going insane, i might die

[hax]

everyone wants me dead yet still i stand.

i spent my final school months with my head down, nearly crying, suicidal tendencies every hour over grades and my own appearance. i gave up completely.

now it's vacation, but i've lost all motivation for finals so i’ll fail them as well (1 day left).

then comes my first job at mcdonald's. two months as the skinny, acne-covered twink everyone sees. Just RIGHT back in my place after a whole school year…

returning to school afterward is worse yet dropouts regret it 50% of the time. i can't handle the social and physical mog, the constant bullying, being called a femboy and the level going up. i can't come in a scarf, face down forever.

not like home is gonna carry me through this year anyways. my mom's voice, my dad's yelling, the ED meals and me not being able to looksmax. i'm going insane.

yet i am not crazy. i'm not a social experiment. i'm not a child. my parents treat me like an infant, claiming i'm mentally disabled, then showering me with love and acting hurt when i express hatred.

just let me live my fucking life. this will drive me to madness.

 

[Revan]

youve always been insane cuh

 

[Regger]

It's ok I go insane too, mostly cause a guy keeps spamming truecels .net links to me here

 

[hax]

youve always been insane cuh

i'm a normal human being with normal reaction to this type of surrounding

 

[Brava]

I believe in you

 

[hax]

I believe in you

i'm not even human, there's nothing to believe in

 

[Brava]

i'm not even human, there's nothing to believe in

I believe in you

 

[Revan]

i'm a normal human being with normal reaction to this type of surrounding

if you wanna talk im always here

 

[hax]

if you wanna talk im always here

thanks but no talking will do anything atm.

i've talked enough in my past 12k posts, i now need physical action.

 

[imontheloose]

twink

proof

 

[Peachy]

everyone wants me dead yet still i stand.

i spent my final school months with my head down, nearly crying, suicidal tendencies every hour over grades and my own appearance. i gave up completely.

now it's vacation, but i've lost all motivation for finals so i’ll fail them as well (1 day left).

then comes my first job at mcdonald's. two months as the skinny, acne-covered twink everyone sees. Just RIGHT back in my place after a whole school year…

returning to school afterward is worse yet dropouts regret it 50% of the time. i can't handle the social and physical mog, the constant bullying, being called a femboy and the level going up. i can't come in a scarf, face down forever.

not like home is gonna carry me through this year anyways. my mom's voice, my dad's yelling, the ED meals and me not being able to looksmax. i'm going insane.

yet i am not crazy. i'm not a social experiment. i'm not a child. my parents treat me like an infant, claiming i'm mentally disabled, then showering me with love and acting hurt when i express hatred.

just let me live my fucking life. this will drive me to madness.

DNR, hope you kys

 

[Revan]

thanks but no talking will do anything atm.

i've talked enough in my past 12k posts, i now need physical action.

good luck

 

[DrRodger]

Dnr

 

[Pickletoil]

Brutal shit, sounds even worse than my life.

 

[alladinbvs]

nobody wants you dead gng its all in your head

 

[nathan V]

everyone wants me dead yet still i stand.

i spent my final school months with my head down, nearly crying, suicidal tendencies every hour over grades and my own appearance. i gave up completely.

now it's vacation, but i've lost all motivation for finals so i’ll fail them as well (1 day left).

then comes my first job at mcdonald's. two months as the skinny, acne-covered twink everyone sees. Just RIGHT back in my place after a whole school year…

returning to school afterward is worse yet dropouts regret it 50% of the time. i can't handle the social and physical mog, the constant bullying, being called a femboy and the level going up. i can't come in a scarf, face down forever.

not like home is gonna carry me through this year anyways. my mom's voice, my dad's yelling, the ED meals and me not being able to looksmax. i'm going insane.

yet i am not crazy. i'm not a social experiment. i'm not a child. my parents treat me like an infant, claiming i'm mentally disabled, then showering me with love and acting hurt when i express hatred.

just let me live my fucking life. this will drive me to madness.

After standing for a prolonged time,
you will fall.

 

[iblamemycuriuosity]

Thank god it's not me