Every day I rot in my room playing videogames I don't even really enjoy.

[Deleted member 17578]

I don't like this anymore.

Yes I go to a good rave every ~2 weeks.
I do drugs every week.
I go to the mental ward twice a week.
I have a part-time job 2 days a week.
I go to the gym 3 times a week.
I cook my own healthy meals every day.

Yet I find myself rotting in my room, like, all the time?! that's what it feels like. so empty.

What can I do except my current lifestyle?
There's no opportunity.

I miss something

No friends,family,girlfriend,social-connection?
No real hobby/passion?

Likely these things are completely fucked since I have none of it.

I have a LDAR rotter lifestyle which has some highs and lows from gambling, drugs and going to the mental ward.

Yet my life overall still feels bland and pointless, lifeless. I find myself again and again contemplating suicide but never to the point where I would actually devise a plan and go through with it.

What the fuck is this life

 

[isis_Bleach]

going to work rn and im drunk as shit

 

[Johnnybegood]

Alcohol is my greatest enemy. Unfortunately I can’t control it, I believe it is a genetic predisposition for me

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

Vidya is for low iq slaves cut that out

 

[Deleted member 64864]

lol

 

[Deleted member 64864]

whats for vidya

Vidya is for low iq slaves cut that out

 

[Deleted member 17578]

going to work rn and im drunk as shit

i do drugs and alcohol at work jfl honestly that htey havent fired me but i can understand bcz i can still work decent productivity while high asf.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Alcohol is my greatest enemy. Unfortunately I can’t control it, I believe it is a genetic predisposition for me

why do you use alcohol.

 

[dipenhydramine]

what do you play

also try dph its cool it saved my life i think

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Vidya is for low iq slaves cut that out

and watch netflix instead?

give me a reasonable alternative for the same low-effort dopamine man.

 

[uksucks]

I don't like this anymore.

Yes I go to a good rave every ~2 weeks.
I do drugs every week.
I go to the mental ward twice a week.
I have a part-time job 2 days a week.
I go to the gym 3 times a week.
I cook my own healthy meals every day.

Yet I find myself rotting in my room, like, all the time?! that's what it feels like. so empty.

What can I do except my current lifestyle?
There's no opportunity.

I miss something

No friends,family,girlfriend,social-connection?
No real hobby/passion?

Likely these things are completely fucked since I have none of it.

I have a LDAR rotter lifestyle which has some highs and lows from gambling, drugs and going to the mental ward.

Yet my life overall still feels bland and pointless, lifeless. I find myself again and again contemplating suicide but never to the point where I would actually devise a plan and go through with it.

What the fuck is this life

What foods do you eat

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

and watch netflix instead?

give me a reasonable alternative for the same low-effort dopamine man.

Fair I just rot here or listen to podcasts

We both need to move forward. On to greater plains we must prowl... no?

 

[Deleted member 17578]

what do you play

also try dph its cool it saved my life i think

I play mechwarrior online.

idk about dph cuz I have so many other drugs which seem to resemble recreational dph usage

 

[Deleted member 17578]

What foods do you eat

A lot of eggs, salads, chicken-meat, beaf, when I am in my zone (5 days a week).

Then candy, ice-cream, chips, other filth. (2 days a week).

And on top of that I consume ~10 bottles of wine a week.

 

[truthhurts]

Read Books, Play clash of clans

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Read Books, Play clash of clans

Last book I've read was https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meditations in 2019. Also read a budhist book shortly after but cant remember the name, only the vibe.

clash of clans idk

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Last book I've read was https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meditations in 2019. Also read a budhist book shortly after but cant remember the name, only the vibe.

clash of clans idk

I need to re-read this book at some point in my life, not now cuz I have diff struggles.

 

[truthhurts]

Last book I've read was https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meditations in 2019. Also read a budhist book shortly after but cant remember the name, only the vibe.

clash of clans idk

Read The Creature from Jekyll Island. It gives you insight about how the federal reserve bank got built, which powerful ppl are behind this and shit.

 

[Deleted member 92615]

Video games aren’t fun if you are ugly. If you are good looking it’s a good outlet for your narcissism and praise to make you feel superior in the games. Did you know that attractive poeple are naturally better at video games than ugly people? Yes this is true due to some scientific evidence. I know you may say “Muh I know players blah blah blah.” Chances are they took years memorizing a single game, while an attractive person can pick up the game and learn it easily and be good at it. And best of all they won’t be seen as a no life. So uhhh, there’s that

 

[truthhurts]

I need to re-read this book at some point in my life, not now cuz I have diff struggles.

Hope you overcome your struggles in no time blud

 

[Daddy's Home]

Well, this is the age at which you should already have 2-3 children, and take them to kindergarten, pick them up from there and take them to the park to play, play with them, etc.

Then you go home, find some good food cooked for you guys by your wife, take a shower, wait for her to wash the kids while you watch some political news on TV.

Then she comes out of the shower, you hug and kiss, and you guys start talking about your day, and then she sucks you off, and then both of you go to sleep because tomorrow you wake up early in the morning..

The next morning you guys discuss what to eat and do the next day with the kids, like in the video below..

Yet my life overall still feels bland and pointless, lifeless. I find myself again and again contemplating suicide but never to the point where I would actually devise a plan and go through with it.

What the fuck is this life

But I guess not having the above context doesn't help with that, and that's probably why 98% of the early 30s don't care anymore and accept that little fat, short, low MTB one that their parents told them would make a good wife, just so they can experience what I described above, because otherwise life is boring and meaningless, just waiting for another week to pass to get even closer to getting old and dying..

 

[Johnnybegood]

why do you use alcohol.

I like how I feel when I drink it.

My system just screams “Fuck yeah!!” My dad and grandad were alcoholic. The only difference between me and them is I am a functional alcoholic with a good job in finance.

 

[Deleted member 19325]

Yes I go to a good rave every ~2 weeks.

mogs , id get so much pussy if i went out more

I do drugs every week.

Best way to cope with work , life bullshit tbh

I go to the mental ward twice a week.

Okay this one im concerned about..

I have a part-time job 2 days a week.

Mogs if pay is really good

I go to the gym 3 times a week.

Try to go 4-5x but still one of the best things anyone can do

I cook my own healthy meals every day.

Ideal also , unless you get tired of it everyday but again you can cope with sauces and stuff

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

What games do you play

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

Read Books, Play clash of clans

i went out on a couple dates with a htb mulatta foid that was a clash of clans leader

after that she became a luxury escort in dubai and married some rich dude

 

[truthhurts]

i went out on a couple dates with a htb mulatta foid that was a clash of clans leader

after that she became a luxury escort in dubai and married some rich dude

Already told that .

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

Well, this is the age at which you should already have 2-3 children, and take them to kindergarten, pick them up from there and take them to the park to play, play with them, etc.

Then you go home, find some good food cooked for you guys by your wife, take a shower, wait for her to wash the kids while you watch some political news on TV.

Then she comes out of the shower, you hug and kiss, and you guys start talking about your day, and then she sucks you off, and then both of you go to sleep because tomorrow you wake up early in the morning..

The next morning you guys discuss what to eat and do the next day with the kids, like in the video below..


But I guess not having the above context doesn't help with that, and that's probably why 98% of the early 30s don't care anymore and accept that little fat, short, low MTB one that their parents told them would make a good wife, just so they can experience what I described above, because otherwise life is boring and meaningless, just waiting for another week to pass to get even closer to getting old and dying..

nigga most mfs in the past married low MTBs and did that you're describing

jfl at thinking you're supposed to marry Stacy

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

Already told that .

i think about it everyday

 

[Olympus]

Video games aren’t fun if you are ugly. If you are good looking it’s a good outlet for your narcissism and praise to make you feel superior in the games. Did you know that attractive poeple are naturally better at video games than ugly people? Yes this is true due to some scientific evidence. I know you may say “Muh I know players blah blah blah.” Chances are they took years memorizing a single game, while an attractive person can pick up the game and learn it easily and be good at it. And best of all they won’t be seen as a no life. So uhhh, there’s that

Jfl have you seen e sport players

 

[truthhurts]

i think about it everyday

Why?
How rich is the dude tho

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

Why?
How rich is the dude tho

dunno its some mdidle-aged MENA guy, they live in europe now

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Well, this is the age at which you should already have 2-3 children, and take them to kindergarten, pick them up from there and take them to the park to play, play with them, etc.

Then you go home, find some good food cooked for you guys by your wife, take a shower, wait for her to wash the kids while you watch some political news on TV.

Then she comes out of the shower, you hug and kiss, and you guys start talking about your day, and then she sucks you off, and then both of you go to sleep because tomorrow you wake up early in the morning..

The next morning you guys discuss what to eat and do the next day with the kids, like in the video below..


But I guess not having the above context doesn't help with that, and that's probably why 98% of the early 30s don't care anymore and accept that little fat, short, low MTB one that their parents told them would make a good wife, just so they can experience what I described above, because otherwise life is boring and meaningless, just waiting for another week to pass to get even closer to getting old and dying..

Brutal man.

That ASMR makes me want to go on a killing-spree.

Life was taken from me, as such, I must take other people's lives.

 

[wollet2]

best drug to do everyday other than alc?

 

[wollet2]

all drugs have been shit to me

 

[wollet2]

Video games aren’t fun if you are ugly. If you are good looking it’s a good outlet for your narcissism and praise to make you feel superior in the games. Did you know that attractive poeple are naturally better at video games than ugly people? Yes this is true due to some scientific evidence. I know you may say “Muh I know players blah blah blah.” Chances are they took years memorizing a single game, while an attractive person can pick up the game and learn it easily and be good at it. And best of all they won’t be seen as a no life. So uhhh, there’s that

trolling mf or nigger

 

[Deleted member 17578]

best drug to do everyday other than alc?

All drugs I have done become total shit very fast if you do them every day.
ketamine/mephedrone once a week, with weeks of abstinence in between in which you do psychedelics, have been treating me well.

I guess weed is good for every day use just like alc? but I dont like weed so idk.

 

[Alt Number 3]

Life is meaningless when no cute jb pussy to eat and creampie in.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Life is meaningless when no cute jb pussy to eat and creampie in.

legit man

Obama agrees

 

[dipenhydramine]

I play mechwarrior online.

idk about dph cuz I have so many other drugs which seem to resemble recreational dph usage

what about datura

i really want to do it

 

[SwissArms]

you need friends

 

[ElTruecel]

You mog me for playing vidya and being a gamer. You could easily make so much money

 

[Lovecraftscat]

I don't like this anymore.

Yes I go to a good rave every ~2 weeks.
I do drugs every week.
I go to the mental ward twice a week.
I have a part-time job 2 days a week.
I go to the gym 3 times a week.
I cook my own healthy meals every day.

Yet I find myself rotting in my room, like, all the time?! that's what it feels like. so empty.

What can I do except my current lifestyle?
There's no opportunity.

I miss something

No friends,family,girlfriend,social-connection?
No real hobby/passion?

Likely these things are completely fucked since I have none of it.

I have a LDAR rotter lifestyle which has some highs and lows from gambling, drugs and going to the mental ward.

Yet my life overall still feels bland and pointless, lifeless. I find myself again and again contemplating suicide but never to the point where I would actually devise a plan and go through with it.

What the fuck is this life

Just play MGS 2 and 3, very good games