Fuck despersonalization

[R@m@]

It feels good if its just for a while but months go by and youre in this state of not being aware of time passing by, ive lost awareness of time since september last year, I didnt experience christmas or new years eve altought I celebrated it it felt like almost nothing

I would be doing fun stuff like backpacking but my old self isnt there to experience it

 

[Zikel_Nut]

Been in my depersonalization phase for 4 years now, can't even remember anything monumental that happened throughout those years. I think I'm depressed but I'm just to dumb to admit it.

 

[R@m@]

Been in my depersonalization phase for 4 years now, can't even remember anything monumental that happened throughout those years. I think I'm depressed but I'm just to dumb to admit it.

Can you atleast enjoy things?

Or you are completely numb?

 

[PsychoDsk]

I feel ya
Luckily I could fix it by fully focussing on the gym and making it my top priority. Gradually I started recognizing myself again after being proud of what I was seeing in the mirror

how's it now OP?

 

[R@m@]

I feel ya
Luckily I could fix it by fully focussing on the gym and making it my top priority. Gradually I started recognizing myself again after being proud of what I was seeing in the mirror

how's it now OP?

Slightly better

 

[PsychoDsk]

Slightly better

quit the drugs tho

 

[Zikel_Nut]

Can you atleast enjoy things?

Or you are completely numb?

I enjoy things with my family, but it's all just shallow fun—getting drinks with my family, getting on vacations trips with our dad on his break is fun and all but it's just that, shallow fun.

I don't have that something to really cling on to continue living this life I have. I wanna go gym and do stuffs to change my life for the better but I just a have hard time sticking doing the same thing over and over again. I don't know anymore honestly.

 

[R@m@]

quit the drugs tho

Thats the reason why I got it+burnout from working injured in construction

Like I started to have pannick attacks I wasnt being myself anymore and from there it was a spiral of madness

 

[PsychoDsk]

Thats the reason why I got it+burnout from working injured in construction

Like I started to have pannick attacks I wasnt being myself anymore and from there it was a spiral of madness

literally same for me
couldn't even get one word out anymore without thinking everyone would see me as crazy or weird
Lsd fucked me up bigtime back in the day

but aye, it'll get better broski

 

[R@m@]

I enjoy things with my family, but it's all just shallow fun—getting drinks with my family, getting on vacations trips with our dad on his break is fun and all but it's just that, shallow fun.

I don't have that something to really cling on to continue living this life I have. I wanna go gym and do stuffs to change my life for the better but I just a have hard time sticking doing the same thing over and over again. I don't know anymore honestly.

I completely relate