Finding out about all the details of the blackpill after my teenage years demotivated me

[Pale God]

Others might have gotten more motivated but because of my bad financial circumstances and non-existent social circle and career it’s just over.

I knew becoming a NEET would ruin my life but it’s not like I would have preferred it to getting into university. I just didn’t feel like competing against the odds anymore when it came to education.

Studying is fucking bullshit because you forget the useless information anyway after exams or a few years down the line.

So I just played video games, fapped and watched anime instead of trying to graduate night school with good grades. At one point I just said to myself I‘m gonna become a rapper or just stay unemployed and dropped out of school even though I would have made it to the final year. I was convinced I would fail the final exams and that’s I just went ahead a dropped out way earlier.

I applied at McDonalds and some audio engineering school but didn’t go to either in the end. I also didn’t feel like starting an apprenticeship and just chilled.

I don’t really regret it but at the same time I wasted time and could have looksmaxxed and wageslaved a bit to afford some surgeries but since the state pays for my appartment‘s rent and other stuff I couldn’t even have saved that much.

I‘m thinking of selling all my stuff and just geomaxxing but then I‘ll have a new problem and that is that I‘ll have to work a shitty job to survive. It’s just over.

 

[Pale God]

It may not be over but I don’t wanna go to a shit hole like China to be a White monkey or join Jehova‘s Witnesses in my country. Gotta figure out some better plan.

 

[Deleted member 27066]

Pathetic

 

[Pale God]

Pathetic

Could be worse. I am probably in the top 20% in when it comes to looks in this forum since my base is pretty good.

It would be completely over if I had brown eyes, was Asian, Indian or not 6‘3.

Geomaxxing would probably solve my problems when it comes to getting women and if I somehow acquired 10-50K and started working out again I would mog 80-90% of humanity.