theyblamehim
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Ive never felt true love before I always wanted to expiernce it and I don't think its possible I got scared man my friend invited me to 3 man I was so awkward so damn awkward. I am pouring my heart out in this when I say that this girl was freaky and was the first girl to ever want to do something with me because I am 16 and a 5'5 mantel who is hmtn my friend picked me up for a 3 man and when I got in the car we picked up the 3 girls I barely talked to them. I was scared they tried talking to me but im awkward to girls I never talk to but for some reason I cant shut up around guys or people Ive known for over a week. We picked up his friend who was a guy and went to his house this girl was a red head and mid she had a good body tho and we got to his house and they started to vape and brought out all Im socially awkward so I need all to talk to girls sometimes but I didn't talk it for some reason and we went into my friends rooms and both of the guys had there hands around there girls and they pressured me to sit next to her I didn't bc I was nervous but then she said guys its fine it will naturally happen her friends told me she wanted to crack and she laughed and said maybe but I need to get to know him he has barely talked so we do the rice purity test and she asks me the questions in front of everyone I lied about a lot saying I did but I really haven't even had my first kiss she then offered a lap dance and I got nervous said I had to go to the bathroom my friend came later and asked if I was good I said I wasn't ready for this bc I wanted my first kiss to be with someone who act likes me and not the first day of meeting someone and I want my first kiss to be someone who I love and find attractive not just for there body u might think this is stupid but that's what I want for my first kiss he asked if I wanted him to drive me home and I said yes keep in mine the hole time I tried sitting down or tiptoeing around the house so she couldn't see I was 5'5 but its fine she didn't even care it just shows I am so insecure my friend then drove me home and I sat alone playing video games while the other two got head and cracked bc I was scared and socially akward and not ready.
