Existential despair at 20 years old

[suicidemonkey]

I'm 20 and I'm struggling with a heightened sense of existential awareness.

Just 6 months ago I still thought of myself as somewhat of a "kid", but now I feel as though all of my innocence has permanently been stripped away.

It's a weird feeling, like I have just completely failed to honour my teenage self. It's like I have this awareness that I can't quite describe, even just the other night I was thinking about the fact that a truly "carefree youth" seems impossible. Maybe when I was what? 15, 16, 17? Now, it just seems like a murky image in my mind.

Even if I get some girls, what would that mean? You mfs probably think I'm just coping but all of this seems logical in my mind.

 

[suicidemonkey]

Same I just feel like I missed out on so much I’m 20 aswell

The same feeling? It's like you technically aren't too old to do those same things, but it's like they're missing something.

 

[Vermilioncore]

Bend a phat ass white girl over and sniff her asshole and pussy and make her queef. All problems will dissipate. You’re welcome