justinzayn
Sikh lion SidhuMosewala u will always b remembered
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i was standing where the arrow is,i was facing in the direction of orange/blue building ,
standing in front of this resturanant,waiting for traffic to slow down ,to cross road
waited for two minutes,traffic kinda slowed down
i though its the right moment
there was a tall oldcel standing to my right,oldcel kinda blinded my right view
and there,my autism kicks in,i just jumped in moving traffic,and there was young bitch on her two wheeller,i came in front of her,i panicked,instead of moving back,i kept walking forward,
she didnt slowed that much,
i showed her my hand,like wait,slow down
she was also pointing at me,asking what am i doing
after a sec,my shoe hits her's feet/tyre i dont know,was to embarassed to look back
,,my shoe came out a bit,but it was fine
i said sorry
after this,she looks at me,and says in our local language"chutiye hai kya?"
meaning "are you a cunt/asshole/stupid"?
after this i loudly said sorry again,(like shut up,its fine)
later i felt so embarassed ,i wanted to abuse her,too,but it was too late,i got off that place quickly
if i said the same thing to her,she would have made a scene,or accuse me of something,i didnt wanted that
she was most probably in 20s,or maybe late teens,light skinned and above average looking,i am 19
being a drop out i have no social circle and no friends,zero exp with girls/women,since 16,
plus things like this makes sad even more(even girls abuse usually,but its still sad)
,i just broked my 4 month old nofap steak,so i am acting neurotic even more,i need to sleep
,if i was a chador even a normie/htn,she wouldnt have abused me,
i need a therapist and a mri scan,
it happened after an one and half hour long walk,i was out there for a walk alone in a park,this evening after my classes
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