HurtfulVanity
In the pursuit of happiness
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Ive narrowed down my bipolar personality down to being ungrateful I’ve taken for granted the good things done for me and did not reciprocate the same feelings back this is what caused me to fuck everything up with my crush. I’ve taken for granted my home, car,job, and friends. If I was really grateful for these things I’d have made an effort to continue building these relationships. I realize I haven’t really changed at all just got better at faking my personality but it just leaves me unhappy and I go back to not caring.
Think I might try talking to god again even though it seems like huge cope gotta try something else I can’t stand being unhappy all the time feeling awkward stuck in my head. When I’m happy for something or someone I become much more lively and charismatic. Started writing down things ungrateful for and what they bring me. I think this can help. Going to make an effort to be more present aswell how can I better the lives of others around me in the moment in order to do this I have to try and stay positive
Inb4 bluepill cope
Look at these gains tho calisthenics be hittin
Think I might try talking to god again even though it seems like huge cope gotta try something else I can’t stand being unhappy all the time feeling awkward stuck in my head. When I’m happy for something or someone I become much more lively and charismatic. Started writing down things ungrateful for and what they bring me. I think this can help. Going to make an effort to be more present aswell how can I better the lives of others around me in the moment in order to do this I have to try and stay positive
Inb4 bluepill cope
Look at these gains tho calisthenics be hittin
