genuine autism advice please

[CD34]

im so fucking ND its not even funny

i cannot maintain a conversation without following a preset script in my head

i dont know when to stop speaking

i cannot drop people for the life of me

i have no relatable interests

i have struggles understanding basic concepts such as gender norms or the desire to work etc

i express little to no empathy but feel it deeply

have never talked about my feelings to anyone irl

i found out my parents have known im autistic for a long time but didnt get anything done with it because they didnt want retarded children

any advice bhais?

Just fake ntness and drug yourself to be more low inhib

 

[dipenhydramine]

Idk what are normal things people like, and even if I knew how would I talk abt it?

I have hobbies, I like chess, biology, video editing, computer science, astrology and a bunch of other shit I can't remember.

But if I talk abt the things I like I will practically be talking to a wall because its too complex

And even if it was a nt hobby like soccer, most girls don't even like soccer so wtf am I supposed to talk abt?

yeah thats how it is

i have NT hobbies but i go into so much detail its no longer NT have nobody to talk to

 

[dipenhydramine]

Np. If you really want you can dm if you wanna talk some more even tho idk how much ill be on org in the next 2 months or so.
Looking schizoid is probably worse if you built up too much of a nt normoid fassade, which i was never able to do.

100% we can talk

i feel like i have a few schizoid tendancies but i recognise its schizoid so im not fully gone

I feel like a mix between NT and ND has the most appeal otherwise you would be boring