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MoriBountarou2
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Im out sunbathing and a couple had to fucking ruin it. At the spot that i am theres no one but i can look across at the place where people just have picnics or whatever. There a young couple came and they are having a picnic. Day ruined even more (+ what i said on my last post). I dont even hate them. Everywhere i go the people i see i get this feeling of hate towards them but i know i dont, i hate my life not them. Its so over for me i cant even imagine myself in a relationship. It has always been like this. Even when i was really young i couldnt. I never could. It felt wrong. Like something so unlikely theres not even a point imagining it. I just remembered a dream i had 3 days ago where a girl was sitting on the ground and i was crying and she signaled to me to come over and then told me to lay on her lap and was telling me everything was going to be okay while giving me headpats. I knew it was over but holy shit now that I'm writing it down i can truly see how pathetic i am 
