Friends called me corny and unbearable behind my back

[poreskin]

Ive known these guys for the last year but we hung out maybe 5-10 times.

I know them from my best friend who Im really really close with and he’s equally as close with me

We hangout for like 3 hours our last time and everything is good m

——

A week later he calls me my best friend and tells me why he didn’t bring me this time because two other kids said about me being corny and cringey and unbearable any they requested i don’t come

And he calmly justifies it and says “you realize from their perspective” and explains my flaws

And he said nothing personal and to take it as a learning experience

———-

I wish I was born nt and yeah, Im not being invited to their hangouts, maybe with just my best friend but that’s rare that he’s not with them

Im just reflecting because Ive really beeb confident these past weeks but I realized that my justification for my confidence is gone

The fact that I can inflict pure cortisol into someone without realizing it

If my mom didnt do bullshit i likely would’ve had the proper nuerotrabsmitter development to realize what I did was wrong

Now the best thing is to stay quiet and no corny shit but non chalant for good reason and good measure, and good reason, because my ego and self worth is rightly too low to be portayed into the real world

And it was my fault
————

I guess Im not super mad since they didnt bring value into my life but imagine I did this with a better potiental connection or partner


“Do whatever makes you happy”

What if what makes me happy is how people find me worthy, or respected,

How do I find self happiness and reassurance

 

[mltnisme124]

Ive known these guys for the last year but we hung out maybe 5-10 times.

I know them from my best friend who Im really really close with and he’s equally as close with me

We hangout for like 3 hours our last time and everything is good m

——

A week later he calls me my best friend and tells me why he didn’t bring me this time because two other kids said about me being corny and cringey and unbearable any they requested i don’t come

And he calmly justifies it and says “you realize from their perspective” and explains my flaws

And he said nothing personal and to take it as a learning experience

———-

I wish I was born nt and yeah, Im not being invited to their hangouts, maybe with just my best friend but that’s rare that he’s not with them

Im just reflecting because Ive really beeb confident these past weeks but I realized that my justification for my confidence is gone

The fact that I can inflict pure cortisol into someone without realizing it

If my mom didnt do bullshit i likely would’ve had the proper nuerotrabsmitter development to realize what I did was wrong

Now the best thing is to stay quiet and no corny shit but non chalant for good reason and good measure, and good reason, because my ego and self worth is rightly too low to be portayed into the real world

And it was my fault
————

I guess Im not super mad since they didnt bring value into my life but imagine I did this with a better potiental connection or partner


“Do whatever makes you happy”

What if what makes me happy is how people find me worthy, or respected,

How do I find self happiness and reassurance

dont find a new group, take some time to relax and think about some good things about you. dont take it to the heart. do things you enjoy and live life without worrying about them

 

[lurker23]

had a similar situation with my high school friend group and cut them off, never looked back and just found new friends.

 

[poreskin]

dont find a new group, take some time to relax and think about some good things about you. dont take it to the heart. do things you enjoy and live life without worrying about them

Find or dont find a new group on

nothing excites me anymore or is high cost to do or would be enjoyable with someone whom I connect to