FutureExoticChad
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I found out about 20 minutes ago when I was talking to my friends in a group call on Snapchat that just ended a few minutes ago
For context: We all used to go to the same middle school and sat at the same lunch table through out the last 2 years of middle school (7th - 8th grade), before we all moved and left for different high schools (besides 2 guys: a Latino and a Half-Jewish / Half-White guy).
We were on call, and while we were on the subject of girls the Half Jewish guy told me that he was talking to this girl that goes to the same school as him since he (along with the other Latino), were the only 2 who decided to go to the local high school and never moved out.
He told me that him and this girl were talking about her potentially getting a boyfriend, and she apparently said that during the 8th grade, her (along with a notable amount of other girls) thought I was good looking during the 8th grade and would have liked to date me, but were too hesitant as they thought I was some knuckle head that would talk to nobody since I just kept to myself throughout most of the school year whilst occasionally pulling something that would warrant I wasn't some nice guy cuck who took anything from anyone.
At first I was surprised / disappointed since during the moment he told me this since I saw this as a wasted chance to slay and run just be first game, but after 5 minutes of objective thinking, I cant say am too shocked about this since anymore.
Throughout my middle school years (especially the 8th grade), I would just mind my business and talk to a few people, then out of nowhere pull something occasionally that would end up giving me status around my middle school that at the very least shut down any thought / idea that I was a quiet cuck that would allow anybody to pick on him / bully him. The most infamous examples that come to mind are:
1) When I spat on the opponent-teams goal keeper during a soccer game since he was being a provocative prick who kept making fun of me and some other teammates and ended up bruising his face, which ended up giving me a red card / 6 match ban that had to be negotiated down by my coach because he couldn't afford to lose a pacy 2 footed winger who could take anybody on a 1v1
Everybody at my school saw this since everybody comes to the soccer games. This was easily the highest status moment of my life as of yet since kids all across my school district were posting this on their snap stories and I was getting messaged and asked about this both IRL and on social media, + I was already known for being at least top 3 in my school district for soccer along side this white fluffy haired mid fielder and a black tall striker.
Proof this happened:
(I cant post the fight video, too risky and can get me doxxed)
2) obliterating this chubby Latino guy in the school bathroom because he wouldn't stop saying he'd fuck my mom since we somehow started arguing during PE. I honestly cant recall how it managed to escalate to that point but I can vividly remember feeling pretty infuriated before leaving to go to the bathroom to fight him with all the other guys who were following us that were watching the whole conflict unfold and eventually followed us into the bathroom instigate the whole thing.
I ended up getting sent to alternative school for 1 month but looking back in retrospect, I don't regret it whatsoever. Alternative school mogs hard imo: only 4 hours of school, infinitely less school work, chill guys / teachers all around you, all in all a chill experience. This happened before the school soccer fight incident.
Now with all of this being said, I have a theory as to why those girls actually never wanted to approach me / initiate anything with me:
They understood that they wouldn't have held any power in a hypothetical relationship with me - alongside recognizing I had enough SMV to not be tied down to dating them solely. However I lacked the looks level to justify dealing with said power imbalance, so in their minds the reward was never worth the work it would have taken to get it.
In other words: I was in looks purgatory, but my death sentence of being in this purgatory zone was infinitely more exaggerated by my behavior of being both reserved / quiet, yet standing up for myself / retaliating if I felt the need to.
If I had canceled one of the 2 behaviors and completely committed to going to the full extreme on one of 2 sides of this spectrum of behavior, then said girl would have felt it would have been justified to initiate something with me since she could at least understand what she would be getting into if she were to get into a relationship with me, which would have been one of the 2 personality types:
1) Constantly talking / conversing with women like a pragmatic dog, but standing up and retaliating when need be - In this case would be ideal for the woman In terms of social status, enthusiasm within the relationship, etc
2) Never talk / converse with women and remain reserved, but never retaliating / standing up for myself in a a relationship - Which would be ideal for the woman in terms of the power she holds within said relationship
Both of which I don't fall into completely. I believe this is the very root / cause of my mental abuse when it comes to my success with women. I couldn't get away with being nuanced with my behavior since being on the lower end of the looks purgatory zone means you're in the most cucked position one could be in for dating.
TLDR:
My face isn't good enough to justify any form of behavior, yet isn't poor enough to have women recognize me as a safe LTR cuck who would be powerless in a relationship.
My behavior isn't robust / aggressive enough to attract women due to the halo of being known as a low inhib jestering normie, yet it isn't quiet / reserved enough to have women recognize me as someone who they would feel safe with in a LTR with.
This is the very root of all of my mental abuse when it comes to women, and I've managed to become enlightened to this after about 10 minutes of objective thinking after my friend told me there was a multiple girls during my middle school years that thought I looked good but were too afraid to make it publicly known due to said physical / social failos.
@6ft4
For context: We all used to go to the same middle school and sat at the same lunch table through out the last 2 years of middle school (7th - 8th grade), before we all moved and left for different high schools (besides 2 guys: a Latino and a Half-Jewish / Half-White guy).
We were on call, and while we were on the subject of girls the Half Jewish guy told me that he was talking to this girl that goes to the same school as him since he (along with the other Latino), were the only 2 who decided to go to the local high school and never moved out.
He told me that him and this girl were talking about her potentially getting a boyfriend, and she apparently said that during the 8th grade, her (along with a notable amount of other girls) thought I was good looking during the 8th grade and would have liked to date me, but were too hesitant as they thought I was some knuckle head that would talk to nobody since I just kept to myself throughout most of the school year whilst occasionally pulling something that would warrant I wasn't some nice guy cuck who took anything from anyone.
At first I was surprised / disappointed since during the moment he told me this since I saw this as a wasted chance to slay and run just be first game, but after 5 minutes of objective thinking, I cant say am too shocked about this since anymore.
Throughout my middle school years (especially the 8th grade), I would just mind my business and talk to a few people, then out of nowhere pull something occasionally that would end up giving me status around my middle school that at the very least shut down any thought / idea that I was a quiet cuck that would allow anybody to pick on him / bully him. The most infamous examples that come to mind are:
1) When I spat on the opponent-teams goal keeper during a soccer game since he was being a provocative prick who kept making fun of me and some other teammates and ended up bruising his face, which ended up giving me a red card / 6 match ban that had to be negotiated down by my coach because he couldn't afford to lose a pacy 2 footed winger who could take anybody on a 1v1
Everybody at my school saw this since everybody comes to the soccer games. This was easily the highest status moment of my life as of yet since kids all across my school district were posting this on their snap stories and I was getting messaged and asked about this both IRL and on social media, + I was already known for being at least top 3 in my school district for soccer along side this white fluffy haired mid fielder and a black tall striker.
Proof this happened:
(I cant post the fight video, too risky and can get me doxxed)
2) obliterating this chubby Latino guy in the school bathroom because he wouldn't stop saying he'd fuck my mom since we somehow started arguing during PE. I honestly cant recall how it managed to escalate to that point but I can vividly remember feeling pretty infuriated before leaving to go to the bathroom to fight him with all the other guys who were following us that were watching the whole conflict unfold and eventually followed us into the bathroom instigate the whole thing.
I ended up getting sent to alternative school for 1 month but looking back in retrospect, I don't regret it whatsoever. Alternative school mogs hard imo: only 4 hours of school, infinitely less school work, chill guys / teachers all around you, all in all a chill experience. This happened before the school soccer fight incident.
Now with all of this being said, I have a theory as to why those girls actually never wanted to approach me / initiate anything with me:
They understood that they wouldn't have held any power in a hypothetical relationship with me - alongside recognizing I had enough SMV to not be tied down to dating them solely. However I lacked the looks level to justify dealing with said power imbalance, so in their minds the reward was never worth the work it would have taken to get it.
In other words: I was in looks purgatory, but my death sentence of being in this purgatory zone was infinitely more exaggerated by my behavior of being both reserved / quiet, yet standing up for myself / retaliating if I felt the need to.
If I had canceled one of the 2 behaviors and completely committed to going to the full extreme on one of 2 sides of this spectrum of behavior, then said girl would have felt it would have been justified to initiate something with me since she could at least understand what she would be getting into if she were to get into a relationship with me, which would have been one of the 2 personality types:
1) Constantly talking / conversing with women like a pragmatic dog, but standing up and retaliating when need be - In this case would be ideal for the woman In terms of social status, enthusiasm within the relationship, etc
2) Never talk / converse with women and remain reserved, but never retaliating / standing up for myself in a a relationship - Which would be ideal for the woman in terms of the power she holds within said relationship
Both of which I don't fall into completely. I believe this is the very root / cause of my mental abuse when it comes to my success with women. I couldn't get away with being nuanced with my behavior since being on the lower end of the looks purgatory zone means you're in the most cucked position one could be in for dating.
TLDR:
My face isn't good enough to justify any form of behavior, yet isn't poor enough to have women recognize me as a safe LTR cuck who would be powerless in a relationship.
My behavior isn't robust / aggressive enough to attract women due to the halo of being known as a low inhib jestering normie, yet it isn't quiet / reserved enough to have women recognize me as someone who they would feel safe with in a LTR with.
This is the very root of all of my mental abuse when it comes to women, and I've managed to become enlightened to this after about 10 minutes of objective thinking after my friend told me there was a multiple girls during my middle school years that thought I looked good but were too afraid to make it publicly known due to said physical / social failos.
@6ft4
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