Even retired, my dad is a miserable old man

[soulless_npc]

He dedicated his life to his job and it came at the expense of being a good father when it mattered; when I really just needed a male role model the most, I needed an older brother, but instead I had a sister

And of course being a woman she is long since married and has kids. Good for her I guess

I wonder if the reason he still slams the door in my face and smokes pot whenever I try to talk about what went wrong is because deep down, he knows he fucked up by having me

I'm his involuntarily celibate son who hasn't achieved anything short of being a wageslave for the satanic capitalist matrix

And he once said he wished he could forget he ever had a son

Even if I HAD the option to, I don't believe I will ever have children, particularly a boy, because I wouldn't want any boy to have to go through what I did, and my genes are obviously shit anyway if I can't fornicate because fornication is how reproduction happens

I didn't ask to be brought into the world

Oh well, guess I'll blame myself anyway because that's the only acceptable route

 

[1966Ford]

Brutal. What's even the point of bringing a child into to the world if you're not looking up for them

Dads should do anything for their son to ascend not spout some boomer and bluepilled shit

 

[SoundnVision]

Give him a hooker and some coke

 

[soulless_npc]

Give him a hooker and some coke

Hooker, coke, Cialis, and a fat ounce for father's day

 

[SoundnVision]

Hooker, coke, Cialis, and a fat ounce for father's day

Yeah fella and a few ice cold beers

 

[soulless_npc]

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[batman1997]

Same i have a father but he was never present in my Life my mom had to be a mom and dad at the same time my father after I turned 18 my father gave zero shits about me now that Hes older Hes trying to compensate the time he Lost with me now that im older but I dont really want nothing to do with him to be honest with you he never taught me anything and most of my problems are due to him and coming back to my main country which i had a future in the previous country i was raised..

 

[batman1997]

He dedicated his life to his job and it came at the expense of being a good father when it mattered; when I really just needed a male role model the most, I needed an older brother, but instead I had a sister

And of course being a woman she is long since married and has kids. Good for her I guess

I wonder if the reason he still slams the door in my face and smokes pot whenever I try to talk about what went wrong is because deep down, he knows he fucked up by having me

I'm his involuntarily celibate son who hasn't achieved anything short of being a wageslave for the satanic capitalist matrix

And he once said he wished he could forget he ever had a son

Even if I HAD the option to, I don't believe I will ever have children, particularly a boy, because I wouldn't want any boy to have to go through what I did, and my genes are obviously shit anyway if I can't fornicate because fornication is how reproduction happens

I didn't ask to be brought into the world

Oh well, guess I'll blame myself anyway because that's the only acceptable route

And the most brutal thing IS im now 26 years old and im on this site discussing my issues i wish things didn't turn out like this i really can't blame myself to be honest

 

[soulless_npc]

And the most brutal thing IS im now 26 years old and im on this site discussing my issues i wish things didn't turn out like this i really can't blame myself to be honest

It's generational trauma, it goes from the father down to the son and the cycle continues until you isolate what went wrong and how not to continue the cycle

 

[batman1997]

It's generational trauma, it goes from the father down to the son and the cycle continues until you isolate what went wrong and how not to continue the cycle

Yea I went a therapy about constelations and the women told me its mostly generational trauma like you said that IS one of the reason i dont wanna have kids

 

[batman1997]

It's generational trauma, it goes from the father down to the son and the cycle continues until you isolate what went wrong and how not to continue the cycle

Now that i know what It IS i have this shit stuck in my Life man Bro you dont know how my bad was i've had pretty fucked Up shit happened to me traumatized me due to this shit

 

[soulless_npc]

Yea I went a therapy about constelations and the women told me its mostly generational trauma like you said that IS one of the reason i dont wanna have kids

I don't think it's humane to have kids if you can't guarantee them a good life, and I know enough about my family history to know that not only do I not have great genes, my offspring have a high likelihood of having psychological problems

Now that i know what It IS i have this shit stuck in my Life man Bro you dont know how my bad was i've had pretty fucked Up shit happened to me traumatized me due to this shit

Same

 

[batman1997]

I don't think it's humane to have kids if you can't guarantee them a good life, and I know enough about my family history to know that not only do I not have great genes, my offspring have a high likelihood of having psychological problems

Same

I'll probably never have kids aswell I dont want them to go through the pain I went through aswell I might adopt or donate my sperm or I might stay alone..