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Long post ahead. Just needed to vent shit that has been on my mind.

When I was younger(pre-puberty), I was the epitome of a loser(super skinny, short af even among kids, and nerdy af). Got bullied a lot and never got any attention from girls. They didn't even want to sit with me jfl.

When I reached puberty, I hit a massive growth spurt at 13 and I grew from 4'10 to 5'10 in 4-5 years and I became better looking too. During those years, I started liking girls from my school/from other schools. Ofc I was rejected a lot but I realized that some girls liked me too. I was too retarded and insecure from having low self-esteem from all those years of bullying and being ignored by girls that I didn't even know how to respond to them. Somehow managed to get my first kiss when I was 16 from this girl that I 100% could've fucked and lost my virginity to, but as I've said earlier, I didn't know what to do with her. She was the one that offered to kiss me since I told her I had never gotten kissed by a girl before :feelscry::feelscry:

Fast forward 5 years later, I'm at uni and my luck has improved slightly. Been on a few dates with some girls but I'm still a virgin. Got cucked by this 6'3 chadpreet during a house party in my first year and got rejected by these 2 Euro girls who ended up having a threesome with someone I knew later on. I'm still hopeless with girls today(21 rn) and i doubt it'll change anytime soon with COVID and being stuck at home. I'll be heading back to university in September but I've basically given up on women at this point of time.

The past half a year or so of doing nothing has given me a lot of time to reflect and think about my past. I've realized that if I had gotten a headstart when I was younger, I wouldn't be a virgin today and things would be very different.

TL;DR : If you missed out on intimate interactions during your formative youth and teenage years, you'll have a hard time getting women when you're an adult since you'll have lots of mental scars and insecurities from your younger years.
 
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That's so true

Your past influences who u are in the present
 
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You American?
 
I can overwrite my mind
 
edp445 wouldn't be in deep shit rn if he was edjbp445 when he was supposed to. XD
 
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edp445 wouldn't be in deep shit rn if he was edjbp445 when he was supposed to. XD
isnt he the fat black dude who got caught for being a pedo? whats the backstory for that anyway
 
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Long post ahead. Just needed to vent shit that has been on my mind.

When I was younger(pre-puberty), I was the epitome of a loser(super skinny, short af even among kids, and nerdy af). Got bullied a lot and never got any attention from girls. They didn't even want to sit with me jfl.

When I reached puberty, I hit a massive growth spurt at 13 and I grew from 4'10 to 5'10 in 4-5 years and I became better looking too. During those years, I started liking girls from my school/from other schools. Ofc I was rejected a lot but I realized that some girls liked me too. I was too retarded and insecure from having low self-esteem from all those years of bullying and being ignored by girls that I didn't even know how to respond to them. Somehow managed to get my first kiss when I was 16 from this girl that I 100% could've fucked and lost my virginity to, but as I've said earlier, I didn't know what to do with her. She was the one that offered to kiss me since I told her I had never gotten kissed by a girl before :feelscry::feelscry:

Fast forward 5 years later, I'm at uni and my luck has improved slightly. Been on a few dates with some girls but I'm still a virgin. Got cucked by this 6'3 chadpreet during a house party in my first year and got rejected by these 2 Euro girls who ended up having a threesome with someone I knew later on. I'm still hopeless with girls today(21 rn) and i doubt it'll change anytime soon with COVID and being stuck at home. I'll be heading back to university in September but I've basically given up on women at this point of time.

The past half a year or so of doing nothing has given me a lot of time to reflect and think about my past. I've realized that if I had gotten a headstart when I was younger, I wouldn't be a virgin today and things would be very different.

TL;DR : If you missed out on intimate interactions during your formative youth and teenage years, you'll have a hard time getting women when you're an adult since you'll have lots of mental scars and insecurities from your younger years.
tell us about chadpreet and the rejection thressome
 
tell us about chadpreet and the rejection thressome
Long story short, I was at a house party with like 20 others. We rented out a huge ass bungalow and everyone had their own rooms/shared with one other person. Huge ass pool and I was drunk af and on weed too. Wanted to smash this ugly white bitch but she turned me down and kissed me on the cheek jfl. Few weeks later was talking to chadpreet and he told me he fucked her on that night lmao. Makes sense since he was at the party too with his group but didn't expect him to fuck her lol since he was fucking this decently hot French girl. Guess he's Chad for a reason


Threesome thing was with this German and Danish chick. They were both like 5/10s but defo bangable. Went to a few parties with them and we got along well so I thought i had a shot. Invited one of them over for drinks at my place but she turned me down nicely. Wasn't bitter or anything until I found out my friend(he's a few years older than me, 24-25 and he's into pickup and shit, bluepill stuff. He introduced me to game when I was still bluepilled af back in 2018. Were still friends) had a threesome with them. I found out cause I found him the next day at my apartment and I know for a fact he doesn't live in my apartment lol. He had a hickey too and I knew something was up. He was hesitant at first but spilled the beans later on.
 
That's so true

Your past influences who u are in the present
Not that basic according to freud if you actually get revenge your ego will go back to normal but if you dont you will keep going traumatised
 
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Long story short, I was at a house party with like 20 others. We rented out a huge ass bungalow and everyone had their own rooms/shared with one other person. Huge ass pool and I was drunk af and on weed too. Wanted to smash this ugly white bitch but she turned me down and kissed me on the cheek jfl. Few weeks later was talking to chadpreet and he told me he fucked her on that night lmao. Makes sense since he was at the party too with his group but didn't expect him to fuck her lol since he was fucking this decently hot French girl. Guess he's Chad for a reason


Threesome thing was with this German and Danish chick. They were both like 5/10s but defo bangable. Went to a few parties with them and we got along well so I thought i had a shot. Invited one of them over for drinks at my place but she turned me down nicely. Wasn't bitter or anything until I found out my friend(he's a few years older than me, 24-25 and he's into pickup and shit, bluepill stuff. He introduced me to game when I was still bluepilled af back in 2018. Were still friends) had a threesome with them. I found out cause I found him the next day at my apartment and I know for a fact he doesn't live in my apartment lol. He had a hickey too and I knew something was up. He was hesitant at first but spilled the beans later on.
this life is a brutal one. feels bad man
 
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Revenge versus who?
Tl;dr He says if your oneitis cucks you with someone and if you dont kill them your personality will become more cucked. If you kill them your personality wont become cucked. It was an example by me btw not actually from freud by revenge he dont mean only killing ofc. And againist who ? Anybody caused trauma on you tbh.
 
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