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My post was taken down from one of the subs and as this is a throwaway I cannot post to a whole lot of subReddits.
I have no idea why I am even sharing this. It’s been 3 whole days and I’m still processing what just happened. To all those who think this is fake, I understand why. This story will probably be something that SHOULD be fake. However my soon to be ex is a terrible person and he did a terrible thing that no one should have to go through. This is my lived experience and I am just wanting to vent here and gather some thoughts as a way to help process things.
To preface, I am a terrible person too. My infertility issues have been extremely severe on me emotionally and mentally and it’s heartbreaking that I can never be a mom. My husband completely alienated me but won’t divorce me. I understand that not being able to experience being a father can be equally soul crushing but I feel a literal physical pain in my body as it can’t do the one thing I want it to do. We still used to talk and had a normalish relationship however he wouldn’t comfort me when I felt inadequate. After what he did, he doesn’t deserve to be a father.
I am a terrible person because I started cheating on my husband. I own it. Yes, I did it out of spite and wanting to feel desired and connected to someone. Yes, I am terrible. I was going to confess to him and had mentally prepared myself for divorce.
Three days ago, when this traumatic situation happened with me, it started quite nicely for me. My husband hugged me from behind and whispered that he wanted us to have sex. I had just come home from work. It felt amazing to finally feel his touch. We hadn’t been intimate for a long time and I missed our BDSM activities. As usual, he made me sit on a chair that restrained my limbs, and put duct tape over my mouth. I was excited when he went inside the storage room and brought up a girl. I had no idea and wanted out.
I am struggling to type what happened after. It’s still so terrifying to think about everything. He proceeded to make out with her and undress her. I was struggling to get out and started hyperventilating and crying. I could feel my screams inside my body that I couldn’t let out. I could feel my hot tears streaming down my face.
He told me he knew I was cheating so I better get prepared for this. He started saying extremely vile things about my infertility and it was extremely extremely hurtful. It felt like daggers in my heart which were repeatedly getting twisted. He said stuff about my genitals and my ovaries that I cannot bring myself to type. He was getting off on how hot it would be to get a nice girl like her pregnant and how he can’t wait to put a baby in her healthy body. This was just so cruel and so unnecessary.
This went on and on for 40 minutes. It was torture. Then, when he untied me and removed the tape, I projectile vomited onto the floor and passed out. I just feel so fucking violated.
When I woke up, he left. I have been crying ever since and he hasn’t come back. I haven’t said a word to anyone about this and afraid what this means for me. I am in an at-fault divorce state and wanna know if this constitutes as violence? I wasn’t physically hurt or anything. I have locked the house and fear for my safety.
I know I am a terrible person for cheating on him first but do I deserve this?
I have no idea why I am even sharing this. It’s been 3 whole days and I’m still processing what just happened. To all those who think this is fake, I understand why. This story will probably be something that SHOULD be fake. However my soon to be ex is a terrible person and he did a terrible thing that no one should have to go through. This is my lived experience and I am just wanting to vent here and gather some thoughts as a way to help process things.
To preface, I am a terrible person too. My infertility issues have been extremely severe on me emotionally and mentally and it’s heartbreaking that I can never be a mom. My husband completely alienated me but won’t divorce me. I understand that not being able to experience being a father can be equally soul crushing but I feel a literal physical pain in my body as it can’t do the one thing I want it to do. We still used to talk and had a normalish relationship however he wouldn’t comfort me when I felt inadequate. After what he did, he doesn’t deserve to be a father.
I am a terrible person because I started cheating on my husband. I own it. Yes, I did it out of spite and wanting to feel desired and connected to someone. Yes, I am terrible. I was going to confess to him and had mentally prepared myself for divorce.
Three days ago, when this traumatic situation happened with me, it started quite nicely for me. My husband hugged me from behind and whispered that he wanted us to have sex. I had just come home from work. It felt amazing to finally feel his touch. We hadn’t been intimate for a long time and I missed our BDSM activities. As usual, he made me sit on a chair that restrained my limbs, and put duct tape over my mouth. I was excited when he went inside the storage room and brought up a girl. I had no idea and wanted out.
I am struggling to type what happened after. It’s still so terrifying to think about everything. He proceeded to make out with her and undress her. I was struggling to get out and started hyperventilating and crying. I could feel my screams inside my body that I couldn’t let out. I could feel my hot tears streaming down my face.
He told me he knew I was cheating so I better get prepared for this. He started saying extremely vile things about my infertility and it was extremely extremely hurtful. It felt like daggers in my heart which were repeatedly getting twisted. He said stuff about my genitals and my ovaries that I cannot bring myself to type. He was getting off on how hot it would be to get a nice girl like her pregnant and how he can’t wait to put a baby in her healthy body. This was just so cruel and so unnecessary.
This went on and on for 40 minutes. It was torture. Then, when he untied me and removed the tape, I projectile vomited onto the floor and passed out. I just feel so fucking violated.
When I woke up, he left. I have been crying ever since and he hasn’t come back. I haven’t said a word to anyone about this and afraid what this means for me. I am in an at-fault divorce state and wanna know if this constitutes as violence? I wasn’t physically hurt or anything. I have locked the house and fear for my safety.
I know I am a terrible person for cheating on him first but do I deserve this?