fvolkek
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I know its sounds dumb and it's not a "i want to ascend and be popular" question, it's not even a question per se.
I'm fully blackpilled so I know that if I was Brad Pitt this wouldn't be a problem, but then again there are fat people, ugly people who have friends. As long as you connect or are on sync with everyone around you, you just gravitate towards each other. It's not that complex, for intrasexual relationships.
As a matter of fact I actually pull girls sometimes, im not an incel insofar as the defintion goes. But it's more of psychopathic pulling. Like I just play my cards (having money, LARPing about who I am, being strange or fucked up which sometimes can be cool to the right type of girl, etc.) and it works. It's not true bonding. As soon as they see my true personality they flee. Not in the "oh I'm so weird dark and le quirkyyyyyyy" way, but rather in the "okay this guy is a loser" way.
My problem is social mostly.
I have plenty of singular friends but they're all scattered, I have no group. I'm sure you can relate to this. Having lots of so-called friends who consider you friends back supposedly but then you don't really hang out with them. They have groups with other people and they don't really include you because they know you're a liability to their "coolness" or social standing, call it what you will, I hate labels. That's me.
That's mostly because I'm too detatched/alienated from most people. I was raised and formed different. I was chronically online all my life, I like films and music they don't like, I speak differently. I don't talk that autistically in real life but in a way I actually do. But again, and this is something people here don't understand. If you're trying to rationalize why you don't fit, that's a red flag to begin with. People don't just devise a plan to get invited or to stop touching their cock for 3 months. It just happens.
I also had many experiences with psychedelics and sort devote my life to "understand reality" (humanities, philosophy, thinking a lot, rumminating, etc.), which you really can't. I'm in a constant pursuit of understanding the world around me. Which apparently is cringe to everyone. And I suppose it is. I don't base my personality off of that but I make some things seem more complicated than they are because I just think like that. And that's gay.
So yeah I just don't connect with most people. Actually wait, I do connect, but it's individually. When it's a group thing they just avoid me.
>So why don't you just suppress your personality and try to be a mass so you can make friends and not rot?
I can't. I don't know why. I don't know if it's ego but people can tell that I'm just trying hard to be like them when I dumb myself down like that. And that's even more cringe. At least they respect me when I'm myself.
My problem is a mixture of: looks + personality + autism or whatever the hell it is + strangeness.
Also I hate people who cope by saying "im just strange, im a weirdo, im a sigma" or whatever label they put. If you were strange in a valuable or charming way, you'd get plenty of bitches and friends. You're just unattractive.
And that's my case to be honest. Although I actually pull sometimes.
However let me tell you some cherry picked blackpilling moments:
- Every time we play the motherfucking drinking games. You know it's over when every time someone pulls the bottle or sexual card games or some shit like that you need to leave the room not to be humilliated. Every time we play dare games or "never have I ever" or whatever crap, I get pretty much called ugly and no one choses me for anything. It's brutal.
- Get left out of group photos in HS and everywhere frankly.
Okay im bored i'll leave it here.
One last thing: I did have a friend group in my high school for a while (a different country). It was fun. And trust me IT DOES GET BETTER. when you have friends. I remember being actively happy in 2023. It was amazing just having something to do every day if you wanted. I remember being glad for what I was living. Then I moved back to my original country for college, everyone went their own ways and I'm by my own.
I'm fully blackpilled so I know that if I was Brad Pitt this wouldn't be a problem, but then again there are fat people, ugly people who have friends. As long as you connect or are on sync with everyone around you, you just gravitate towards each other. It's not that complex, for intrasexual relationships.
As a matter of fact I actually pull girls sometimes, im not an incel insofar as the defintion goes. But it's more of psychopathic pulling. Like I just play my cards (having money, LARPing about who I am, being strange or fucked up which sometimes can be cool to the right type of girl, etc.) and it works. It's not true bonding. As soon as they see my true personality they flee. Not in the "oh I'm so weird dark and le quirkyyyyyyy" way, but rather in the "okay this guy is a loser" way.
My problem is social mostly.
I have plenty of singular friends but they're all scattered, I have no group. I'm sure you can relate to this. Having lots of so-called friends who consider you friends back supposedly but then you don't really hang out with them. They have groups with other people and they don't really include you because they know you're a liability to their "coolness" or social standing, call it what you will, I hate labels. That's me.
That's mostly because I'm too detatched/alienated from most people. I was raised and formed different. I was chronically online all my life, I like films and music they don't like, I speak differently. I don't talk that autistically in real life but in a way I actually do. But again, and this is something people here don't understand. If you're trying to rationalize why you don't fit, that's a red flag to begin with. People don't just devise a plan to get invited or to stop touching their cock for 3 months. It just happens.
I also had many experiences with psychedelics and sort devote my life to "understand reality" (humanities, philosophy, thinking a lot, rumminating, etc.), which you really can't. I'm in a constant pursuit of understanding the world around me. Which apparently is cringe to everyone. And I suppose it is. I don't base my personality off of that but I make some things seem more complicated than they are because I just think like that. And that's gay.
So yeah I just don't connect with most people. Actually wait, I do connect, but it's individually. When it's a group thing they just avoid me.
>So why don't you just suppress your personality and try to be a mass so you can make friends and not rot?
I can't. I don't know why. I don't know if it's ego but people can tell that I'm just trying hard to be like them when I dumb myself down like that. And that's even more cringe. At least they respect me when I'm myself.
My problem is a mixture of: looks + personality + autism or whatever the hell it is + strangeness.
Also I hate people who cope by saying "im just strange, im a weirdo, im a sigma" or whatever label they put. If you were strange in a valuable or charming way, you'd get plenty of bitches and friends. You're just unattractive.
And that's my case to be honest. Although I actually pull sometimes.
However let me tell you some cherry picked blackpilling moments:
- Every time we play the motherfucking drinking games. You know it's over when every time someone pulls the bottle or sexual card games or some shit like that you need to leave the room not to be humilliated. Every time we play dare games or "never have I ever" or whatever crap, I get pretty much called ugly and no one choses me for anything. It's brutal.
- Get left out of group photos in HS and everywhere frankly.
Okay im bored i'll leave it here.
One last thing: I did have a friend group in my high school for a while (a different country). It was fun. And trust me IT DOES GET BETTER. when you have friends. I remember being actively happy in 2023. It was amazing just having something to do every day if you wanted. I remember being glad for what I was living. Then I moved back to my original country for college, everyone went their own ways and I'm by my own.
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