lake88221
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- Aug 9, 2026
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All my life I've done stupid awkward shit from like a kid which has made women constantly ridicule me and look at me in a weird manner, they do the classic "we're friends right?" bit and loads of other ones. The teacher could call on me and due to my disgusting voice, as soon as I say a single word people laugh or chuckle a bit. One time I just wanted to ask a girl a question and she backed away from me, idk if it was like a prank or something but she just backed away and went to her seat. I also saw her whispering to her friend after that so I guess it's fair to assume it was about me. It made me slowly get social anxiety which just made me even more awkward looking. Now my mom judges me for that on a daily basis, even calling me "evil" sometimes because of it. Which I don't know how that correlates but I guess. I only had 2 friends in school who were kind of "losers" like me, but now even they tried to get a girl and got one. I buy a bunch of products all the time just to see what I can possibly fix and I still feel like an ugly fuck. reincarnation is the only escape. I could walk in a room and see people instantly get upset. Not to mention every classmate was pandered and treated well while the other teachers targetted me for being ugly. I'm not even good at anything either so my height is good for nothing. The height and voice genetic was a genuine waste for me, it hasn't worked yet and never will. I got like atleast 35-40 rejections to my name, so what's the point in trying. I have no way to cope every video on my fyp is just some chad so it reminds me what I could've been every day. Some people don't even bother to look at me when they're talking, like just speak to me directly bro.
