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Yesterday I made the following post:
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Today I'll explain the extremely fucked up shit I might've done, it's an extremely embarrassing thing that disturbed me years ago and one week ago it started to disturb me again.
Two years ago in the middle of the pandemic I used to browse reddit and laugh at memes, but the problem is: a lot of the memes people used to post were about cursed things like violence, rape, incest, necrophilia and zoophilia. Then this year I read the story about a movie called "a serbian film" where a dude commits a shit ton of awful things and then commits suicide in the end.
This made my head become extremely fucked up and paranoid which resulted in the following situation:
One week ago I needed to jerk off, but I couldn't bring my phone to the bathroom because my parents would notice, therefore I decided to do the following thing:
I decided to jerk off using my imagination, therefore I looked at a girl from instagram and then I turned off the cell phone and I went to the bathroom: when I went there I was extremely nervous because I didn't want to remember the fucked up memes that I had seen on reddit two years ago. then in the middle of the act when I was thinking about the girl I accidently vaguely remembered some fucked up shit for like 0.0003 seconds and then stopped jerking immediatly and then I concentrated on the memory of the instagram picture again and then I finished it.
Now I think that I might've fucked up extremely badly, I am not sure if this legit happened or if in that moment I was only thinking about the instagram picture but at the same time I was scared of accidently remembering some fucked up shit and ending up commiting a fucked up act. Am I overreacting?
One week ago I tried to jerk off using only my imagination.
Those were legit the worst two minutes of my life, it looked like a situation of life or death. Intrusive thoughts are a bitch.
looksmax.org
Today I'll explain the extremely fucked up shit I might've done, it's an extremely embarrassing thing that disturbed me years ago and one week ago it started to disturb me again.
Two years ago in the middle of the pandemic I used to browse reddit and laugh at memes, but the problem is: a lot of the memes people used to post were about cursed things like violence, rape, incest, necrophilia and zoophilia. Then this year I read the story about a movie called "a serbian film" where a dude commits a shit ton of awful things and then commits suicide in the end.
This made my head become extremely fucked up and paranoid which resulted in the following situation:
One week ago I needed to jerk off, but I couldn't bring my phone to the bathroom because my parents would notice, therefore I decided to do the following thing:
I decided to jerk off using my imagination, therefore I looked at a girl from instagram and then I turned off the cell phone and I went to the bathroom: when I went there I was extremely nervous because I didn't want to remember the fucked up memes that I had seen on reddit two years ago. then in the middle of the act when I was thinking about the girl I accidently vaguely remembered some fucked up shit for like 0.0003 seconds and then stopped jerking immediatly and then I concentrated on the memory of the instagram picture again and then I finished it.
Now I think that I might've fucked up extremely badly, I am not sure if this legit happened or if in that moment I was only thinking about the instagram picture but at the same time I was scared of accidently remembering some fucked up shit and ending up commiting a fucked up act. Am I overreacting?
