups
he was always kind of cooler and more normal from younger age
would also sometimes friend mog me
id be with a friend and he would also be around and i could notice that my friend liked to be around him and i dont know if he liked him more than me sometimes
dropping out might not fix everything
But staying would be bad too
I imagine a different life
Being in places like Miami or Dubai, around people who are actually doing something, having experiences all the time instead of once a week
Actually feeling alive
I don’t want to be 20, just finishing school, with nothing to show for it
I don’t want to follow a path that leads to a life I already know I don’t want
But I’m also scared
Scared of ending up at 20 with no diploma, no success, no real friends, just stuck at home with pressure to figure it out
I feel like I have to decide
Follow a path I don’t believe in
Or take the risk and try to build something better
Because in the end it’s my time
And it’s limited
And these next years actually matter
idk what to do
drop out and do my best to live a life i love
or continue this empty existence where i only sometimes have fun
(the original text was a bit more authentic, but pretty long and repetitive so i put it in chatgpt to frame it better)
I’m tired of this life.
Always chasing something and never really reaching it.
It started with red pill and the gym.
Then I got into money maxxing. I actually had some success, but I stopped after realizing I missed out on life between 16 and 17.
Now it’s blackpill and genetics.
I’m just tired of jumping from one thing to another and mostly consuming instead of actually getting somewhere.
Right now it’s just school, scrolling on my phone, and maybe doing something with newer friends once a week.
I don’t really feel driven by anything.
And I keep comparing myself.
There are people who are just born into better situations. Tall, good looking without trying, rich parents.
I’m not ugly and I do fine with girls, but I’m 5’10, not 6’1, and it feels like that already puts me a step below.
They grew up in cities, had friend groups from early on that they still have now.
They travel to the US, Dubai, St Tropez. They actually live.
At home it’s different. My parents stress about money a lot.
We go on maybe two vacations a year.
I’ve never been to places like the US, Dubai, Japan.
There’s so much out there and I feel like I’m missing all of it.
When I was younger my dad used to get mad at me and my brother for being on our phones and say go do something.
But what were we supposed to do
No friends nearby, no places to go, nothing going on in this town.
At the same time kids in cities were already getting girlfriends and having a social life.
I just want to experience that kind of life at least once.
Being that guy. Really Good looking, tall, rich, surrounded by real friends, actually enjoying life.
Not constantly wondering if people really like me or just tolerate me.
Money maxxing kind of messed things up for me.
I isolated myself, lost connections, stopped being known in school.
Stress and lack of sleep made it worse.
Now I’m 18 in a class where most people are 16.
I hate having to explain that every time.
It wasn’t even really my fault.
I wanted a normal school experience with real friendships and memories, but I’m not really getting that either.
And I don’t even want to continue school.
It feels like time is running out and I need to get rich soon if I ever want to live the life I’m thinking about.
But I’m stuck.
Either Stay in school, finish at 20, and risk wasting these years and ending up with nothing special
Or drop out of school, work a minimum wage job and go all in on building something, but risk being alone and failing
and I don’t even know if my current friends are real like that.
I’m never the one inviting people.
I’m not part of a solid group, just someone trying to fit in.
That part gets tiring too.
I keep thinking why couldn’t I just be one of those guys who already has his circle
Or like my brother who has good friend groups
he was always kind of cooler and more normal from younger age
would also sometimes friend mog me
id be with a friend and he would also be around and i could notice that my friend liked to be around him and i dont know if he liked him more than me sometimes
dropping out might not fix everything
But staying would be bad too
I imagine a different life
Being in places like Miami or Dubai, around people who are actually doing something, having experiences all the time instead of once a week
Actually feeling alive
I don’t want to be 20, just finishing school, with nothing to show for it
I don’t want to follow a path that leads to a life I already know I don’t want
But I’m also scared
Scared of ending up at 20 with no diploma, no success, no real friends, just stuck at home with pressure to figure it out
I feel like I have to decide
Follow a path I don’t believe in
Or take the risk and try to build something better
Because in the end it’s my time
And it’s limited
And these next years actually matter
idk what to do
drop out and do my best to live a life i love
or continue this empty existence where i only sometimes have fun
(the original text was a bit more authentic, but pretty long and repetitive so i put it in chatgpt to frame it better)
