Feel totally annihilated

[Deleted member 20399]

Went back on all the dating apps, matched with a HTB on bumble and instantly became paranoid it was a fish. Seems like it was too. Haven’t done shit all day but sit on this site. Probably won’t fall asleep till 5 or 6am. My anxiety only gets worse and I don’t see it ever getting better. My own mind is ruining me and I can’t escape it… can’t reset my fucked up programming. Even on drugs I’m extremely self conscious, thinking about how I’m acting out of character and how embarrassed I will be when sober. I’m constantly on edge, worrying someone will call me out for the walking contradiction i am… when that shit inevitably happens I’m gonna have another panic attack but it will be worse… it will be in public… fuck… I just wanna curl up and die right now

 

[Deleted member 20399]

 

[Deleted member 22124]

Have you tried dopamine reset? There comes a point where drugs stop to work. Even food is good to take a break from, hence why I'll be doing a prolonged fast in the upcoming days.

 

[FaceandBBC]

Unfortunate

 

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