Going to another rave again (solo)

[Deleted member 17578]

Its been a while. Still havent found any ravebuddies whatsoever so its solo yolo again.

Starts in 20 hrs. I got coke, 4mmc and ketamine. (No xtc this time).

Brootal. Life as solo sigma, raving on my own.

 

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Jfl just read some brutal dutch comment about afterparties and whether you like them. Loosely translated:

'the good-looking people have sex there, average people eat food, the nerds play games'

Brutal. Imagine having sex after a party or at the party. Maybe one day it will be me

 

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Rave about to start. I asked like 6 ppl to go with me and they all rejected me JFL.

truecel social-life. All I can do is get fucking wasted on drugs aaaaaaaaaaaaa

 

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It was fucking insanity tbh. Never hallucinated so hard in my life. Had a great fucking time, you are literally riding the bangbus through heaven in your brain.

Towards the end of the rave I got a massive epiphany though. This sortal lifestyle is unsustainable and I am thinking about largely quitting raves/drugs for now. Atleast scaling it back, this rave was so intense it could've been days that went by in there, so much my brain had to process.

Towards the end when the drugs wore off unironically got me really encouraged and fueled to try and fix my life again for sustainable happiness. Friends, family, meaningfull job/hobbies, etc. I don't want to be reliant on chemicals to have an awesome time like I did yesterday. I want it in my daily life.

 

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I never regret going out alone, get tipsy with 3-4 glasses of wine in a row, always have a good time

 

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It was fucking insanity tbh. Never hallucinated so hard in my life. Had a great fucking time, you are literally riding the bangbus through heaven in your brain.

Towards the end of the rave I got a massive epiphany though. This sortal lifestyle is unsustainable and I am thinking about largely quitting raves/drugs for now. Atleast scaling it back, this rave was so intense it could've been days that went by in there, so much my brain had to process.

Towards the end when the drugs wore off unironically got me really encouraged and fueled to try and fix my life again for sustainable happiness. Friends, family, meaningfull job/hobbies, etc. I don't want to be reliant on chemicals to have an awesome time like I did yesterday. I want it in my daily life.

What do u even do at raves? I can’t imagine dancing while on ket

 

[Deleted member 17578]

I never regret going out alone, get tipsy with 3-4 glasses of wine in a row, always have a good time

I took 1 gram of ketamine, half a gram of 4mmc and half a gram of cocaine. fucking pharmacy in my brain my man.

I was hallucinating to the point where if somehow in my mind the idea of a beach came up. Everything around me would change shape and make me believe I was actually at a beach. Legit insanity.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

What do u even do at raves? I can’t imagine dancing while on ket

u can see in the vid, everyone is just standing, moving a bit to the music. Nobody really dances much, because it's mostly about the way you feel, not what you do.

Like 95% of the ppl at these raves are on shitton of drugs. Those chemicals combined with the beat/music/lights through your body make you feel so fucking good.

So what it comes down to is just a large gathering of people using drugs together and enjoying the feelings your brain comes up with. Music feels insanely good on drugs. Yesterday I was randomly telling people around me shit like:

'man what the fuck, how can humans even produce sounds this good, that make you feel this way? its insane'

 

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I took 1 gram of ketamine, half a gram of 4mmc and half a gram of cocaine. fucking pharmacy in my brain my man.

I was hallucinating to the point where if somehow in my mind the idea of a beach came up. Everything around me would change shape and make me believe I was actually at a beach. Legit insanity.

meanwhile OP:

 

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Anyways these events really help me reflect a lot on my life aswell, they really tear open some coping mechanisms you have in your brain, things you've been trying to avoid. Makes you question what is important to you but also place extra value on other things. It's like your mask entirely peels off and you are exposed to your true self.

These drug-infused raves are no sustainable form of happiness. It's a few hours of brain-orgasms once every few months (if u want to do this long-term u cant do it more often than that cuz ur gonna fuck up ur brain). I am really glad I can feel this way for a few hours, even though I feel like I have absolutely nothing going for me in my normal life. But it gives me motivation to try and enjoy all the other time I spend on this planet a bit more aswell.

 

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me on ketamine at the raves. perfect depiction lol


I already have another 4 raves in mind I want to go to in the next 3 months. Gonna have to pick which I prefer. Most likely solo but idc