going to take erda without knowing if my plates are closed

[Eldian]

I turned 17, 2 months ago and my parents wont get me a xray because they know I want it, I cant take hgh either because it needs to be put in a fridge which I cant do without my parents finding, so Ima just use erda pills or get erda powder if pills are to expensive, Is it worth blindy taking erda or should I try something else?