Xul1ll
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I was seeing this girl for nine months. I put up with alot alot if bullshit from her like stuff that could've been cheating but it probably wasn't and I chose to belvie her everytime.
I was maybe the happiest I've ever been in my entire life about 1 month ago. I loved her so much, I actually thought that I was going to marry this girl.
Its going to sound cringe but I didn't even look at other girls with lust, I didn't want them. I just wanted her. For everything forever.
I went on a school camp, and on this camp a girl told me that she had cheated on me, long story short it was true.
I litteraly started bawling my eyes out in front of like 30 people from school -complete bitch for doing it like that then in front of everyone.
I didn't know what to do.
I waited to message her beucase I didn't know what to say.
I didn't tell her I knew for three days.
When she messaged me that she knew I was upset about her school trip.
I was on the bus, coincidently sitting behind this girl who told me.
She had kissed a 6'3 htn on her school trip.
They were both drunk together and it happened.
I don't know if they did more.
It doesn't really matter if they did more.
I was finally starting to feel good about how I look.
I can barely fucking look at myself in the mirror anymore.
What the fuck did I do to deserve this, I stayed completely loyal to her the entire time. I fucking hate her so much.
Everytime I think about what happened I just get an overwhelming sense of like remorse and guilt I don't even understand it.
So then I thought maybe I would realise that I have some form of self worth if I tried to move on and go out with a different girl.
And I want to add this new girl is not a rebound I really really do like her alot.
Today I had one of the best days of my life. This new girl who I always kind of liked even before I met my ex. We have a lot in common. We went to study together and then ate goyslop and watched the sunset. I walked her home and said goodngiht.
It was really nice.
And I do really like her.
And sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we dated. But I get so up inside my head about it and I just can't think that will ever happen.
All due to my ex cheating on me.
How the fuck am I supposed to live knowing I was nothing that night.
All her absoulute fucking bullshit compliments and everything we did together.
Completely fake.
How am I supposed to trust someone with my heart like that?
I don't know what to do boys I just need some sort of anti depressant advice.
I really really do like this other girl but I fear she is way out of my league and she's older then me, so she probably thinks that were more like friends?
And I feel like guilty to even try in a way, like I should wait before I try and move on?
But I just don't want to make anyone feel sad so I just don't know what to do.
I really really do like this girl. But I feel like trying to hangout with her while I still have some feelings for my ex is wired and a gross thing to do
I need some advice love you boys.
Long rant sorry.
I was maybe the happiest I've ever been in my entire life about 1 month ago. I loved her so much, I actually thought that I was going to marry this girl.
Its going to sound cringe but I didn't even look at other girls with lust, I didn't want them. I just wanted her. For everything forever.
I went on a school camp, and on this camp a girl told me that she had cheated on me, long story short it was true.
I litteraly started bawling my eyes out in front of like 30 people from school -complete bitch for doing it like that then in front of everyone.
I didn't know what to do.
I waited to message her beucase I didn't know what to say.
I didn't tell her I knew for three days.
When she messaged me that she knew I was upset about her school trip.
I was on the bus, coincidently sitting behind this girl who told me.
She had kissed a 6'3 htn on her school trip.
They were both drunk together and it happened.
I don't know if they did more.
It doesn't really matter if they did more.
I was finally starting to feel good about how I look.
I can barely fucking look at myself in the mirror anymore.
What the fuck did I do to deserve this, I stayed completely loyal to her the entire time. I fucking hate her so much.
Everytime I think about what happened I just get an overwhelming sense of like remorse and guilt I don't even understand it.
So then I thought maybe I would realise that I have some form of self worth if I tried to move on and go out with a different girl.
And I want to add this new girl is not a rebound I really really do like her alot.
Today I had one of the best days of my life. This new girl who I always kind of liked even before I met my ex. We have a lot in common. We went to study together and then ate goyslop and watched the sunset. I walked her home and said goodngiht.
It was really nice.
And I do really like her.
And sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we dated. But I get so up inside my head about it and I just can't think that will ever happen.
All due to my ex cheating on me.
How the fuck am I supposed to live knowing I was nothing that night.
All her absoulute fucking bullshit compliments and everything we did together.
Completely fake.
How am I supposed to trust someone with my heart like that?
I don't know what to do boys I just need some sort of anti depressant advice.
I really really do like this other girl but I fear she is way out of my league and she's older then me, so she probably thinks that were more like friends?
And I feel like guilty to even try in a way, like I should wait before I try and move on?
But I just don't want to make anyone feel sad so I just don't know what to do.
I really really do like this girl. But I feel like trying to hangout with her while I still have some feelings for my ex is wired and a gross thing to do
I need some advice love you boys.
Long rant sorry.


