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Wow, I really miss her, never even realized how much, I denied that until now because of fear since she already rejected me so I don’t want to have any more feelings than I already have for her (we will talk about this later). But I had a dream about her today, and it was the best dream ever, I really woke up and thought about putting the gun my dad have in my fucking mouth. For reference she’s Hmtb.
Backstory: almost exactly one year ago, me and my friends went to a party. The party was ok i guess, not something crazy. Let’s go a few months back to understand my relationship with her- she was my crush for at least 5 months before that party, I thought about her all the time, couldn’t last a day without thinking about her. She didn’t even know me (or at least that’s what thought).
So back to the story- I was in a party with my friends. It was okay far 2-3 and then it happened, my oneitis came up to me and started dancing beside me, I was high inhib (and still am
), so I ignored her for like 2-3 times. Then went outside the party to drink some water with a friend of mine. When I came back another friend told me that she (my oneitis) said to him that she find me hot asf, I was hyped up so the next time she came up to me and started dancing beside me, I didn’t hold back and started talking with her. We talked like 10 minutes then I asked her if she wanna go outside, we both knew we find each other attractive. We then proceeded to walk out the party, talk a bit and then we finally kissed a few times. And you know what she told me? That she stalked me on every platform every day for 2 months before that party and that she thought I don’t care about her at all, oh the irony.
Later that night I asked her on insta (we already followed each other since we’re in the same grade and school) and we talked a bit. We talked like 1 weeks after that party and then I asked her if she want an LTR or it was just a fling to her, she said she thinks I’m really cute and all but she’s not ready for an LTR and maybe it will happen in the future.
So here I am venting about a girl I will never have and think about 24/7 for a year straight now while she probably already has a bf. I miss her man, and I have nothing I can do about her, if only my inhib wasn’t that high.
I can’t think of another girl bro, I just can’t, I want her.
Tagging other oneitis venters:
@superpsycho @asiangymmax @Proex
Backstory: almost exactly one year ago, me and my friends went to a party. The party was ok i guess, not something crazy. Let’s go a few months back to understand my relationship with her- she was my crush for at least 5 months before that party, I thought about her all the time, couldn’t last a day without thinking about her. She didn’t even know me (or at least that’s what thought).
So back to the story- I was in a party with my friends. It was okay far 2-3 and then it happened, my oneitis came up to me and started dancing beside me, I was high inhib (and still am
), so I ignored her for like 2-3 times. Then went outside the party to drink some water with a friend of mine. When I came back another friend told me that she (my oneitis) said to him that she find me hot asf, I was hyped up so the next time she came up to me and started dancing beside me, I didn’t hold back and started talking with her. We talked like 10 minutes then I asked her if she wanna go outside, we both knew we find each other attractive. We then proceeded to walk out the party, talk a bit and then we finally kissed a few times. And you know what she told me? That she stalked me on every platform every day for 2 months before that party and that she thought I don’t care about her at all, oh the irony. Later that night I asked her on insta (we already followed each other since we’re in the same grade and school) and we talked a bit. We talked like 1 weeks after that party and then I asked her if she want an LTR or it was just a fling to her, she said she thinks I’m really cute and all but she’s not ready for an LTR and maybe it will happen in the future.
So here I am venting about a girl I will never have and think about 24/7 for a year straight now while she probably already has a bf. I miss her man, and I have nothing I can do about her, if only my inhib wasn’t that high.
I can’t think of another girl bro, I just can’t, I want her.
Tagging other oneitis venters:
@superpsycho @asiangymmax @Proex
