God is keeping the wrong person alive

[Dorogi]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

 

[mcmentalonthemic]

"I sentence you to read this eye cancer of a post"

 

[Dorogi]

"I sentence you to read this eye cancer of a post"
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ur fault for clicking on a vent post bro

 

[Panchitosbroncs]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

Damn bro don't kys

 

[JordanFagget271]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

dnr dont kys bhai

 

[gio729]

dont do it bhai killing urself is low t

 

[Dhoriscol]

Hope you get better bbg

 

[Dorogi]

Damn bro don't kys

dnr dont kys bhai

i dont want to kill myself but i will end up doing it anyway i cant avoid having to

 

[perculezz]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

got sad reading this ngl
pls dont kys
hope u get better bro

 

[JordanFagget271]

i dont want to kill myself but i will end up doing it anyway i cant avoid having to

did u fail in jumping the guy and that gave u ropefuel or u js think ur life is shit?
u dont even look that bad, u look like ur not too short, ur atleast a mtn unless u have some huge falios?

 

[perculezz]

mb mistyped

got sad reading this ngl
pls dont kys
hope u get better bro

 

[Dorogi]

did u fail in jumping the guy and that gave u ropefuel or u js think ur life is shit?
u dont even look that bad, u look like ur not too short, ur atleast a mtn unless u have some huge falios?

No not him. Sounds stupid but i skipped school and that just reminded me if that i cant function in soceity ill never hold a stable job and cant even finish education

 

[Panchitosbroncs]

i dont want to kill myself but i will end up doing it anyway i cant avoid having to

I wanna kms but I'm still alive 'cause I hope shit gets better. I'm gonna join the army, so hopefully sum cartel kills me

 

[Dorogi]

I wanna kms but I'm still alive 'cause I hope shit gets better. I'm gonna join the army, so hopefully sum cartel kills me

Hope shi gets better for you bhai

 

[JordanFagget271]

No not him. Sounds stupid but i skipped school and that just reminded me if that i cant function in soceity ill never hold a stable job and cant even finish education

nga u cant kys before one piece ends, u crazy?

 

[Dorogi]

nga u cant kys before one piece ends, u crazy?

I do not watch one piece bro dw i fail every time i do try so ill prob be here for a while

 

[hauntohalic]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

bor please stop trying to kys i already miss you everytime you hop off org for a few days

 

[Dorogi]

bor please stop trying to kys i already miss you everytime you hop off org for a few days

Idk bro shit isnt getting better. Ill see if i get sent to a mental hospital or not before 3rd times the charm and that time i wont fail

 

[hauntohalic]

Idk bro shit isnt getting better. Ill see if i get sent to a mental hospital or not before 3rd times the charm and that time i wont fail

please go do anything necessary if it prevents you from killing yourself i really dont want to lose you

 

[Dorogi]

please go do anything necessary if it prevents you from killing yourself i really dont want to lose you

theres nothing i can do otherwise i woulf have. If i told someone about this yeah id get meds and life would be made a little easier but theyd also tell my parents who would tell the rest of my family and id lose any bit of normality i have left in my life

 

[hauntohalic]

theres nothing i can do otherwise i woulf have. If i told someone about this yeah id get meds and life would be made a little easier but theyd also tell my parents who would tell the rest of my family and id lose any bit of normality i have left in my life

please keep going through life the pain right now might seem bad but once you push through it your life will improve and the pain you have currently is nothing compared to what you would deal with after having commited suicide

 

[Dorogi]

please keep going through life the pain right now might seem bad but once you push through it your life will improve and the pain you have currently is nothing compared to what you would deal with after having commited suicide

thx for trying to help but ive had this for more than a year now and its only gotten worse and it will continue to get worse, i was already struggling with attendence at school and have people on my ass about that and now whatever is wrong with me made me give up the gym too which was the only thing i kinda enjoyed.

 

[Kurdishcoper]

genuinely sounds like a sign not to kill yourself, clearly the world needs u brah

 

[Dorogi]

genuinely sounds like a sign not to kill yourself, clearly the world needs u brah

Idk im not really a spiritual person, if so god is giving me mixed signals. Christian guy i know from the gym told me he thinks i am possesed

 

[hauntohalic]

thx for trying to help but ive had this for more than a year now and its only gotten worse and it will continue to get worse, i was already struggling with attendence at school and have people on my ass about that and now whatever is wrong with me made me give up the gym too which was the only thing i kinda enjoyed.

ok from what i hear you seem to have some sort of severe depression.
i know that going to a doctor or seeking therapy could lead to your parents thinking worse of you or whatever but its better for you to take the short term negative socially because if u keep going the same way ur handling this right now your either gonna end up dead (which sounds nice in the moment but you will regret it) or end up in a mental hospital which is far worse socially than going to therapy (especially due to how normalized therapy is nowdays)
you dont even have to tell ur therapist or whatever about suicide attempts you can just tell them about how it affects you in schooling and motivation for the gym and you will get proper help

 

[hauntohalic]

Idk im not really a spiritual person, if so god is giving me mixed signals. Christian guy i know from the gym told me he thinks i am possesed

personally as a christian i would see this as you being given another chance by god to improve your life

 

[Dorogi]

ok from what i hear you seem to have some sort of severe depression.
i know that going to a doctor or seeking therapy could lead to your parents thinking worse of you or whatever but its better for you to take the short term negative socially because if u keep going the same way ur handling this right now your either gonna end up dead (which sounds nice in the moment but you will regret it) or end up in a mental hospital which is far worse socially than going to therapy (especially due to how normalized therapy is nowdays)
you dont even have to tell ur therapist or whatever about suicide attempts you can just tell them about how it affects you in schooling and motivation for the gym and you will get proper help

Mental hospital doesnt sound that bad because i wouldnt have to deal with family, and how can i regret suicide? Id be dead.

Also ive tried finding a way of talking to a psychiatrist by getting a revisoon of my previous diagnosis but doesnt allow me

 

[balls_deep]

which is harder making ur life better or killing urself , answer OP

 

[Dorogi]

which is harder making ur life better or killing urself , answer OP

Killing myself

 

[hauntohalic]

Mental hospital doesnt sound that bad because i wouldnt have to deal with family, and how can i regret suicide? Id be dead.

Also ive tried finding a way of talking to a psychiatrist by getting a revisoon of my previous diagnosis but doesnt allow me

i guess you could go to a mental hospital (id miss u while ur gone but id be happy for u, plz post about it first tho so i dont think ur dead) and as for regretting it yeah fair enough assuming god doesnt exist you wouldnt be able to regret it post death but id argue its still the worst outcome

idk what ur exact situation is with u talking to a psychiatrist so i cant give much advice here

 

[Dorogi]

which is harder making ur life better or killing urself , answer OP

Wait nvm i read that as which is easier

 

[balls_deep]

Killing myself

this might sound ridiculous but u're being spiritually attacked

 

[Dorogi]

this might sound ridiculous but u're being spiritually attacked

Who tf has been doing voodoo on me for over a year straight

 

[callard]

don't kys bro, there are so many femboys out there for you to experiment with

 

[Dorogi]

don't kys bro, there are so many femboys out there for you to experiment with

femboys dont exist outside of my fyp brah

 

[hauntohalic]

femboys dont exist outside of my fyp brah

mate i live an hour away

 

[Dorogi]

mate i live an hour away

lowk brah in iedergeval dankjewel voor er altijd zijn bro

 

[hauntohalic]

lowk brah in iedergeval dankjewel voor er altijd zijn bro

 

[Gamerspyy786]

if you kill yourself, you can be doomed to eternal hellfire by God.

why would you kill yourself bro? This life is a test. Have you looked into any form of spirituality or religion?

 

[Dorogi]

if you kill yourself, you can be doomed to eternal hellfire by God.

why would you kill yourself bro? This life is a test. Have you looked into any form of spirituality or religion?

not spiritual or religious. I just believe there will be nothing after i kill myself

 

[Nutsack2000]

read it (format better loserrrr)

seriously though hope you get better

 

[bakpaokukus]

i try to kill myself

 

[shessonice]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

dont do it brah

i read everything, and i dont know u, but i still care.

 

[Netanyahu]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

God is an evil piece of shit

 

[gymceltard]

What is the reason you want to rope exactly?

Is it just being too ugly or what?

 

[Dorogi]

What is the reason you want to rope exactly?

Is it just being too ugly or what?

cant get the motivation to do anything and feel like shit all the time and started to ruin my own life. Been going on for over a year and i know i cant just fix it by just being disciplined because eventually ill fall back in the same pattern anyway

 

[gymceltard]

cant get the motivation to do anything and feel like shit all the time and started to ruin my own life. Been going on for over a year and i know i cant just fix it by just being disciplined because eventually ill fall back in the same pattern anyway

Sounds like 95% of Americans lives. You aren't special or unique.

If this was really a reason to rope then everyone you know would have killed themselves already.

 

[Dorogi]

Sounds like 95% of Americans lives. You aren't special or unique.

If this was really a reason to rope then everyone you know would have killed themselves already.

what do you not understand about it? My life is no diffrent from that of a sub5, i dont have any friends, my family hates me and theres nothing i like doing anymore i hate everything even that fuckass gym ive been going to for like a year and i hate rotting and playing vidya too now . I have no one and nothing to live for except that im to much of a pussy to fully go through with ending my life

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Every fucking time i try to kill myself i fail. I wanted to buy something stronger to OD on because phenibut wasnt enough and i couldnt get myself to hang myself or jump of a building. So i bought datura seeds with the last bit of money in my bank account and accidentally typed in the wrong house number while ordering so i had to go pick it up at that persons house but no one was home TWICE, just fucking walked around the forest smoking a cigarette i stole from my mom making pathetic attempts of slicing a vein and ended up just covering my clothes and arm in blood, tried to sleep there too because i didnt go home but couldnt fall asleep and just walked back out the forest in the dark (luckily for me there was moon illumination). At this point i dont know if i could even do it if i was handed a shotgun. in the end nothing happens and im venting about this to guys on .org who will DNR me anyway because irl i have no one to talk to about this

DM me if you need to talk, I'm just a random guy but i know and understand the situation you're in..

You probably won't feel comfortable opening up in a public thread, but I'm always free and I'll always respond to conversations.

Don't feel bad, your whole life is ahead of you and if you need help going through it then you should reach out for it before it's too late. You aren't the wrong person for anything, you're just looking at the wrong things.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

"I sentence you to read this eye cancer of a post"
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If someone told you they're suicidal IRL would you react like this aswell? The vent function is here for a reason, some people don't have others to talk to and they're reaching out here as a last hope.

@TechnoBoss Commenting shit like this under vent posts should be punishable ATP.

Just know if something ever happens to this guy, your last words to him were meme'ing and telling him you don't want to read his posts. Just ignore it if it bothers you so much.