Had chance to lose my virginity but couldnt. EMBARRASSING! Officialy a mentalcel

[Ken]

i support this. and i’ve been in a similar situation as OP and felt bad and gross after doing some stuff w this girl who told me her body count was 10, this was in college.

it’s not satisfying but when your lust takes over, sometimes you want her as an option

Tell us what happens @Ken

Maybe just go to second or third base but not all the way to start.

Also it’s disappointing that you broke your nofap streak instead of having sex. By doing that it’s a total lose lose for you cuz you’re reconditioning yourself to your hand instead of woman, when you had the opportunity

At same time, you got postnut clarity, which made you realize how dirty you would feel after so maybe it’s partially a good thing

Just try to honestly evaluate what you want deep down

it’s a tough situation. Whatever happens it’s a learning experience

That was my plan but she left me on read after I told her no 3 days in a row.

Ive decided to keep searching for an HQNP virgin girl for at least a few more years. What I really want is to marry a virgin. Thats the only way to have long term happiness. Im still young enough to have a chance at a virgin, I just went on a date with one 2 months ago.

If I do lose my virginity to a non-virgin girl she has to at least be very attractive. If im still a virgin by 30 I will order a prostitute.

 

[WeWillAllAscend]

I woke up and noticed an HQNP girl I had messaged on social media had left me on read. I felt extremely depressed and tired of all the rejection, so I decided to message a slutty black girl I had matched with on OLD. I asked her out to go get some fast food. I planned to just have a conversation with her and drop her back off.

In her pics she had a really nice body but average at best face. When I got there I was expecting a landwhale but her face actually looked like the pictures and her body looked even better irl. Huge ass and nice tits I couldnt believe it. When she got in my car she was very talkative, I was running out of things to say but she carried the conversations. When we got to the fast food place I made sure to order something cheap hoping she would notice and not order anything expensive. It worked I only payed $7 for her food. After we got the food I drove I suggested we go to a park to eat but she suggested we go to her place instead. She lived in a decent neighbordhood that looked safe enough so I agreed.

When she opened the door I was greeted with a strong stench of weed and cat litter. The place was covered in empty alchohol bottles, and dirty clothes. She had multiple bongs on her table and a pack of condoms with some already opened. She started cleaning while I watched TV in her living room. I had a constant fear that she would pull out a gun or a guy would come in try to rob me. When she finished cleaning she set next to me. We akwardly ate our food and watched tv. After a while she got up and went to her room. She came back barefoot, wearing extremely short shorts with half her ass hanging out and a tiny shirt that almost revealed her nipples. She bent over to get something right in front of me and jokingly said "dont stare at me like that". Afterward she sat down next to me closer than before. I was rock hard.

When she sat next to me she started showing me old pictures of her and some funny videos. She put her head down on my shoulder. It felt amazing, much better than fapping. I couldnt even imagine how great that would feel with a girl I actually care about. She felt so warm and soft. We were just sitting there and she was touching my leg and laughing at everything I said. I was leaking so much precum it felt like I peed my pants. I was so hard it hurt. After around 10 minutes she stared at me like she was expecting a kiss or for me to make a move. I got extremely nervous, I couldnt do it, I didnt know how. I felt dirty. I made an excuse to leave and told her I had to go. She looked surprised and she akwardly walked me out.

Its completley over for me. She was the closest thing to visiting a prostitute and I still failed. Im gonna need a sex surrogate to lose my virginity. I have too many mental issues.

TLDR: Went over to slutty tinder girls house but failed to have sex.

Lol bro it's litterly over if you don't fix your autism asap try shrooms now.