God intended for me to have less than others

[Magical Apple]

One theory I have is that every individual has a unique narrative to follow that tests him or her in some way. Call it their karma or a "divine plan." How one passes is something that only that individual will know. Everyone will instinctively feel what his or her narrative is and the way that it is intended to be fulfilled. If one passes it they will be filled with a sense of fulfillment at the end of life but if they fail they will be filled with a deep sense of sorrow or pain. My theory is that my test was being inferior to others around me. I was not meant to have high status, success, find my ideal romantic partners or even be particularly respected by others. I was supposed to endure this injustice, and retain a steadfast sense of morality and not become embittered and resort to taking what was not intended for me.

Of course you see, the first thing I did was do everything I could do break this narrative I was given. I remember very clearly that my narrative started to go of course in highschool when I began dating attractive milfs that I could tell I was not supposed to. I have a feeling that the bad ending is that I achieve many of the things I wanted means and wind up suffering terribly in the end. E.g. I will eventually find an unusually beautiful and virtuous wife but somehow be very unhappy. If I want to go back on narrative the only solution for me is to become a hermit/monk at this point.

@Ramzan is fire

 

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One theory I have is that every individual has a unique narrative to follow that tests him or her in some way. Call it their karma or a "divine plan." How one passes is something that only that individual will know. Everyone will instinctively feel what his or her narrative is and the way that it is intended to be fulfilled. If one passes it they will be filled with a sense of fulfillment at the end of life but if they fail they will be filled with a deep sense of sorrow or pain. My theory is that my test was being inferior to others around me. I was not meant to have high status, success, find my ideal romantic partners or even be particularly respected by others. I was supposed to endure this injustice, and retain a steadfast sense of morality and not become embittered and resort to taking what was not intended for me.

Of course you see, the first thing I did was do everything I could do break this narrative I was given. I remember very clearly that my narrative started to go of course in highschool when I began dating attractive milfs that I could tell I was not supposed to. I have a feeling that the bad ending is that I achieve many of the things I wanted means and wind up suffering terribly in the end. E.g. I will eventually find an unusually beautiful and virtuous wife but somehow be very unhappy. If I want to go back on narrative the only solution for me is to become a hermit/monk at this point.

@Ramzan is fire

Very good post. Mashallah

 

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[Deleted member 21182]

One theory I have is that every individual has a unique narrative to follow that tests him or her in some way. Call it their karma or a "divine plan." How one passes is something that only that individual will know. Everyone will instinctively feel what his or her narrative is and the way that it is intended to be fulfilled. If one passes it they will be filled with a sense of fulfillment at the end of life but if they fail they will be filled with a deep sense of sorrow or pain. My theory is that my test was being inferior to others around me. I was not meant to have high status, success, find my ideal romantic partners or even be particularly respected by others. I was supposed to endure this injustice, and retain a steadfast sense of morality and not become embittered and resort to taking what was not intended for me.

Of course you see, the first thing I did was do everything I could do break this narrative I was given. I remember very clearly that my narrative started to go of course in highschool when I began dating attractive milfs that I could tell I was not supposed to. I have a feeling that the bad ending is that I achieve many of the things I wanted means and wind up suffering terribly in the end. E.g. I will eventually find an unusually beautiful and virtuous wife but somehow be very unhappy. If I want to go back on narrative the only solution for me is to become a hermit/monk at this point.

@Ramzan is fire

God was playing the Sims with u and decided to make it as deformed as possible, and chose the unlucky trate

 

[Magical Apple]

God was playing the Sims with u and decided to make it as deformed as possible, and chose the unlucky trate

Now I wouldn't go that far. I'm not deformed or ugly my situation is such that it is very hard for me to feel superior or equal to those around me.

 

[Magical Apple]

Very good post. Mashallah

Do you feel this way? What do you think your narrative is?

 

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Do you feel this way? What do you think your narrative is?

I dont know. I dont think that much