Experiencing Hallo Effect With My Little Brother

[SerpentVenom25]

This was 17yo me with my 13yo brother. I’m 18 now, and he’s 14 and he is almost the same height as me (I’m 6’2) and he has the looks, he has tons of friends, he’s fun to be around, a social butterfly, and has had multiple girlfriends in the past too. While I, have experienced non of that. Whenever he couldn’t hang out with his friends, he’d often come and ask me to go on Omegle with him and I’d usually say no for obvious reasons. Though this one time I said yes. It would be an understatement to say that the experience was humiliating and dehumanizing. He would be the only one to talk and show his face because when people saw me, they’d laugh and call me names. All the while I’d hold the phone and girls would ask to get his phone number. When a group of girls would say “omg you’re so cute” I’d have smile and look at him because I know they weren’t talking about me. My little brother left for a minute and I was on the call with the girl that liked him, she told me that I was the “annoying brother” and said she didn’t like me and asked when he’d be back. (I didn’t say anything during the duration I was on the call). I feel awful just walking next to him in public too. I cant focus because the whole time I’m stressed out about how I look compared to him. On top of that, like it couldn’t get worse, he was born with ideal ipd while I am the only one in the family with an awful ipd and esr. So even after I get all these procedures done, he’ll still probably look better then me because of that flaw. It’s honestly saddening to think that I feel this way around my little brother just because of the way I look. It’s not fair, and I don’t want to feel this way. I can only think of how differently everything would’ve been if only I was beautiful.

 

[lifeless]

ugly ass nigga

 

[maxillious]

This was 17yo me with my 13yo brother. I’m 18 now, and he’s 14 and he is almost the same height as me (I’m 6’2) and he has the looks, he has tons of friends, he’s fun to be around, a social butterfly, and has had multiple girlfriends in the past too. While I, have experienced non of that. Whenever he couldn’t hang out with his friends, he’d often come and ask me to go on Omegle with him and I’d usually say no for obvious reasons. Though this one time I said yes. It would be an understatement to say that the experience was humiliating and dehumanizing. He would be the only one to talk and show his face because when people saw me, they’d laugh and call me names. All the while I’d hold the phone and girls would ask to get his phone number. When a group of girls would say “omg you’re so cute” I’d have smile and look at him because I know they weren’t talking about me. My little brother left for a minute and I was on the call with the girl that liked him, she told me that I was the “annoying brother” and said she didn’t like me and asked when he’d be back. (I didn’t say anything during the duration I was on the call). I feel awful just walking next to him in public too. I cant focus because the whole time I’m stressed out about how I look compared to him. On top of that, like it couldn’t get worse, he was born with ideal ipd while I am the only one in the family with an awful ipd and esr. So even after I get all these procedures done, he’ll still probably look better then me because of that flaw. It’s honestly saddening to think that I feel this way around my little brother just because of the way I look. It’s not fair, and I don’t want to feel this way. I can only think of how differently everything would’ve been if only I was beautiful.
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Nigga thats the point of bp that everything is genetics.