lokit
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Little back story:
Basically I was friends with this girl since I was around 11-12. I very quickly started to get feelings for her (basically no girl had really ever shown me attention before and hit it off) unfortunately I was sub5 aspie (before any actual ntmaxxibg attempts) so I never really got the courage to do anything. (Most I did was say some corny ass line and get mad when she talked wt any other boy jfk) She started going less to school until eventually she stopped going to school. A little period after that we didn't talk much but we got in contact again and consistently voice called (hour long sessions)
Around that time I found out she was also an aspie (autists like autists LOL). We continued hanging out and calling a lot ( I ascended here to at my age standards around low MTN I'd say) turns out she was at a sped school
One day we were texting, I asked if we could VC and she said that she was together with her girlfriend (news to me, though I knew she was bisexual) and sent a picture. Also said she was her "only friend" I was obviously sad but I tried coping with it was cause she said she was her only friend (not the reason lul)
I very nonchalantly replied "ok" to wtv she said afterwards. Couple months after that iirc we slowly faded out and stopped talking and hanging out. ( A big part of that was her randomly going offline off of any way to contact her
In those two years I fucking thought about her all the time,, she truly was my oneitis. I even stalked her fucking Facebook where she had practically nothing on it. I especially did this when my friends backstabbed me totally
Recently I've found new friends, gotten a job and been doing somewhat good in my life (still high ltn but wtv) and out of a sudden my mom tells me that her mom contacted us and asked if me and the girl could start talking/hanging out again cause she "misses me"
I said yes and gave them my phone number, but now I'm conflicted. She wrote to me today but I've ghosted her the entire day. It's genuinely so fucked.
Tldr; I had a crush on a autist goth girl who left for 2 years and randomly came back
Basically I was friends with this girl since I was around 11-12. I very quickly started to get feelings for her (basically no girl had really ever shown me attention before and hit it off) unfortunately I was sub5 aspie (before any actual ntmaxxibg attempts) so I never really got the courage to do anything. (Most I did was say some corny ass line and get mad when she talked wt any other boy jfk) She started going less to school until eventually she stopped going to school. A little period after that we didn't talk much but we got in contact again and consistently voice called (hour long sessions)
Around that time I found out she was also an aspie (autists like autists LOL). We continued hanging out and calling a lot ( I ascended here to at my age standards around low MTN I'd say) turns out she was at a sped school
One day we were texting, I asked if we could VC and she said that she was together with her girlfriend (news to me, though I knew she was bisexual) and sent a picture. Also said she was her "only friend" I was obviously sad but I tried coping with it was cause she said she was her only friend (not the reason lul)
I very nonchalantly replied "ok" to wtv she said afterwards. Couple months after that iirc we slowly faded out and stopped talking and hanging out. ( A big part of that was her randomly going offline off of any way to contact her
In those two years I fucking thought about her all the time,, she truly was my oneitis. I even stalked her fucking Facebook where she had practically nothing on it. I especially did this when my friends backstabbed me totally
Recently I've found new friends, gotten a job and been doing somewhat good in my life (still high ltn but wtv) and out of a sudden my mom tells me that her mom contacted us and asked if me and the girl could start talking/hanging out again cause she "misses me"
I said yes and gave them my phone number, but now I'm conflicted. She wrote to me today but I've ghosted her the entire day. It's genuinely so fucked.
Tldr; I had a crush on a autist goth girl who left for 2 years and randomly came back
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