Essay 8: The philosophy of giving up.

[Deleted member 16501]

It is over. Get your luggage, call it a game, and walk out the door. Because it's over for you brother.

No, really, understand what I’m saying.

YOU will never change. How YOU feel reading this, the feeling you have in your body, your feeling as to how you relate to the people and things around you…It will never change. NOTHING will ever change it.

NOTHING in this man-made world, no man-made system or possession, will make you any happier or more fulfilled than you are now.

In this modern world, we live in a collective state of mental illness. We fantasize about getting this, getting that. We undertake projects or tasks, fantasizing about the type of person we will be when we get there. We’ll be this bigger, better version of us. We’ll be unrecognizable! And then we’ll show them, we’ll show the people who MADE us feel so small, so inadequate, so incomplete.

Well, here’s the thing. Firstly, you will never be this BIGGER, BETTER, version of you. Who you are, that baseline state in your body, is unchanging. At the height of civilization, we were able to delude ourselves enough to think that, if we acquire enough, if we succeed enough, if we SATISFY THE CONDITIONS IN A MAN-MADE SOCIETY TO BE KNOWN BY EVERYONE AS SUCCESSFUL, AND GET ENOUGH VALIDATION FROM THOSE PEOPLE, we will be something radically different to our boring, wretched selves that we started out as.

All a lie, all a delusion. Humans thinking they can be God. Humans thinking that they can change the unchangeable.

Now the idiocy of humanity is finally catching up, and thank God for that.

The problem is, you guys are still attached mentally to these things, these fake goals, these goals that stem from a sense of lack, a sense that you aren’t complete as you are. You are literally torturing yourself mentally, and preventing yourself from coming to any real sense of inner peace, of understanding.

And why? Because of a WOMAN made system, a society created by mentally ill women. They have well and truly destroyed you.

You think that the moment you get the approval you desire, will give you fulfillment. But it won’t. NOTHING will change in this ideal future you have for your mind. In fact, you will probably be so mentally burned out by WANTING and NEEDING to be this future you, that you will self-sabotage umpteen times and may even end up worse off.

So what is the point, what is the ‘goal?’ Self-discovery.

Shed everything that you aren’t, and do the things that are original to you.

Stop doing things you don’t enjoy, just because you think a goal of validation lies ahead.

Work out who you are, and just BE. DO in the moment what THE REAL YOU WOULD DO.

For instance, I wasn’t feeling like lifting weights last night, I felt lethargic and tired. I told myself ‘fuck it, I won’t go to the gym tonight’. Until about 10 minutes before midnight, when I suddenly felt like going….I chugged a tea and drove to the gym- I did some steady state cardio, 20 minutes of bike sprints, and 30 minutes boxing. WOW, I just discovered that I like boxing… I liked how I felt afterwards, I liked the calmness I felt walking back to my apartment, I liked that I slept easier than all those nights when I lifted weights in the hope of being the next ‘TRT ascender’ (I have dealt with insomnia a lot this year), I like how I was extremely present and grounded all of today…all because I did something that was really me- I pretended I was kicking someone’s ass for 30 minutes. THAT was what I really wanted to do, not lift some weights pointlessly.

To go down this path of giving up TRYING TO BE THIS DIFFERENT GUY ONE DAY, this path of letting go, requires one thing though. Requires one thing that most of you don’t have at the moment, something that most men today don’t have.

It requires SELF-TRUST.

Man’s greatest folly is when they refuse to believe their God-given instinct, their God-given state of being. When they get seduced by the world and what others say.

Such a man is a lost man, a limp man, an inept man. Such a man is nothing but ‘prey’.

Self-Trust means trusting that EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED WITH YOU HAS HAPPENED FOR A REASON, THAT YOU ARE EXACTLY WHERE YOU NEED TO BE.

Stop attaching negative meaning to where you are right now- whether it be your physical state, your financial state, or your relationship state. That is simply where you are. Where you need to be. It doesn’t define you. Changing your external circumstances won’t change you. Whether you do or don’t, it doesn’t matter either way. Just aim to get in touch with who you are authentically, to DO WHAT IS AUTHENTIC FOR YOU TO DO, right now. Like I said, this requires self-trust, and to shed the delusion of ‘one day I’ll be someone different’.

‘Growing’ as a man is not a process of getting more and more external validation, but instead a process of getting closer and closer to one’s real self. These are very different energies.

This is all I feel like revealing today. I may answer some questions.

 

[currylightskin]

Yakhi you're back

 

[fruitgunpop]

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

The world has set the average man up for failure. When I undertake any task, I expect cataclysmic failure.

 

[Yellowskies]

It is over. Get your luggage, call it a game, and walk out the door. Because it's over for you brother.

No, really, understand what I’m saying.

YOU will never change. How YOU feel reading this, the feeling you have in your body, your feeling as to how you relate to the people and things around you…It will never change. NOTHING will ever change it.

NOTHING in this man-made world, no man-made system or possession, will make you any happier or more fulfilled than you are now.

In this modern world, we live in a collective state of mental illness. We fantasize about getting this, getting that. We undertake projects or tasks, fantasizing about the type of person we will be when we get there. We’ll be this bigger, better version of us. We’ll be unrecognizable! And then we’ll show them, we’ll show the people who MADE us feel so small, so inadequate, so incomplete.

Well, here’s the thing. Firstly, you will never be this BIGGER, BETTER, version of you. Who you are, that baseline state in your body, is unchanging. At the height of civilization, we were able to delude ourselves enough to think that, if we acquire enough, if we succeed enough, if we SATISFY THE CONDITIONS IN A MAN-MADE SOCIETY TO BE KNOWN BY EVERYONE AS SUCCESSFUL, AND GET ENOUGH VALIDATION FROM THOSE PEOPLE, we will be something radically different to our boring, wretched selves that we started out as.

All a lie, all a delusion. Humans thinking they can be God. Humans thinking that they can change the unchangeable.

Now the idiocy of humanity is finally catching up, and thank God for that.

The problem is, you guys are still attached mentally to these things, these fake goals, these goals that stem from a sense of lack, a sense that you aren’t complete as you are. You are literally torturing yourself mentally, and preventing yourself from coming to any real sense of inner peace, of understanding.

And why? Because of a WOMAN made system, a society created by mentally ill women. They have well and truly destroyed you.

You think that the moment you get the approval you desire, will give you fulfillment. But it won’t. NOTHING will change in this ideal future you have for your mind. In fact, you will probably be so mentally burned out by WANTING and NEEDING to be this future you, that you will self-sabotage umpteen times and may even end up worse off.

So what is the point, what is the ‘goal?’ Self-discovery.

Shed everything that you aren’t, and do the things that are original to you.

Stop doing things you don’t enjoy, just because you think a goal of validation lies ahead.

Work out who you are, and just BE. DO in the moment what THE REAL YOU WOULD DO.

For instance, I wasn’t feeling like lifting weights last night, I felt lethargic and tired. I told myself ‘fuck it, I won’t go to the gym tonight’. Until about 10 minutes before midnight, when I suddenly felt like going….I chugged a tea and drove to the gym- I did some steady state cardio, 20 minutes of bike sprints, and 30 minutes boxing. WOW, I just discovered that I like boxing… I liked how I felt afterwards, I liked the calmness I felt walking back to my apartment, I liked that I slept easier than all those nights when I lifted weights in the hope of being the next ‘TRT ascender’ (I have dealt with insomnia a lot this year), I like how I was extremely present and grounded all of today…all because I did something that was really me- I pretended I was kicking someone’s ass for 30 minutes. THAT was what I really wanted to do, not lift some weights pointlessly.

To go down this path of giving up TRYING TO BE THIS DIFFERENT GUY ONE DAY, this path of letting go, requires one thing though. Requires one thing that most of you don’t have at the moment, something that most men today don’t have.

It requires SELF-TRUST.

Man’s greatest folly is when they refuse to believe their God-given instinct, their God-given state of being. When they get seduced by the world and what others say.

Such a man is a lost man, a limp man, an inept man. Such a man is nothing but ‘prey’.

Self-Trust means trusting that EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED WITH YOU HAS HAPPENED FOR A REASON, THAT YOU ARE EXACTLY WHERE YOU NEED TO BE.

Stop attaching negative meaning to where you are right now- whether it be your physical state, your financial state, or your relationship state. That is simply where you are. Where you need to be. It doesn’t define you. Changing your external circumstances won’t change you. Whether you do or don’t, it doesn’t matter either way. Just aim to get in touch with who you are authentically, to DO WHAT IS AUTHENTIC FOR YOU TO DO, right now. Like I said, this requires self-trust, and to shed the delusion of ‘one day I’ll be someone different’.

‘Growing’ as a man is not a process of getting more and more external validation, but instead a process of getting closer and closer to one’s real self. These are very different energies.

This is all I feel like revealing today. I may answer some questions.

Well of course

Any spiritual aware man knows this

I usually say, just find that inner ”child” and do what you knew all along.

Also, all forms of self control actually makes life a bit better. Nofap, noporn, diet, exercise etc. But the child like energy is more important.

 

[Deleted member 16501]

True but that its difficult to do, most of us are high inhib

Yes but the more you can do this, the more you will actually take the actions consistently that bring the best you out.

If you do something good, get a good result, then get really attached to the result, you are less likely to do that thing consistently.

If you say 'it doesn't matter either way', then you let it go and come back to yourself...then you are more likely to repeat the good action because it's coming from you doing what you want, rather than doing it to get a good result again.

 

[Moggable]

welcome back

 

[Deleted member 16220]

I disagree dude. With the first premise that you will never change. I went 2.5 years on nofap, used all my free time to study philosophy, read the Bible like 30 times and had no friends, worked out every day, took cold showers for over a year straight and didn’t even let myself touch warm water, slept on the floor for like 6 months, ate completely healthy never even touching a snack, deleted all of my music that wasn’t religious, memorized literal Bible verses, completely changed my behavior to others and sought out meaning in my life.

I completely felt like I was living a different life.

I think what you actually mean is “the pain and weight of existence and the way other people treat you will never change, and the way you perceive yourself in this world will always remain the same” if that’s what you are saying then I would say I disagree. Your beliefs can completely change your entire life.

But it doesn’t matter anyways, because a belief of giving up mostly appeals to the masses because they WANT to give up. Most men are cowards and more lazy than they are cowardly.

I imagine the heroic mindset is one that vehemently would fight against the tide to just give in to life, and this is what I aim to do. But I may be misunderstanding your entire ideas.

 

[Kingcel32]

This what I attempted to explain but I was too autistic and low iq to properly put my thoughts into words

 

[Deleted member 16501]

I disagree dude. With the first premise that you will never change. I went 2.5 years on nofap, used all my free time to study philosophy, read the Bible like 30 times and had no friends, worked out every day, took cold showers for over a year straight and didn’t even let myself touch warm water, slept on the floor for like 6 months, ate completely healthy never even touching a snack, deleted all of my music that wasn’t religious, memorized literal Bible verses, completely changed my behavior to others and sought out meaning in my life.

I completely felt like I was living a different life.

I think what you actually mean is “the pain and weight of existence and the way other people treat you will never change, and the way you perceive yourself in this world will always remain the same” if that’s what you are saying then I would say I disagree. Your beliefs can completely change your entire life.

But it doesn’t matter anyways, because a belief of giving up mostly appeals to the masses because they WANT to give up. Most men are cowards and more lazy than they are cowardly.


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I imagine the heroic mindset is one that vehemently would fight against the tide to just give in to life, and this is what I aim to do. But I may be misunderstanding your entire ideas.

I like your reply.

Firstly, I would argue that Nofap, reading philosophy/Bible, working out, cold showers etc....this is more you COMING INTO YOUR REAL SELF.

Think about how porn, mindless entertainment on the internet etc,, is merely a distraction from your real self.

When you gave up all that stuff, you started actually doing the things you REALLY WANTED TO DO, now that you weren't distracted by fake shit.

If the DESIRE you have in your life leads you to doing things that are authentic to you, then that's great. You should stick to that philosophy. But many people's desire leads them to escape, to want the quick fix, to want people's approval, to want endless sex and validation, and they lose connection to themselves and their thoughts and habits decline.

Thanks for your reply and congrats for being so discipline over the last 2.5 years- very impressive.

 

[Deleted member 19152]

No one understands their selves, cause there's no self, we literally make ourselves up.

Our consciousness is cage tier, validation is so cope. normal life is holy cope
Best thing about life is being alone and developing your thoughts, seeking higher grades of self awareness and consciousness.

I don't know what is this essay cope about your development through life, just live you have no control over nothing living is cope

 

[Deleted member 19152]

I like your reply.

Firstly, I would argue that Nofap, reading philosophy/Bible, working out, cold showers etc....this is more you COMING INTO YOUR REAL SELF.

Think about how porn, mindless entertainment on the internet etc,, is merely a distraction from your real self.

When you gave up all that stuff, you started actually doing the things you REALLY WANTED TO DO, now that you weren't distracted by fake shit.

If the DESIRE you have in your life leads you to doing things that are authentic to you, then that's great. You should stick to that philosophy. But many people's desire leads them to escape, to want the quick fix, to want people's approval, to want endless sex and validation, and they lose connection to themselves and their thoughts and habits decline.

Thanks for your reply and congrats for being so discipline over the last 2.5 years- very impressive.

caging hard at the real self

 

[Deleted member 16220]

I like your reply.

Firstly, I would argue that Nofap, reading philosophy/Bible, working out, cold showers etc....this is more you COMING INTO YOUR REAL SELF.

Think about how porn, mindless entertainment on the internet etc,, is merely a distraction from your real self.

When you gave up all that stuff, you started actually doing the things you REALLY WANTED TO DO, now that you weren't distracted by fake shit.

If the DESIRE you have in your life leads you to doing things that are authentic to you, then that's great. You should stick to that philosophy. But many people's desire leads them to escape, to want the quick fix, to want people's approval, to want endless sex and validation, and they lose connection to themselves and their thoughts and habits decline.

Thanks for your reply and congrats for being so discipline over the last 2.5 years- very impressive.

You are definitely right dude. I literally felt so fucking free doing what I wanted to do. I looked like a fucking psychopath at the time and a fucking loser. Like people literally thought I was insane. When I talked to old friends I opened my mouth and could only talk about metaphysical things and couldn’t relate to them at all anymore about the meaningless day to day things they talk about. I literally have zero care in the world about events, new objects, travel, any of that shit. I literally only care about answering life’s “big questions” as they are typically called, ACTUAL self development, finding meaning in my life and having discussions about shit that REALLY matters in life.

I literally think many peoples anxiety disorders are caused by their lack of a good understanding of themselves and the world around them and they mindlessly follow a retarded society and then their own brain experiences really strong cognitive dissonance because what they are doing in life completely contradicts their own brain screaming to them what it truly wants. Hence their constant depression, their anxiety, (I have all this too…) and their constant need of alcoholism every fucking day and to travel and take time off from their meaningless job they hate for money that won’t make them happy to go back to a home that they just want to replace with a bigger one.

I have studied philosophy and thought deeply about my life and my own psychology. Im human as fuck dude. Not special. You could summarize my entire existence by describing your own im very sure of it. I have the same problems everyone else has. Only im trying to actively fix it. And I might be doing a hell of a better job than the average man. I wish they would think like me or yourself. But they don’t. And that’s fine too, it makes the individual even stronger when he doesn’t have a squad or a team. He has to carry the show by himself. That’s if the loneliness doesn’t destroy him…another problem. But every now and then I find people online like yourself and it’s a refresher to be able to realize that I am not insane and am seeing things as they are, in a society that’s literally fucking braindead.

But to summarize this on a good note, society is absolutely fucked but it’s not an issue because you and I will get what we want on this journey we have, and whoever wants to join us will undoubtably get to enjoy the mental fortitude that comes with the path of self actualization and becoming who you are. And if nobody agrees with me on this, good, I will learn the trait of trusting myself even if i am wrong. And if I am wrong, good, I will eventually become more wise.

 

[Mongrelcel]

so you're promoting living the most hedonistic lifestyle you can? doing just what you want to do at that exact moment?

 

[reputation]

It is over. Get your luggage, call it a game, and walk out the door. Because it's over for you brother.

No, really, understand what I’m saying.

YOU will never change. How YOU feel reading this, the feeling you have in your body, your feeling as to how you relate to the people and things around you…It will never change. NOTHING will ever change it.

NOTHING in this man-made world, no man-made system or possession, will make you any happier or more fulfilled than you are now.

In this modern world, we live in a collective state of mental illness. We fantasize about getting this, getting that. We undertake projects or tasks, fantasizing about the type of person we will be when we get there. We’ll be this bigger, better version of us. We’ll be unrecognizable! And then we’ll show them, we’ll show the people who MADE us feel so small, so inadequate, so incomplete.

Well, here’s the thing. Firstly, you will never be this BIGGER, BETTER, version of you. Who you are, that baseline state in your body, is unchanging. At the height of civilization, we were able to delude ourselves enough to think that, if we acquire enough, if we succeed enough, if we SATISFY THE CONDITIONS IN A MAN-MADE SOCIETY TO BE KNOWN BY EVERYONE AS SUCCESSFUL, AND GET ENOUGH VALIDATION FROM THOSE PEOPLE, we will be something radically different to our boring, wretched selves that we started out as.

All a lie, all a delusion. Humans thinking they can be God. Humans thinking that they can change the unchangeable.

Now the idiocy of humanity is finally catching up, and thank God for that.

The problem is, you guys are still attached mentally to these things, these fake goals, these goals that stem from a sense of lack, a sense that you aren’t complete as you are. You are literally torturing yourself mentally, and preventing yourself from coming to any real sense of inner peace, of understanding.

And why? Because of a WOMAN made system, a society created by mentally ill women. They have well and truly destroyed you.

You think that the moment you get the approval you desire, will give you fulfillment. But it won’t. NOTHING will change in this ideal future you have for your mind. In fact, you will probably be so mentally burned out by WANTING and NEEDING to be this future you, that you will self-sabotage umpteen times and may even end up worse off.

So what is the point, what is the ‘goal?’ Self-discovery.

Shed everything that you aren’t, and do the things that are original to you.

Stop doing things you don’t enjoy, just because you think a goal of validation lies ahead.

Work out who you are, and just BE. DO in the moment what THE REAL YOU WOULD DO.

For instance, I wasn’t feeling like lifting weights last night, I felt lethargic and tired. I told myself ‘fuck it, I won’t go to the gym tonight’. Until about 10 minutes before midnight, when I suddenly felt like going….I chugged a tea and drove to the gym- I did some steady state cardio, 20 minutes of bike sprints, and 30 minutes boxing. WOW, I just discovered that I like boxing… I liked how I felt afterwards, I liked the calmness I felt walking back to my apartment, I liked that I slept easier than all those nights when I lifted weights in the hope of being the next ‘TRT ascender’ (I have dealt with insomnia a lot this year), I like how I was extremely present and grounded all of today…all because I did something that was really me- I pretended I was kicking someone’s ass for 30 minutes. THAT was what I really wanted to do, not lift some weights pointlessly.

To go down this path of giving up TRYING TO BE THIS DIFFERENT GUY ONE DAY, this path of letting go, requires one thing though. Requires one thing that most of you don’t have at the moment, something that most men today don’t have.

It requires SELF-TRUST.

Man’s greatest folly is when they refuse to believe their God-given instinct, their God-given state of being. When they get seduced by the world and what others say.

Such a man is a lost man, a limp man, an inept man. Such a man is nothing but ‘prey’.

Self-Trust means trusting that EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED WITH YOU HAS HAPPENED FOR A REASON, THAT YOU ARE EXACTLY WHERE YOU NEED TO BE.

Stop attaching negative meaning to where you are right now- whether it be your physical state, your financial state, or your relationship state. That is simply where you are. Where you need to be. It doesn’t define you. Changing your external circumstances won’t change you. Whether you do or don’t, it doesn’t matter either way. Just aim to get in touch with who you are authentically, to DO WHAT IS AUTHENTIC FOR YOU TO DO, right now. Like I said, this requires self-trust, and to shed the delusion of ‘one day I’ll be someone different’.

‘Growing’ as a man is not a process of getting more and more external validation, but instead a process of getting closer and closer to one’s real self. These are very different energies.

This is all I feel like revealing today. I may answer some questions.

play your character

 

[Deleted member 19152]

and whoever wants to join us will undoubtably get to enjoy the mental fortitude that comes with the path of self actualization and becoming who you are

What do you mean by your true self?

Another thing I don't understand is why society is fucked up?

Society means really nothing if you see the world through the big questions, it's just another system of interactions on this reality, everything is just a complex product what ever reality laws seem to be.

Native, Ik might consider me braindead, but man im just trying to have a debate to see if we can both get something out of it.
I don't claim anything any opinion of mine, just thoughts.

 

[Miro Chad]

Reddit - Dive into anything

www.reddit.com

 

[R@m@]

you can only achieve this state of mind with drugs, meditation also but more difficult

 

[Deleted member 16501]

Reddit - Dive into anything

www.reddit.com

I read his book earlier this year! One of the 'Don Juan' ones.

 

[Deleted member 16501]

you can only achieve this state of mind with drugs, meditation also but more difficult

I'm on CBD oil, helps a lot.

 

[Deleted member 16501]

You are definitely right dude. I literally felt so fucking free doing what I wanted to do. I looked like a fucking psychopath at the time and a fucking loser. Like people literally thought I was insane. When I talked to old friends I opened my mouth and could only talk about metaphysical things and couldn’t relate to them at all anymore about the meaningless day to day things they talk about. I literally have zero care in the world about events, new objects, travel, any of that shit. I literally only care about answering life’s “big questions” as they are typically called, ACTUAL self development, finding meaning in my life and having discussions about shit that REALLY matters in life.

I literally think many peoples anxiety disorders are caused by their lack of a good understanding of themselves and the world around them and they mindlessly follow a retarded society and then their own brain experiences really strong cognitive dissonance because what they are doing in life completely contradicts their own brain screaming to them what it truly wants. Hence their constant depression, their anxiety, (I have all this too…) and their constant need of alcoholism every fucking day and to travel and take time off from their meaningless job they hate for money that won’t make them happy to go back to a home that they just want to replace with a bigger one.

I have studied philosophy and thought deeply about my life and my own psychology. Im human as fuck dude. Not special. You could summarize my entire existence by describing your own im very sure of it. I have the same problems everyone else has. Only im trying to actively fix it. And I might be doing a hell of a better job than the average man. I wish they would think like me or yourself. But they don’t. And that’s fine too, it makes the individual even stronger when he doesn’t have a squad or a team. He has to carry the show by himself. That’s if the loneliness doesn’t destroy him…another problem. But every now and then I find people online like yourself and it’s a refresher to be able to realize that I am not insane and am seeing things as they are, in a society that’s literally fucking braindead.

But to summarize this on a good note, society is absolutely fucked but it’s not an issue because you and I will get what we want on this journey we have, and whoever wants to join us will undoubtably get to enjoy the mental fortitude that comes with the path of self actualization and becoming who you are. And if nobody agrees with me on this, good, I will learn the trait of trusting myself even if i am wrong. And if I am wrong, good, I will eventually become more wise.

Sorry for the late reply bro.

Wow, this is awesome. I resonate totally about how people around you see you as weird, because you are not into the meaningless socially conditioned bullshit of the world, and are instead interested in metaphysical things etc.

I am exactly the same. Right now these days I am just calmer and happier in my body than I've been for many many years...have all this natural energy and vitality...yet the dead eyed people around me don't resonate, because they're stuck in this socially socially conditioned mindset.

You are one of the special ones...I urge you to follow your path and don't let them sway you. They are going nowhere.

Yes mate exactly. I am excited about the possibilities despite where society is going. It's a chance to become less dependent on material things, and more connected to the greater force, something most men in history weren't strong enough to do.

I'm glad you're in this path, I wish you the best of luck and hope to stay in contact with you!

 

[Deleted member 16220]

Sorry for the late reply bro.

Wow, this is awesome. I resonate totally about how people around you see you as weird, because you are not into the meaningless socially conditioned bullshit of the world, and are instead interested in metaphysical things etc.

I am exactly the same. Right now these days I am just calmer and happier in my body than I've been for many many years...have all this natural energy and vitality...yet the dead eyed people around me don't resonate, because they're stuck in this socially socially conditioned mindset.

You are one of the special ones...I urge you to follow your path and don't let them sway you. They are going nowhere.

Yes mate exactly. I am excited about the possibilities despite where society is going. It's a chance to become less dependent on material things, and more connected to the greater force, something most men in history weren't strong enough to do.

I'm glad you're in this path, I wish you the best of luck and hope to stay in contact with you!

Yeah dude. Give me your discord in DM for real. I don’t meet many people like us. Im almost constantly alone nowadays but for some reason..I actually like it now. Like I realized a new idea today that I AM my biggest enemy.

Even when I look in the faces of people I don’t get along with, it’s not them I hate, it’s really an idea in my brain of “an enemy that did me wrong” that I hate. Im essentially hating a part of my own conscious. And the more you hate that other person the more they occupy space in your brain and you quite LITERALLY cannot move on in life because the thought of them and it’s bitter memory comes with you.

I realized I am my biggest enemy. I realized I’m REALLY weak dude, I have social anxiety. I constantly care about the opinions of others and am even AFRAID of getting caught for caring about the opinions of others. It’s not even the fact that I’m in a room full of people. It’s the fact that my brain doesn’t like that im in a room full of people. It’s my brain, I am the issue.

I realized I need to stay active. I shouldn’t really stop moving and I should stay alone and restlessly work towards my goals all day long. Life isn’t about thinking it’s about doing things. You can theorize all you want in your brain but we are 90% body and 10% brain. The two are connected. Excercise and movement makes you PHYSICALLY FEEL that you have more control over your life. So I don’t want to sit down or be laying down unless I’m dying or sleeping. I mean working ALL DAY like my ancestors.

I realized I am at the highest state of maslows hierarchy of needs. I am self actualizing. The ENTIRE TIME I was doing other things in my mind I was dreaming of being who I am right now. Separated from people I don’t like, being by myself, working WITHOUT MUSIC, taking cold showers, doing nofap, studying philosophy, saving all my money for surgery, working my ASS off at work. Literally I’ve become terminator and best of all dude, I feel like im becoming who im supposed to be.

All I did was change my beliefs and my outlooks and start doing shit and I feel so much better. I was a nihilist for a few months there and what a pointless existence that was dude.

 

[thegoat]

so you're promoting living the most hedonistic lifestyle you can? doing just what you want to do at that exact moment?

Can we get an answer to this please @DaRealSixpence

If I stop doing things I dislike but still engage in because I know they will lead to social validation (moneymaxxing, gymmaxxing), I don't see myself going on some sort of noble path, I see myself becoming a social recluse LDARing gamer. This isn't growth.

However it can also be argued that this is because I haven't had a positive experience with society (virgin at 21, dont have a life) so I dislike people, whereas if I could somehow completely disregard social feedback (imo impossible) and just act independently, I may indeed end up doing something cooler.

Furthermore social anxiety and depression (largely born out of comparing myself with others) are indicators which tell you your life is shit and prod you to improve; it's not ideal to shed these. I smoked weed for 6 months to escape these feelings every day, but I quit recently which forces me to endure the pain of negative social feedback and I feel much more motivated to do something about it.