
iblamemandible7
I will ascend
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Lately I cant shake the feeling that God is furious at me and my life is a punishment for doing something horrible to him in a past life. Why else would God make me subhuman and ND? I cant handle what I feel when I look in the mirror. Ive never been able to handle it for my whole life. And for that reason I cant even blame others when they see me and cant control their reaction of visceral disgust that lots of you are familiar with. Its all in the eyes. When I was 10 years old I used to come home from school and beg God to just make me look human like everyone else. He never answered. Im not mad at anyone and I cannot have hate for anyone when I can only direct it at myself, I just wonder why life is set up this way and for what purpose it serves.