Has anyone done a euthanasia request?

[blacksheep]

It's legal here and I'd want it for mental suffering

 

[kazama]

I mean, u have a right. Is the purpose of this to end one's extreme suffering? So idk, its a pretty serious thing

 

[Deleted member 1813]

Got denied for having too much motion

 

[blacksheep]

I mean, u have a right. Is the purpose of this to end one's extreme suffering? So idk, its a pretty serious thing

Yeah, I really don't see a point in living anymore. I know it's more difficult to get euthanasia for a mental problem than a physical one and I'm also quite young (20) so it'll be a lengthy process

 

[blacksheep]

Got denied for having too much motion

Motion?

 

[Node]

Got denied for having too much motion

 

[crazyguy]

It's legal here and I'd want it for mental suffering

why do you want to kill yourself?

 

[kazama]

Yeah, I really don't see a point in living anymore. I know it's more difficult to get euthanasia for a mental problem than a physical one and I'm also quite young (20) so it'll be a lengthy process

btw what r urs features?

 

[subhuman1996]

It's legal here and I'd want it for mental suffering

I don’t even know what that is

 

[Panzram]

It's legal here and I'd want it for mental suffering

Why don't you just DIY (not saying you should, but if you want it so bad)?

 

[Panzram]

btw what r urs features?

asking the real questions

 

[kazama]

asking the real questions

Idont want to deal with him. If he mogs me, I'll induce him even more so I can eliminate possible competition

Why don't you just DIY (not saying you should, but if you want it so bad)?

Apparently its even cheap lol

 

[blacksheep]

why do you want to kill yourself?

imma try to keep it short. i've been struggling with my mental health for 9 years after being bullied. mostly it's been passive suicidal thoughts until my closest friendship ended around a year ago. i just can't deal with the loneliness anymore, i'm so deeply disappointed in who i am, my life has been stuck for nearly half of it and i don't believe that any effort will still help. i've seen therapists for around 6 years and was admitted to the psych ward 6 times with only temporary results

 

[blacksheep]

btw what r urs features?

u mean my facial feautures or what bro?

 

[blacksheep]

I don’t even know what that is

basically u can end ur life by doctors if u have an unfixable illness. both for untreatable physical and mental illness

 

[crazyguy]

imma try to keep it short. i've been struggling with my mental health for 9 years after being bullied. mostly it's been passive suicidal thoughts until my closest friendship ended around a year ago. i just can't deal with the loneliness anymore, i'm so deeply disappointed in who i am, my life has been stuck for nearly half of it and i don't believe that any effort will still help. i've seen therapists for around 6 years and was admitted to the psych ward 6 times with only temporary results

so the main reason is loneliness?

 

[kazama]

u mean my facial feautures or what bro?

yeah, frame, height, financial conditions, ethnicity, psl

 

[blacksheep]

Why don't you just DIY (not saying you should, but if you want it so bad)?

i've tried. did a very serious attempt in february, and a few minor ones out of desperation in the hospital after. dying really is a lot harder than it sounds. i don't want to go through the trauma of a failed attempt anymore. i was lucky to not end up like a plant, but that's always a risk u take

 

[blacksheep]

so the main reason is loneliness?

mainly yeah

 

[blacksheep]

yeah, frame, height, financial conditions, ethnicity, psl

i'm just skinny, short, got like 50 euros in my bank account but live with my mom, mixed black and white, MTN (could be HTN if I tried harder)

 

[crazyguy]

mainly yeah

its not over for you, start over and meet new people. its easier said than done, but it'll be worth it in the end. you shouldnt kill yourself over an issue like this

 

[kazama]

i'm just skinny, short, got like 50 euros in my bank account but live with my mom, mixed black and white, MTN (could be HTN if I tried harder)

What is ur relationship with ur mother???

 

[blacksheep]

its not over for you, start over and meet new people. its easier said than done, but it'll be worth it in the end. you shouldnt kill yourself over an issue like this

i have tried these past 9 years lol. i'm just too ND for it man. it's always shallow connections or people straight up using me. the few deep connections i've had have traumatised me so deeply that i don't even want to trust people anymore

 

[blacksheep]

What is ur relationship with ur mother???

she takes care of me financially, but emotionally she's absent. she's a single mom who works 6 days a week. if i have a conversation with her, it's always about her. she interupts me if i speak. so i just kinda sit in my room all the time to avoid her. we mainly communicate over whatsapp at this point

 

[crazyguy]

i have tried these past 9 years lol. i'm just too ND for it man. it's always shallow connections or people straight up using me. the few deep connections i've had have traumatised me so deeply that i don't even want to trust people anymore

if you cant get friends, find a partner instead. find a girl who's nd too, she'll be able to relate to you. youve said that youre mtn with htn potential so make ascending to htn your priority, this way you'll find a gf for sure

 

[kazama]

she takes care of me financially, but emotionally she's absent. she's a single mom who works 6 days a week. if i have a conversation with her, it's always about her. she interupts me if i speak. so i just kinda sit in my room all the time to avoid her. we mainly communicate over whatsapp at this point

Wow, thats tough. But I mean emotionally, u feel like she cares about u and loves you? Or that u "owe" her something?

 

[blacksheep]

if you cant get friends, find a partner instead. find a girl who's nd too, she'll be able to relate to you. youve said that youre mtn with htn potential so make ascending to htn your priority, this way you'll find a gf for sure

i can't trust people enough to be in relationships with them. i'm sorry, ur advice doesn't suck. it's just not applicable for my situation

 

[m0ss26]

my closest friendship ended around a year ago. i just can't deal with the loneliness anymore, i'm so deeply disappointed in who i am

I’m sorry man, I’m dealing with the exact same thing and sometimes it feels like there’s no escape

But don’t kys, it’s useless and cowardly
You just have to hold hope that you will come to see better days

 

[blacksheep]

Wow, thats tough. But I mean emotionally, u feel like she cares about u and loves you? Or that u "owe" her something?

i think she cares about me. she says she loves me sometimes but i have a hard time taking her seriously when she does. i don't feel like i owe her anything. my dad is a whole other story. he's just dissapointed with everything i am and constantly reminds me of how i owe him stuff cuz he gives me a roof above my head, food, an education etc

 

[crazyguy]

i can't trust people enough to be in relationships with them. i'm sorry, ur advice doesn't suck. it's just not applicable for my situation

youre in an unfortunate situation, youre depressed because of your loneliness but you cant be in a relationship because of trust

 

[m0ss26]

Ik this is corny advice but might I suggest trying jiu jitsu? Or some martial art? There’s lots of ND people, you feel great after working out and learn some skills, everybody is super welcoming and it’s almost like it’s own niche community where you meet all kinds of people.

 

[blacksheep]

I’m sorry man, I’m dealing with the exact same thing and sometimes it feels like there’s no escape

But don’t kys, it’s useless and cowardly
You just have to hold hope that you will come to see better days

i'm sorry u're going through this too. i don't see how killing myself is useless though. it's also not that i don't believe there could be better days. i just don't have the energy to wait for the better days any longer

 

[blacksheep]

youre in an unfortunate situation, youre depressed because of your loneliness but you cant be in a relationship because of trust

yeah, u're right. but fixing that kinda shit is hard man. 6 years of therapy and i see no change. i've learned some stuff to keep myself calm in crisis situations, but nothing alcohol can't fix man

 

[m0ss26]

i'm sorry u're going through this too. i don't see how killing myself is useless though. it's also not that i don't believe there could be better days. i just don't have the energy to wait for the better days any longer

Just distract yourself in the meantime and try and find one goal to push toward, that’s what’s been helping me

Everyday feels so shit and like I’m trapped by my own head so I just try and distract as much as possible, whatever gets me so focused that I don’t think about other shit

 

[blacksheep]

Ik this is corny advice but might I suggest trying jiu jitsu? Or some martial art? There’s lots of ND people, you feel great after working out and learn some skills, everybody is super welcoming and it’s almost like it’s own niche community where you meet all kinds of people.

idk if those are my ND type of people. i tend to feel better in creative spaces, but usually i still don't fit in cuz of my intelligence (that's not a flex btw, it's just genuinely hard to connect to people if u never feel like u're on the same level cognitively)

 

[blacksheep]

Just distract yourself in the meantime and try and find one goal to push toward, that’s what’s been helping me

Everyday feels so shit and like I’m trapped by my own head so I just try and distract as much as possible, whatever gets me so focused that I don’t think about other shit

that's good advice. i've been doing that too the last year. my goal was to go to school again. now the school year has started and i'm still unable to go so that's probabmly what's making me feel so shitty

 

[kazama]

i think she cares about me. she says she loves me sometimes but i have a hard time taking her seriously when she does. i don't feel like i owe her anything. my dad is a whole other story. he's just dissapointed with everything i am and constantly reminds me of how i owe him stuff cuz he gives me a roof above my head, food, an education etc

yeah I mean, in a way hes not wrong. One day we'll have to give back some help to our parents
But Idk if u feel like someone still cares abt u. I recommend waiting or rethinking. Sometimes ur actions can affect others
Otherwise, u already know

 

[m0ss26]

idk if those are my ND type of people. i tend to feel better in creative spaces, but usually i still don't fit in cuz of my intelligence (that's not a flex btw, it's just genuinely hard to connect to people if u never feel like u're on the same level cognitively)

I get it man I’m 130 IQ and I’m not some genius but most people are so stupid I have 0 connection with them

But trust me bjj is different, it’s a creative space and it’s almost impossible to not fit in. Even if you don’t talk that much it will distract you and give you something to do and focus on being better at

 

[blacksheep]

I just drink to sleep so time passes these days

 

[crazyguy]

yeah, u're right. but fixing that kinda shit is hard man. 6 years of therapy and i see no change. i've learned some stuff to keep myself calm in crisis situations, but nothing alcohol can't fix man

you should try talking to people who relate to you, it doesnt have to be a friendship. just a few conversations would make you feel better for sure

 

[blacksheep]

yeah I mean, in a way hes not wrong. One day we'll have to give back some help to our parents
But Idk if u feel like someone still cares abt u. I recommend waiting or rethinking. Sometimes ur actions can affect others
Otherwise, u already know

idk if i fully agree. i might just sound very spoiled but i didn't ask for this. i'm not glad to be alive. why'd i have to be the fastest swimmer jfl?
i think there are still a few people caring about me like my parents, but there reaction when they visited me in the hospital after my attempt did make me doubt that. they got really mad at me and blamed me. i do get where it comes from. there's plenty people who blame their hurt on someone cuz it makes it easier to deal with, but it was really hard for me to have to swallow so much hate from the people that are supposed to care for me

i like my cat a lot. she's always happy to see me

 

[blacksheep]

yeah I mean, in a way hes not wrong. One day we'll have to give back some help to our parents
But Idk if u feel like someone still cares abt u. I recommend waiting or rethinking. Sometimes ur actions can affect others
Otherwise, u already know

btw about the "affecting others". i know. that's my biggest fear regarding all this. i even planned that suicide in february in a way that it would affect as little people as possible. all my suicide letters were apologies for the hurt i inflicted. i think euthanasia is softer on my environment than diy. at least with euthanasia there's programs for loved ones to prepare themselves. they can be there too when it happens. their comfort gets taken into account

 

[blacksheep]

I get it man I’m 130 IQ and I’m not some genius but most people are so stupid I have 0 connection with them

But trust me bjj is different, it’s a creative space and it’s almost impossible to not fit in. Even if you don’t talk that much it will distract you and give you something to do and focus on being better at

i can try giving it a shot. or just look for other hobby's with people. something to fill my days with

 

[blacksheep]

you should try talking to people who relate to you, it doesnt have to be a friendship. just a few conversations would make you feel better for sure

that's why i log on here bro

 

[kazama]

idk if i fully agree. i might just sound very spoiled but i didn't ask for this. i'm not glad to be alive. why'd i have to be the fastest swimmer jfl?
i think there are still a few people caring about me like my parents, but there reaction when they visited me in the hospital after my attempt did make me doubt that. they got really mad at me and blamed me. i do get where it comes from. there's plenty people who blame their hurt on someone cuz it makes it easier to deal with, but it was really hard for me to have to swallow so much hate from the people that are supposed to care for me

i like my cat a lot. she's always happy to see me

yeah, a tough situation. But I mean, I know if I did that my parents would probably have a reaction other than crying and shit like that. Thats movie vs
But in a way I know they love me. Look for professionals to help u cope with the situation, otherwise try to get
These are difficult situations. I can't say shit like "ur life will get better, etc." Life is indeed harsh, and do u have the right to get euthanasia? If so, the decision is urs bc its ur life.
But I still recommend trying to cope with the situation. Do everything u can to "stay alive" and if u cant, look for her
I mean, I cant understand someones pain. So its hard

 

[m0ss26]

i can try giving it a shot. or just look for other hobby's with people. something to fill my days with

Highly recommend bro please don’t kill your self

 

[Lefty Rankin]

It's legal here and I'd want it for mental suffering

You think your emotional anguish is bad now just wait until you're in hell.

 

[kazama]

btw about the "affecting others". i know. that's my biggest fear regarding all this. i even planned that suicide in february in a way that it would affect as little people as possible. all my suicide letters were apologies for the hurt i inflicted. i think euthanasia is softer on my environment than diy. at least with euthanasia there's programs for loved ones to prepare themselves. they can be there too when it happens. their comfort gets taken into account

yeah, but dont worry so much. Most people who commit suicide r elderly/adults
Most of them r actually elderly
Keep a lot of things, wait for life to pass by, etc... I would probably do the same after a certain age, Idont like the idea of doing this while living in my parents house, u know?

 

[blacksheep]

yeah, a tough situation. But I mean, I know if I did that my parents would probably have a reaction other than crying and shit like that. Thats movie vs
But in a way I know they love me. Look for professionals to help u cope with the situation, otherwise try to get
These are difficult situations. I can't say shit like "ur life will get better, etc." Life is indeed harsh, and do u have the right to get euthanasia? If so, the decision is urs bc its ur life.
But I still recommend trying to cope with the situation. Do everything u can to "stay alive" and if u cant, look for her
I mean, I cant understand someones pain. So its hard

i've reached out to some professionals. still waiting for their reaction. i don't feel too hopeful about starting another therapeutic relationship (for like the 7th time I think) for it to not help

 

[blacksheep]

You think your emotional anguish is bad now just wait until you're in hell.

hhaahh i don't believe in that shit