Abhorrence
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Every morning is the same I wake up with this unexplainable uncomfortable feeling in my chest its almost like I am in physical pain. I try to keep myself occupied doing bullshit so I can escape this feeling but after a while it hits me again and cripples me. Most of the times I need to take melatonin or xanax to fall asleep because my thoughts eat me alive I can't stand being left alone with my thoughts.
I can't take it anymore man I am not comfortable in my skin and my sins eat me alive
This feeling never goes away I try to escape it using drugs but on the long term they only make me spiral down
I can't describe this feeling its like i lost my will to live but I have too much pride and hate to kill myself, I want revenge from the world it owes me
If only I was able to stay focused and work consistently on something I could use this feeling to do something great but I also suffer from learned helplesness
I am one of the most miserable people as you can see too pussy to face his demons
Also I daydream a lot which is another form of escapism, so I can be in control for once. I am way too narcy which make me unable to meaningfully connect with anyone. When I interact with someone I don't give a fuck about what she or he has to say I only care about recieving validation. I wasted my families hard earned money doing fuck all and I still leech of them.
I got in trouble with police many times and I fucked over many people. I still act like a victim and can't take responsibility
There are many many more things about me I can talk all day
I can't take it anymore man I am not comfortable in my skin and my sins eat me alive
This feeling never goes away I try to escape it using drugs but on the long term they only make me spiral down
I can't describe this feeling its like i lost my will to live but I have too much pride and hate to kill myself, I want revenge from the world it owes me
If only I was able to stay focused and work consistently on something I could use this feeling to do something great but I also suffer from learned helplesness
I am one of the most miserable people as you can see too pussy to face his demons
Also I daydream a lot which is another form of escapism, so I can be in control for once. I am way too narcy which make me unable to meaningfully connect with anyone. When I interact with someone I don't give a fuck about what she or he has to say I only care about recieving validation. I wasted my families hard earned money doing fuck all and I still leech of them.
I got in trouble with police many times and I fucked over many people. I still act like a victim and can't take responsibility
There are many many more things about me I can talk all day