Enfant terrible
Kraken
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Hey everyone,
Its my first separation, the relationship went on for almost four years.
Two days ago, my girlfriend confessed to me that she had slept with a guy the night before after a party. For me, a world collapsed at that moment and I got gasps because for me the relationship had run its course. We talked for about an hour or cried about our relationship and told each other memories, as well as our plans for the future, which were now gone.
In the last two days I am trying to get back on my life.
Therefore, I have started to write down my thoughts and feelings of the last three days (Helps really well). Well, I noticed that I always write my girlfriend in the passive role. "He fucked her..." or "She was towed.." or "They went in with her and then he went in with her.". Until I thought to myself, "She was drunk. She was horny. She towed him away. She let him drive her home. She blew him and she put him in front of the door afterwards."
When I read that and saw her in the active role, I thought to myself, "My girlfriend is pretty cool."
Can you understand the thought? I am her first relationship and her first sexual partner and she has just developed strongly in the three years, from a passive person to an energetic active person. It doesn't change the fact that she cheated on me, I know. I also just try to convince myself on cramp just to give us a second chance, so as not to be alone. But I'm still kind of proud of her and it kind of makes me smile at this time.
Is that understandable? Or does anyone know the thought from his separation?