optimisticzoomer
Salutations my children
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Hey guys,
If you read my previous post on this sub, I'd wrote about how I was suddenly able to last longer in bed after over a decade of PE. Anyways, I've thought about it a lot, and the only thing that makes sense is that it's due to porn withdrawal.
I was addicted to porn even before I got married. The only difference is that unlike most porn addicts I wasn't jerking off to porn. See, I grew up in a crowded household and didn't have the privacy to masturbate when I wanted to. What I did instead was sit in a corner with my back against the wall, while binge watching porn on my phone or laptop.
I tried to quit many times but would relapse in less than a month. This continued into my marriage and when I had any privacy at all, I'd find myself watching porn or something close to it like the scantily clad women on Instagram and Tik Tok.
During all these years, I never thought my PE was related to porn. I was so sure it was all physiological. I read all the theories posted by the other members of this sub and convinced myself it was a mixture of weak pelvic floor muscles and a hyper sensitive frenulum. After all, I did feel the throbbing in my pelvic floor muscles when there was pressure on my frenulum.
But I never could commit myself to the pelvic floor exercises or desensitizing my frenulum, so I'm sure that is not what cured me.
What actually happened is that I had beat my porn addiction almost by accident. A few months ago, I had noticed that I was getting distant from my wife and kids, and preferring to spend more time on my phone watching porn and sexy women. I decided to clean up my social media and unfollowed all those accounts and started watching unrelated content so that it will not appear in my recommended feeds either. I also started playing some video games with the kids to spend more time with them.
About a month later, I had a medical situation for a close family member and I got caught up in it while juggling work and home responsibilities at the same time. I simply didn't have any time left to even think about porn. By the time I wrote my previous post I'd been porn free for about 3 months, and for the first time in decades, I didn't have the urge to go back to it.
Coming back to my PE, it's not like I can last as long as I want to, but it's so much more manageable than before. I have to be mindful of my positions and speed, but I'm able to comfortably have sex for at least a couple of minutes without worrying about exploding before I'm halfway inside. When we do it more frequently I'm able to last between 10 to 20 minutes. For the first time, I'm able to fuck her hard and fast like she always wanted. I'm also able to recover much faster, and I'm generally more interested in doing it more often.
It feels like I'm finally learning to have sex the right way, at 35 fucking years old. I feel like kicking myself when I think of all the years I've wasted due to my porn addiction. If you read my post history, you'll also find that I've let my wife cuckold me since I was unable to satisfy her. I've decided to let her be with her current bull for the time being. Since I was the reason she had to experience this lifestyle in the first place, I feel like it's only fair that she gets to leave on her own terms. At least, now she doesn't have to keep doing it out of necessity.
If you read my previous post on this sub, I'd wrote about how I was suddenly able to last longer in bed after over a decade of PE. Anyways, I've thought about it a lot, and the only thing that makes sense is that it's due to porn withdrawal.
I was addicted to porn even before I got married. The only difference is that unlike most porn addicts I wasn't jerking off to porn. See, I grew up in a crowded household and didn't have the privacy to masturbate when I wanted to. What I did instead was sit in a corner with my back against the wall, while binge watching porn on my phone or laptop.
I tried to quit many times but would relapse in less than a month. This continued into my marriage and when I had any privacy at all, I'd find myself watching porn or something close to it like the scantily clad women on Instagram and Tik Tok.
During all these years, I never thought my PE was related to porn. I was so sure it was all physiological. I read all the theories posted by the other members of this sub and convinced myself it was a mixture of weak pelvic floor muscles and a hyper sensitive frenulum. After all, I did feel the throbbing in my pelvic floor muscles when there was pressure on my frenulum.
But I never could commit myself to the pelvic floor exercises or desensitizing my frenulum, so I'm sure that is not what cured me.
What actually happened is that I had beat my porn addiction almost by accident. A few months ago, I had noticed that I was getting distant from my wife and kids, and preferring to spend more time on my phone watching porn and sexy women. I decided to clean up my social media and unfollowed all those accounts and started watching unrelated content so that it will not appear in my recommended feeds either. I also started playing some video games with the kids to spend more time with them.
About a month later, I had a medical situation for a close family member and I got caught up in it while juggling work and home responsibilities at the same time. I simply didn't have any time left to even think about porn. By the time I wrote my previous post I'd been porn free for about 3 months, and for the first time in decades, I didn't have the urge to go back to it.
Coming back to my PE, it's not like I can last as long as I want to, but it's so much more manageable than before. I have to be mindful of my positions and speed, but I'm able to comfortably have sex for at least a couple of minutes without worrying about exploding before I'm halfway inside. When we do it more frequently I'm able to last between 10 to 20 minutes. For the first time, I'm able to fuck her hard and fast like she always wanted. I'm also able to recover much faster, and I'm generally more interested in doing it more often.
It feels like I'm finally learning to have sex the right way, at 35 fucking years old. I feel like kicking myself when I think of all the years I've wasted due to my porn addiction. If you read my post history, you'll also find that I've let my wife cuckold me since I was unable to satisfy her. I've decided to let her be with her current bull for the time being. Since I was the reason she had to experience this lifestyle in the first place, I feel like it's only fair that she gets to leave on her own terms. At least, now she doesn't have to keep doing it out of necessity.
