Earliest fantasies

[Big Boss]

When I was in preschool I kissed a girl, later on I used to fantasise about male and female mortal kombat characters (I searched up MK fatality compilation on youtube and got traumatised) and other scenarios with men and women (likely pop music brainwashing). I didn't know what sex was and never had a boner before but there was still an element of perversion, attraction and power dynamics in my near constant fantasies. The only thing which preoccupied my mind more was intrusive thoughts about annihilation and apocalypse (nuclear armageddon, black holes etc.)

and no I didnt get raped as a kid, my mind is just fucking weird.