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There is only person on this earth I really liked and admired. I did the most awful things you could do to someone legally to them because I was stupid and now they are gone. I searched the earth but found no one to replace that person. I am empty. My lifeblood is exhausted and the soil is calling for my flesh.
 
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You abused someone and they left?
 
You abused someone and they left?
I don't think that's legal, but something like that. I hurt them emotionally where they were the most vulnerable. They eventually got over it but I could never be the same in their eyes no more. It was caused by me being mentally ill and cuz of the blackpill. I feared they will abandon me and I thought that I wasn't a chad was the issue.
 
I don't think that's legal, but something like that. I hurt them emotionally where they were the most vulnerable. They eventually got over it but I could never be the same in their eyes no more. It was caused by me being mentally ill and cuz of the blackpill. I feared they will abandon me and I thought that I wasn't a chad was the issue.
Well damn bro what can i say? If you treat someone shittily they’ll leave
 
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Well damn bro what can i say? If you treat someone shittily they’ll leave
Indeed. I didn't deserve someone as amazing as them in the first place, but my mental illness makes me do crazy stuff I would never do in most cases. It's like I have two opposing personalities and one is evil and can't be controlled because you don't know when to expect it to come out
 
Indeed. I didn't deserve someone as amazing as them in the first place, but my mental illness makes me do crazy stuff I would never do in most cases. It's like I have two opposing personalities and one is evil and can't be controlled because you don't know when to expect it to come out
They probably did something to set you off. I get triggered pretty easily too but its never for nothing. If he’s a good friend he might reach out again, or you can try reaching out if you havent. If its a foid, forget her; she wasnt special
 
They probably did something to set you off. I get triggered pretty easily too but its never for nothing. If he’s a good friend he might reach out again, or you can try reaching out if you havent. If its a foid, forget her; she wasnt special
she was the greatest friend ever
 
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They probably did something to set you off. I get triggered pretty easily too but its never for nothing. If he’s a good friend he might reach out again, or you can try reaching out if you havent. If its a foid, forget her; she wasnt special
I never met someone else so compassionate and noble, with so much love to give the world, despite going through very hard things.
 
I never met someone so compassionate and noble, with so much love to give the world, despite going through very hard things.
Umm okay bro, reach out to her then? If she’s that compassionate she’ll forgive you
 
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They probably did something to set you off. I get triggered pretty easily too but its never for nothing. If he’s a good friend he might reach out again, or you can try reaching out if you havent. If its a foid, forget her; she wasnt special
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I will. The realms beyond those of death are calling me, I shall visit the demiurge and pray to him to assign me a different role in the universe, so that my being would be of any use to someone
 
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did you call her fat?
 
Goodbye My Friend
 
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@Mogpogs @Rupert Pupkin

I humbly suggest you to look above what is let to be seen by the eyes. Matter will seek matter and spirit will seek spirit. But don't let one starve while stuffing up the other, because in the end both will die but for different reasons.

There are great women out there, who will look beyond looks, and who are worthy to be your partner or friend. Maybe they are rare, but it's worth it. Life can be much more than what it looks like.

There is no greater feeling than truly enjoying talking to someone on a spiritual level and being in their company that there are no limits left between you and labels don't make any sense anymore, as you feel like you're on the same wavelength.
 
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@Mogpogs @Rubert Pupkin

I humbly suggest you to look above what is let to be known by the eyes. Matter will seek matter and spirit will seek spirit. But don't let one starve while stuffing up the other, because in the end both will die but for different reasons.

There are great women out there, who will look beyond looks, and who are worthy to be your partner or friend. Maybe they are rare, but it's worth it. Life can be much more than what it looks like.

There is no greater feeling than truly enjoying talking to someone on a spiritual level and being in their company that there are no limits left between you and labels don't make any sense anymore, as you feel like you're on the same wavelength.
I agree with having that ideal and i want all of that bro, my entire dating life i’ve taken foids seriously until they show they’re not serious about me, which in turns makes me stop taking them seriously. I’m only jaded now cause it keeps happening.

I’m only talking romantically though. I’ve had great foid friends. One of them has even helped me out with tons of shit and bailed me out a million times, more than any guy friend i have.

I’m only saying you cant take foids seriously romantically if they show red flags, which nearly all of them do.
 
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I agree with having that ideal and i want all of that bro, my entire dating life i’ve taken foids seriously until they show they’re not serious about me, which in turns makes me stop taking them seriously. I’m only jaded now cause it keeps happening.

I’m only talking romantically though. I’ve had great foid friends. One of them has even helped me out with tons of shit and bailed me out a million times, more than any guy friend i have.

I’m only saying you cant take foids seriously romantically if they show red flags, which nearly all of them do.
most if not all other women in my life were like that to me like you said. They weren't even good friends in the end ( Call me a cuck but often I didn't seek more, despite being blackpilled I tried to find on my own skin if some things, except about looks which is obvious, said in the blackpill community are real, like you can't have women friends or anything to share with them ) . So I understand you, I wouldn't believe myself either if I didn't found someone worthy of admiration, that happened to be a woman.

edit: I'm really tired and didn't read your post correctly lol. Yeah good female friends exist, just like great male friends. Im glad you found them.
@Mogpogs

I agree about dating, nearly all will be like that.
 
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most if not all other women in my life were like that to me like you said. They weren't even good friends in the end ( Call me a cuck but often I didn't seek more, despite being blackpilled I tried to find on my own skin if some things, except about looks which is obvious, said in the blackpill community are real, like you can't have women friends or anything to share with them ) . So I understand you, I wouldn't believe myself either if I didn't found someone worthy of admiration, that happened to be a woman.
I think you can have women friends. You can even date them if you dont expect anything. Saying you should cut all contact with them is kind of extreme and autistic tbh.

I just say beware because they lie, and they don’t even lie intentionally a lot of the time.

They say shit that they mean in the moment and you think wow she’s so pure, so nice, and maybe she really was at that moment but after a time the feels will fade, no matter how much she used to worship you, and you’ll be left wondering if she’s even the same person, while she’s moved on getting feels from other things.
 
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I think you can have women friends. You can even date them if you dont expect anything. Saying you should cut all contact with them is kind of extreme and autistic tbh.

I just say beware because they lie, and they don’t even lie intentionally a lot of the time.

They say shit that they mean in the moment and you think wow she’s so pure, so nice, and maybe she really was at that moment but after a time the feels will fade, no matter how much she used to worship you, and you’ll be left wondering if she’s even the same person, while she’s moved on getting feels from other things.
I have met many kinds of women and all were very similar, the fact about lying being one of those traits in common. But that doesn't mean most women are the same to me, just that my personality and looks attracts to me more of those women with these traits . Blackpilled females just like males are much more likely to tell you the truth about everything regarding yourself but even so they lie, subconsciously or not to let you cope.


I can't elab unfortunately on what makes that person noble in my eyes because of doxxing but it has nothing to do with lying or of how pure she is. if you know someone is prone in acting in a certain way and it's doing it subconsciously, it's easy to look past that behaviour and instead appreciate what they consciously give to the world. But even so, she wasn't like that.
 
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LOL at those who fell for this meme foids suck I would never take them seriously
female friends are either there to use you as an emotional tissue when chad is not replying as well as a wallet and a robot to drive or cook for them, or as a body to give them sex if you're chadlite+
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