Everything wasted

[chestermador]

I can’t even bring myself to go in public anymore unless it’s absolutely mandatory as I am mocked everywhere I go. This shit isn’t even in my head anymore and I know it because of verbal confirmation and years of dirty looks. I was just walking in the store with my family on vacation trying to blend in when I hear some bitch with her friends saying some shit about mogging while laughing at me. How the fuck could they even know my online activities based off my facial expression. I’m a fucking freak and I sacrificed my libido, happiness, and peace to get lean for some hollows that just make me look like even more of a giga tryhard. I think I developed some sort of eye stigmatism from pulling part of my eye as well. This whole vacation made me realize I’m a burden to my family and I even stayed in the room to tan on the balcony while they were all on the beach within viewing distance. I wish I could watch everything from a viewing distance because it’s the only time I feel like I’m not being seen as a freak. Why the fuck do I have to care so much about these random bitches I can’t even get it out of my head, while it was only a small group of people I know the consensus opinion about me would be all the same.

 

[lenvoalt]

I’m not reading all that, but real
I low-key was to scared to go to my job
Interview today
Because I just couldn’t stand to walk in there
And look the way I do

 

[chestermador]

I’m not reading all that, but real
I low-key was to scared to go to my job
Interview today
Because I just couldn’t stand to walk in there
And look the way I do

I remember sitting in my car outside Bojangles for 30 minutes so my mom thought I did the interview
nobody even in that bitch either it was like 3 pm

 

[lenvoalt]

I remember sitting in my car outside Bojangles for 30 minutes so my mom thought I did the interview
nobody even in that bitch either it was like 3 pm

Same I drove there with my mom
I made some excuse and we left but I actually do have another interview tomorrow, so maybe I’ll actually have confidence to go in there

 

[dxoforprez]

i hope you put this much effort in your ela class

 

[chestermador]

Same I drove there with my mom
I made some excuse and we left but I actually do have another interview tomorrow, so maybe I’ll actually have confidence to go in there

good luck bro, I have a job now and am still hesitant to get out of the car to pump my gas. This shit only gets better through exposure or drugs unfortunately

 

[lenvoalt]

good luck bro, I have a job now and am still hesitant to get out of the car to pump my gas. This shit only gets better through exposure or drugs unfortunately

Where’d you get hired at mirin bra I mean, seriously though I don’t really understand this whole thing about not wanting people to see you and me at least I’m making a discovery now like who genuinely cares though
Like I see some fat lady walking across the street and like I look at her like oh she’s fat then you just look away like it’s not that big of a deal
Like what’s gonna happen if you just get out of the car and pump gas like really no matter what people think you’re only not improving your life by limiting yourself
So honestly, I think I’m gonna walk in there tomorrow and nothing is going to change
Because honestly like
Obviously, you have to care where people think but
I think you’re mind
Almost takes control of you and like blows

It
So much more than it needs to be

 

[chestermador]

Where’d you get hired at mirin bra I mean, seriously though I don’t really understand this whole thing about not wanting people to see you and me at least I’m making a discovery now like who genuinely cares though
Like I see some fat lady walking across the street and like I look at her like oh she’s fat then you just look away like it’s not that big of a deal
Like what’s gonna happen if you just get out of the car and pump gas like really no matter what people think you’re only not improving your life by limiting yourself
So honestly, I think I’m gonna walk in there tomorrow and nothing is going to change
Because honestly like
Obviously, you have to care where people think but
I think you’re mind
Almost takes control of you and like blows

It
So much more than it needs to be

I work for some catering company my dad has some influence at and I never even did an interview. Obviously I prefer it this way because it’s decent pay and I didn’t have to go through that humiliating process but I can’t help but feel like nobody respects me for being a nepo baby or some shit. My coworkers always bring up my dad like he’s a legend and I know he is the only reason I could get employed in the state I’m in now. I know 100% what you mean about your mind blowing things out of proportion and it’s so easy to correct that mindset when your in isolation replaying thoughts, but putting it into practice is really difficult for myself and I’ve fought myself over it for a long time. Hopefully you can correct that mindset and move on because it is/ has stunted my childhood to a huge degree

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

I hear some bitch with her friends saying some shit about mogging while laughing at me.

corny ass femoid talking about mogging irl

 

[chestermador]

corny ass femoid talking about mogging irl

Just yelling it in a crowded store as well they really have no shame