Has anyone here thought of killing themselves and why?

[Effortless]

Continue from @AlexAP thread: https://looksmax.org/threads/suicide-rates-among-young-men-hit-record-levels.387666/

Example that really shocked me were 2 guys I know since high school killed themselves in the past year and it's a weird situation because both of those guys had a lot of friends and a large social circle, one of them even had a girlfriend.

It really hits home when its someone you know and even more shocking when they seemed like the happiest people before they took their own life.

I've felt low about things in my life but never once has suicide crossed my mind. Is it a genetic thing that makes people more prone to depression and suicide?

 

[WontStopNorwooding]

when I realized I'm nw3
just wanted to fucking end it

 

[AlexAP]

I did, because I had a toxic relationship with my family (still have), no social circle (got a little better) and no hope for my future (I have hope again).

Doubt it's something genetical only, it can heavily depend on your life experience.

 

[SS Amnesie]

Negotiated

 

[WontStopNorwooding]

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where did you get that video of me?

 

[Effortless]

.

Bro please I want this to be a serious thread

 

[SS Amnesie]

depression and suicide are just low t syndromes

 

[Effortless]

I did, because I had a toxic relationship with my family (still have), no social circle (got a little better) and no hope for my future (I have hope again).

Doubt it's something genetical only, it can heavily depend on your life experience.

What you mean by toxic relationship with family? their not supportive?

Social circle I understand, I have a friend who I've never met irl and we only known each other online for like 10 years now, I'm legit his only friend that he can talk to its kinda sad

 

[AlexAP]

What you mean by toxic relationship with family? their not supportive?

Social circle I understand, I have a friend who I've never met irl and we only known each other online for like 10 years now, I'm legit his only friend that he can talk to its kinda sad

Yes, I never had a close relationship to may family and I feel like they can't relate to me at all. My father was always very cold to me anyway, with my other relatives I only argued, we never had "good times".

I was a social outcast in school and only started after that to slowly get a social circle, it's still very small.

 

[Deleted member 4430]

Yes, I never had a close relationship to may family and I feel like they can't relate to me at all. My father was always very cold to me anyway, with my other relatives I only argued, we never had "good times".

I was a social outcast in school and only started after that to slowly get a social circle, it's still very small.

that explains a lot of things .....

 

[Effortless]

Yes, I never had a close relationship to may family and I feel like they can't relate to me at all. My father was always very cold to me anyway, with my other relatives I only argued, we never had "good times".

I was a social outcast in school and only started after that to slowly get a social circle, it's still very small.

Yeah I'm the same way with my family bro but I don't really know my father, I used to argue with my mum a lot when I was young to the point I was kicked out of the house for 3 days at 15 years old, first night I stayed up all night at the bus station because I didn't know where to go and the other I stayed at a friend until social service got involved and after that my relationship with my mother has never really been the same even though she's the only family member I have over here.

Also it doesn't matter if your social circle is small mate, as long as you have people you can relate to, do things with and got each others back. Big social circles are fun but overrated imo

 

[Deleted member 14323]

a few times cause of having no future/career and losing my friends. but i figured it out! i invested into shitcoins, now i have actual money in my bank account!

 

[Effortless]

a few times cause of having no future/career and losing my friends. but i figured it out! i invested into shitcoins, now i have actual money in my bank account!

Can relate, I don't know what to do or go about with my future so I feel like a failure right now

It's like do I just wage slave and continue to be stuck in a dead end job for the rest of my life

 

[WontStopNorwooding]

Can relate, I don't know what to do or go about with my future so I feel like a failure right now

It's like do I just wage slave and continue to be stuck in a dead end job for the rest of my life

same

my future looks kinda bleak right now

 

[Deleted member 275]

I started getting passive suicidal thoughts from the age of 21. Like 'It would be better if I never woke up' 'If I died right now, it wouldn't be too bad'.
Nowadays I often end thoughts in my head with: 'yeah, it's better if I just kill myself. I will never be able to fix this'.

Why? No social connections (family/friends/girlfriend). No connection with this society. I feel unvalued, without purpose and have no amibition in terms of career/studies anymore. On the average day I don't experience a single moment of joy/pleasure.


I don't really understand the thought process of people like OP who are shocked by suicide or think it's a bad thing. Those 2 people that were seemingly 'happy' have 100% sure been suffering a lot for a long time in quiet desperation. Unable to talk with anyone about it and unable to fix their issues. Suicide makes them stop suffering.

Even worse are the people who say shit like: 'think about how your parents/ppl around you feel if you commit suicide'. Like, wtf are u trying to do, make the person feel even more shit? How can you be so selfish to disregard the feelings of the person suffering so much that he wants to end it?

For what? His girlfriend that will find some other chad to fuck a few months later? The parents that probably never cared about their son anyways? Just cope tbh.

 

[Deleted member 12669]

@Grimba Moment

 

[Effortless]

same

my future looks kinda bleak right now

Are you in school or what are you doing right now?

and yeah mate I wish I was really interested in something which can lead me to success but I legit have no interest in anything atm, I feel like a fucking npc just living life

 

[Cigarette]

incel trait

 

[WontStopNorwooding]

Are you in school or what are you doing right now?

just finished school (high school)

and by finished I mean failed my fucking exams, so now I cant get into uni without paying and get a job that doesnt pay minimum

will have to wait till next summer to take the exams again

 

[Effortless]

I started getting passive suicidal thoughts from the age of 21. Like 'It would be better if I never woke up' 'If I died right now, it wouldn't be too bad'.
Nowadays I often end thoughts in my head with: 'yeah, it's better if I just kill myself. I will never be able to fix this'.

Why? No social connections (family/friends/girlfriend). No connection with this society. I feel unvalued, without purpose and have no amibition in terms of career/studies anymore. On the average day I don't experience a single moment of joy/pleasure.


I don't really understand the thought process of people like OP who are shocked by suicide or think it's a bad thing. Those 2 people that were seemingly 'happy' have 100% sure been suffering a lot for a long time in quiet desperation. Unable to talk with anyone about it and unable to fix their issues. Suicide makes them stop suffering.

Even worse are the people who say shit like: 'think about how your parents/ppl around you feel if you commit suicide'. Like, wtf are u trying to do, make the person feel even more shit? How can you be so selfish to disregard the feelings of the person suffering so much that he wants to end it?

For what? His girlfriend that will find some other chad to fuck a few months later? The parents that probably never cared about their son anyways? Just cope tbh.

What are you on about? Of course I would be shocked by suicide when it hits closer to home. And the thought process is because its something I have yet to relate to so I don't know what other who actually have it feel.

It like yeah I know its fucked up for Starving kids in Africa when its brought up but internally I just get on with my day as usual and forget about it because I don't relate to the same situation.

 

[one job away]

Continue from @AlexAP thread: https://looksmax.org/threads/suicide-rates-among-young-men-hit-record-levels.387666/

Example that really shocked me were 2 guys I know since high school killed themselves in the past year and it's a weird situation because both of those guys had a lot of friends and a large social circle, one of them even had a girlfriend.

It really hits home when its someone you know and even more shocking when they seemed like the happiest people before they took their own life.

I've felt low about things in my life but never once has suicide crossed my mind. Is it a genetic thing that makes people more prone to depression and suicide?

Yes. I did.

 

[Deleted member 12270]

During my Weight loss journey… I was already depressed and then I couldn’t cope with food like I used to… I had very dark thoughts back then

 

[Effortless]

Yes. I did.

About what? What made you think that way?

 

[Effortless]

During my Weight loss journey… I was already depressed and then I couldn’t cope with food like I used to… I had very dark thoughts back then

I cope with video games, gym, girls and friends and I still feel like a failure jfl

Do you feel better now working towards a goal and achieving it?

 

[one job away]

About what? What made you think that way?

I am someone that if I have an issue I fix it and better my life. But some situations or rather problems seemed unsolveable. Now it seems realistic again that I will achieve what I want.

 

[Amnesia]

A lot. And a lot of contributing factors. Mostly the realization that my life peaked around 12 years old. I was never happier than with my group of friends hanging out with them not having any "adult worries' in the world. All money cares shelter, basic needs taken care of all there was to worry about was whos house we were gunna sleep over at that weekend or what new release video game we'd buy. Things were just about purely maxxing out your fun, no one had wives/kids/jobs or anything that stressful to deal with, perfect health and youthful looks for everyone around.

That all ends and we are sold that "your life doesn't even start until you become an adult" what a load of shit. All the typical adult pleasures became numb quickly. I made a lot of money bought nice things/ new cars/expensive clothes, etc a lot in hopes of getting women, but I saw my brother effortlessly got them and he was a broke student. I bought plastic surgery and looksmaxxed and slayed a bit off that only to realize sex didnt please me either. SO now I am a young adult with all the money in the world, luxury items, and sex and yet none of that gave me a fraction of the pleasure that being that middle school kid with my friends did.

So what do I do, well obv try to recreate that experience with friends. Well now my friends being college aged or older are all off in different parts of the country, busy with studies or new jobs or girlfriends or even marriage. Way wayyy too bogged down to do any sort of activities we used to do. And of course when I could get a few of them to want to hang out they would "have to check with their gf first" or some other cucked shit. WELL FUCK THAT. It quickly dawned on me that there's no way I could ever go back in time

I started coping with the only two things that gave me pleasure, video games and junk food. I did this for 10 years all through my 20's and tbh it was pretty great. I lived a solitary lifestyle, self employed and hardly left my apartment just rotted. My friend group from childhood naturally faded away and now I am living off what naturally gives me any sort of happiness in life. Of course living that lifestyle gives u plenty of time to listen to podcasts/politics/current events, etc So naturally becoming red pilled on just how fucked up our world is and the power elite that control it made me want to disconnect further from society and frankly depressed about it all.

Now knowing how shit society is, how stupid the typical normie is, theres no legitimacy to the country you live in and with the pleasure that video games and the same junk food you have enjoyed the last 10 years not really giving you the pleasure you once had its easy to think "well i guess I have lived all there is to do" and think about just ending it. I have done "traveling" I have done well in my career goals, I have money and so I have "accomplished" what most people set out to do, I have good looks and have had plenty of sex, so my suicidal thoughts come from feeling like I've done it all and I still don't fell anything.

In before have a family/kids/or at least a wife. I have tried a gf but I cannot stand cohabitating with anyone else, sleep in the same bed, live in the same house etc. I am introverted and not having a LOT of time set to be alone I end up feeling suffocated, I genuinely am NOT happy when i am around a gf for multiple days, so I find this as well as a family impossible to purse.

The only reason I really havent killed myself is my faith is Jesus and I don't think he would approve. So I do pray for a way my life can serve Him. I keep looking for it and frankly don't believe my life is mine to take. I have researched and thought out and even bought some of the supplies needed to take my life in the way I would if I "did" so the means are there, however would i, no.

I do long for that child I once was, 12 years old with my friends, it was definitely the happiest I ever was and the closest thing to heaven on earth I experienced, I would say to any young ones here, try to hold on to your childhood friends as long as possible. If you do find yourself depressed I would try to make more friends. I don't know how kids do that nowadays, through which avenues, but try. All u need is one good friend not a million to really uplift you. Quality > Quantity when it comes to relationships in your life male or female for that matter

 

[BearBoy]

I tried to kill myself at the age of 6 i jumped in the street screaming im gonna kms, luckily the cars stopped

well that was long time ago

 

[Prettyboy]

I started getting passive suicidal thoughts from the age of 21. Like 'It would be better if I never woke up' 'If I died right now, it wouldn't be too bad'.
Nowadays I often end thoughts in my head with: 'yeah, it's better if I just kill myself. I will never be able to fix this'.

Why? No social connections (family/friends/girlfriend). No connection with this society. I feel unvalued, without purpose and have no amibition in terms of career/studies anymore. On the average day I don't experience a single moment of joy/pleasure.


I don't really understand the thought process of people like OP who are shocked by suicide or think it's a bad thing. Those 2 people that were seemingly 'happy' have 100% sure been suffering a lot for a long time in quiet desperation. Unable to talk with anyone about it and unable to fix their issues. Suicide makes them stop suffering.

Even worse are the people who say shit like: 'think about how your parents/ppl around you feel if you commit suicide'. Like, wtf are u trying to do, make the person feel even more shit? How can you be so selfish to disregard the feelings of the person suffering so much that he wants to end it?

For what? His girlfriend that will find some other chad to fuck a few months later? The parents that probably never cared about their son anyways? Just cope tbh.

I’m quite sure the average young male is similar to you, even if they don’t admit it to themselves. You really don’t have to be an actual truecel to dread this existence

 

[Deleted member 7044]

it is genetic to a large extent
some people cant be content to matter what, and in most of these cases if u look at their parents etc its the same shit with them
thats not to say only the genetically prone people are the only ones that off themselves

 

[Reckless Turtle]

Yup, as early as puberty. Keep in mind that for every guy who seems to have a good life committing suicide there's a bunch of losers who do it who never get noticed.

 

[Effortless]

A lot. And a lot of contributing factors. Mostly the realization that my life peaked around 12 years old. I was never happier than with my group of friends hanging out with them not having any "adult worries' in the world. All money cares shelter, basic needs taken care of all there was to worry about was whos house we were gunna sleep over at that weekend or what new release video game we'd buy. Things were just about purely maxxing out your fun, no one had wives/kids/jobs or anything that stressful to deal with, perfect health and youthful looks for everyone around.

That all ends and we are sold that "your life doesn't even start until you become an adult" what a load of shit. All the typical adult pleasures became numb quickly. I made a lot of money bought nice things/ new cars/expensive clothes, etc a lot in hopes of getting women, but I saw my brother effortlessly got them and he was a broke student. I bought plastic surgery and looksmaxxed and slayed a bit off that only to realize sex didnt please me either. SO now I am a young adult with all the money in the world, luxury items, and sex and yet none of that gave me a fraction of the pleasure that being that middle school kid with my friends did.

So what do I do, well obv try to recreate that experience with friends. Well now my friends being college aged or older are all off in different parts of the country, busy with studies or new jobs or girlfriends or even marriage. Way wayyy too bogged down to do any sort of activities we used to do. And of course when I could get a few of them to want to hang out they would "have to check with their gf first" or some other cucked shit. WELL FUCK THAT. It quickly dawned on me that there's no way I could ever go back in time

I started coping with the only two things that gave me pleasure, video games and junk food. I did this for 10 years all through my 20's and tbh it was pretty great. I lived a solitary lifestyle, self employed and hardly left my apartment just rotted. My friend group from childhood naturally faded away and now I am living off what naturally gives me any sort of happiness in life. Of course living that lifestyle gives u plenty of time to listen to podcasts/politics/current events, etc So naturally becoming red pilled on just how fucked up our world is and the power elite that control it made me want to disconnect further from society and frankly depressed about it all.

Now knowing how shit society is, how stupid the typical normie is, theres no legitimacy to the country you live in and with the pleasure that video games and the same junk food you have enjoyed the last 10 years not really giving you the pleasure you once had its easy to think "well i guess I have lived all there is to do" and think about just ending it. I have done "traveling" I have done well in my career goals, I have money and so I have "accomplished" what most people set out to do, I have good looks and have had plenty of sex, so my suicidal thoughts come from feeling like I've done it all and I still don't fell anything.

In before have a family/kids/or at least a wife. I have tried a gf but I cannot stand cohabitating with anyone else, sleep in the same bed, live in the same house etc. I am introverted and not having a LOT of time set to be alone I end up feeling suffocated, I genuinely am NOT happy when i am around a gf for multiple days, so I find this as well as a family impossible to purse.

The only reason I really havent killed myself is my faith is Jesus and I don't think he would approve. So I do pray for a way my life can serve Him. I keep looking for it and frankly don't believe my life is mine to take. I have researched and thought out and even bought some of the supplies needed to take my life in the way I would if I "did" so the means are there, however would i, no.

I do long for that child I once was, 12 years old with my friends, it was definitely the happiest I ever was and the closest thing to heaven on earth I experienced, I would say to any young ones here, try to hold on to your childhood friends as long as possible. If you do find yourself depressed I would try to make more friends. I don't know how kids do that nowadays, through which avenues, but try. All u need is one good friend not a million to really uplift you. Quality > Quantity when it comes to relationships in your life male or female for that matter

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and I agree with you on a lot of points. Everything at the moment to me just feels numb and the only real joy I really get is when I'm out with my close friends.

I remember I used to go out and play with my friends all the time from 7-12 years old but after high school and college everyone pretty much went on with their own lives. What sad to me these days is that a lot of kids nowadays won't even experience what we did because they spend time in side playing video games and on social media nowadays with no real life interaction that are memorable. I think it will only get worse for the next generations, at least I experienced having lived a lot of good memory with my friends.

 

[Effortless]

I’m quite sure the average young male is similar to you, even if they don’t admit it to themselves. You really don’t have to be an actual truecel to dread this existence

Yeah the thing is I don't dread my existence but I just feel too numb nowadays, like I don't feel sad but the joy I have don't also last as long. Its weird ngl

Yup, as early as puberty. Keep in mind that for every guy who seems to have a good life committing suicide there's a bunch of losers who do it who never get noticed.

Why since puberty? you didn't fit in or what?

and yeah I get that, people really don't give a fuck if they see you have nothing to offer

 

[Effortless]

it is genetic to a large extent
some people cant be content to matter what, and in most of these cases if u look at their parents etc its the same shit with them
thats not to say only the genetically prone people are the only ones that off themselves

This is what I think as well, even though its a lot to do with life experience or lack there of but I think some people are just genetic prone to depression or not able to cope with it as well.

 

[BigJimsWornOutTires]

Continue from @AlexAP thread: https://looksmax.org/threads/suicide-rates-among-young-men-hit-record-levels.387666/

Example that really shocked me were 2 guys I know since high school killed themselves in the past year and it's a weird situation because both of those guys had a lot of friends and a large social circle, one of them even had a girlfriend.

It really hits home when its someone you know and even more shocking when they seemed like the happiest people before they took their own life.

I've felt low about things in my life but never once has suicide crossed my mind. Is it a genetic thing that makes people more prone to depression and suicide?

It's no coincidence that suicide skyrocketed along with drug overdoses since the imaginary fear-mongering virus took effect.

No one from the tree I'm from can convince any of you what's genuinely happening. Whatever I say, the pundit manipulators and political liars, and highwaymen will label me a delusionist. However, top military rankers know exactly what's happening. And they can't say anything, or they'll be shamed - removed - alienated against - demoralized, in general.

That great war has started. And perhaps Christians were convinced magnificent events would happen immediately. That's not how this works.

Too simple.

Too easy to spot. Even for an atheist.

That old serpent is more brilliant than any man, woman, group on this planet. And perhaps, it used the (self)clever ones to get this party started; the medical industry. Those are the easiest ones to manipulate because they all think they're intelligent, like professionals being played by the trickster at the poker table. So he/she would need to know how to play poker to trick them. Right?

Ye of little minds, what have you done?

 

[Reckless Turtle]

Yeah the thing is I don't dread my existence but I just feel too numb nowadays, like I don't feel sad but the joy I have don't also last as long. Its weird ngl


Why since puberty? you didn't fit in or what?

and yeah I get that, people really don't give a fuck if they see you have nothing to offer

Nah, I had a lot of friends and female validation/attention (first girlfriend at 13ish). I'm probably genetically predisposed to depression and being a bastard/raised by a single mother/not having a good home life made the situation worse.

I find that when I'm competing (sports, video games, etc.) I'm not depressed at all. But once the competition stops, I get suicidal.

 

[YungStud]

The only reason I’m alive right now is because of hope. I live the same miserable life everyday. Life sucks and i don’t see a future where I’m truly happy.

 

[Deleted member 14323]

Can relate, I don't know what to do or go about with my future so I feel like a failure right now

It's like do I just wage slave and continue to be stuck in a dead end job for the rest of my life

you'll figure it out! if i did anyone can, i was a literal level 1000000 rotter.

 

[Deleted member 2968]

When i asked one girl i used to hang out and i was atrracted to why i can't be loved,she told me that i don't want to hear reason,so i told her to be honest about it and she told me that i am ugly.I was feeling sorrow and sadness at that moment since i was in mental hospital week ago before this happened,i went to bridge not far from me and sat on it,i was thinking about past and why always i have to suffer the most,i saw many people behind me looking at me and i left place ashamed of myself and cried till i got home by bus.If i only jumped that day...now i dont even feel sadness,just anger.I stopped feeling suicidal and depressed i am just used to my pathetic life

 

[cvzvvc]

Well now my friends being college aged or older are all off in different parts of the country, busy with studies or new jobs or girlfriends or even marriage. Way wayyy too bogged down to do any sort of activities we used to do

This is the part they don't tell you about at any point in life. It just creeps up on you. You're 30+ and all the "hot girls" from high school are married to the guys they wouldn't have fucked as a teen short of having a loaded gun to their head. They all look worn out and much uglier. The guys are Norwooded, fatter, stuck in middle management jobs, beta buxing for these girls. Even the "super smart" people you remember from high school - at BEST - are stuck in hellish corporate finance or legal jobs and work a million hours a week to stack money they never use. And so on.

So fucking brutal.

 

[lasthope]

A lot. And a lot of contributing factors. Mostly the realization that my life peaked around 12 years old. I was never happier than with my group of friends hanging out with them not having any "adult worries' in the world. All money cares shelter, basic needs taken care of all there was to worry about was whos house we were gunna sleep over at that weekend or what new release video game we'd buy. Things were just about purely maxxing out your fun, no one had wives/kids/jobs or anything that stressful to deal with, perfect health and youthful looks for everyone around.

That all ends and we are sold that "your life doesn't even start until you become an adult" what a load of shit. All the typical adult pleasures became numb quickly. I made a lot of money bought nice things/ new cars/expensive clothes, etc a lot in hopes of getting women, but I saw my brother effortlessly got them and he was a broke student. I bought plastic surgery and looksmaxxed and slayed a bit off that only to realize sex didnt please me either. SO now I am a young adult with all the money in the world, luxury items, and sex and yet none of that gave me a fraction of the pleasure that being that middle school kid with my friends did.

So what do I do, well obv try to recreate that experience with friends. Well now my friends being college aged or older are all off in different parts of the country, busy with studies or new jobs or girlfriends or even marriage. Way wayyy too bogged down to do any sort of activities we used to do. And of course when I could get a few of them to want to hang out they would "have to check with their gf first" or some other cucked shit. WELL FUCK THAT. It quickly dawned on me that there's no way I could ever go back in time

I started coping with the only two things that gave me pleasure, video games and junk food. I did this for 10 years all through my 20's and tbh it was pretty great. I lived a solitary lifestyle, self employed and hardly left my apartment just rotted. My friend group from childhood naturally faded away and now I am living off what naturally gives me any sort of happiness in life. Of course living that lifestyle gives u plenty of time to listen to podcasts/politics/current events, etc So naturally becoming red pilled on just how fucked up our world is and the power elite that control it made me want to disconnect further from society and frankly depressed about it all.

Now knowing how shit society is, how stupid the typical normie is, theres no legitimacy to the country you live in and with the pleasure that video games and the same junk food you have enjoyed the last 10 years not really giving you the pleasure you once had its easy to think "well i guess I have lived all there is to do" and think about just ending it. I have done "traveling" I have done well in my career goals, I have money and so I have "accomplished" what most people set out to do, I have good looks and have had plenty of sex, so my suicidal thoughts come from feeling like I've done it all and I still don't fell anything.

In before have a family/kids/or at least a wife. I have tried a gf but I cannot stand cohabitating with anyone else, sleep in the same bed, live in the same house etc. I am introverted and not having a LOT of time set to be alone I end up feeling suffocated, I genuinely am NOT happy when i am around a gf for multiple days, so I find this as well as a family impossible to purse.

The only reason I really havent killed myself is my faith is Jesus and I don't think he would approve. So I do pray for a way my life can serve Him. I keep looking for it and frankly don't believe my life is mine to take. I have researched and thought out and even bought some of the supplies needed to take my life in the way I would if I "did" so the means are there, however would i, no.

I do long for that child I once was, 12 years old with my friends, it was definitely the happiest I ever was and the closest thing to heaven on earth I experienced, I would say to any young ones here, try to hold on to your childhood friends as long as possible. If you do find yourself depressed I would try to make more friends. I don't know how kids do that nowadays, through which avenues, but try. All u need is one good friend not a million to really uplift you. Quality > Quantity when it comes to relationships in your life male or female for that matter

Which video games do you play?

 

[Deleted member 14543]

my ex took away my last 2 friends from me by telling my mates gf that he cheated on her and then she dumped him. and then because of that, my friend dumped me. then she kept liking my only last friends pics on insta and he was liking hers back. so i just said fuck you to him. and I didnt have anyone after that. plus i had no life(hobbies, work). plus i was subhuman at that point. i legit wanted to rope every day for like 2 months. i even bought a noose and went to a forest to do it (lol) but I couldnt figure out how to tye the noose after watching yt tutorials for like an hour in my car. but thankfully ive learnt to be ok with being alone and ive actually built my life with mma, gym and got myself a digital marketing job which is exactly what i wanted to get into. just need to ascend a bit more and then ill start building my social life again hopefully

 

[Deleted member 14543]

also went to kms at a train station by jumping on the track but i pussied out and went home. then i got a letter 2 days later fining me like £75 for not paying for parking at the train station I went to kill myself at. the world is a cruel place lol

 

[SubhumanCurrycel]

when I realized I'm nw3
just wanted to fucking end it

balding young is probably the single most suicide inducing thing that happens to a decent portion of men

 

[WontStopNorwooding]

balding young is probably the single most suicide inducing thing that happens to a decent portion of men

Nothing ruins mental health more than balding when you are in your teen years.
I legit became a rotter when I realized my norwood level.

 

[Effortless]

my ex took away my last 2 friends from me by telling my mates gf that he cheated on her and then she dumped him. and then because of that, my friend dumped me. then she kept liking my only last friends pics on insta and he was liking hers back. so i just said fuck you to him. and I didnt have anyone after that. plus i had no life(hobbies, work). plus i was subhuman at that point. i legit wanted to rope every day for like 2 months. i even bought a noose and went to a forest to do it (lol) but I couldnt figure out how to tye the noose after watching yt tutorials for like an hour in my car. but thankfully ive learnt to be ok with being alone and ive actually built my life with mma, gym and got myself a digital marketing job which is exactly what i wanted to get into. just need to ascend a bit more and then ill start building my social life again hopefully

Good for you man, I hope you're doing well and continue to do so. It's inspiring for me to hear people who went to a darker place than me who comes out and still have hope and living a better life.

also went to kms at a train station by jumping on the track but i pussied out and went home. then i got a letter 2 days later fining me like £75 for not paying for parking at the train station I went to kill myself at. the world is a cruel place lol

It's fucking sad but such a fucking funny story wtf absolute clown world

 

[Effortless]

When i asked one girl i used to hang out and i was atrracted to why i can't be loved,she told me that i don't want to hear reason,so i told her to be honest about it and she told me that i am ugly.I was feeling sorrow and sadness at that moment since i was in mental hospital week ago before this happened,i went to bridge not far from me and sat on it,i was thinking about past and why always i have to suffer the most,i saw many people behind me looking at me and i left place ashamed of myself and cried till i got home by bus.If i only jumped that day...now i dont even feel sadness,just anger.I stopped feeling suicidal and depressed i am just used to my pathetic life

Sometimes a good cry makes you feel better after wards ngl, its like a point where you can't express yourself properly anymore so your body just lets go... and I feel like many men feel the same way towards life like you but just don't show it.

How come you ended up in mental hospital?

 

[Danish_Retard]

It'd just be a lot easier than to keep living. I have no goals in life, no matter what I do it's impossible to escape mediocrity. I don't see any future where I'll actually enjoy life.

Every day I think that I could just quit life. Every time I see something that could kill me I'm reminded just how easy it is. Especially powerlines, they're everywhere and it'd be so easy to just climb one and touch a cable. Your brain would be fried before you even noticed what had happened. It isn't something that I have to "fight" myself not to do, but I can understand people who just do it.

 

[LocalDanger]

A lot. And a lot of contributing factors. Mostly the realization that my life peaked around 12 years old. I was never happier than with my group of friends hanging out with them not having any "adult worries' in the world. All money cares shelter, basic needs taken care of all there was to worry about was whos house we were gunna sleep over at that weekend or what new release video game we'd buy. Things were just about purely maxxing out your fun, no one had wives/kids/jobs or anything that stressful to deal with, perfect health and youthful looks for everyone around.

That all ends and we are sold that "your life doesn't even start until you become an adult" what a load of shit. All the typical adult pleasures became numb quickly. I made a lot of money bought nice things/ new cars/expensive clothes, etc a lot in hopes of getting women, but I saw my brother effortlessly got them and he was a broke student. I bought plastic surgery and looksmaxxed and slayed a bit off that only to realize sex didnt please me either. SO now I am a young adult with all the money in the world, luxury items, and sex and yet none of that gave me a fraction of the pleasure that being that middle school kid with my friends did.

So what do I do, well obv try to recreate that experience with friends. Well now my friends being college aged or older are all off in different parts of the country, busy with studies or new jobs or girlfriends or even marriage. Way wayyy too bogged down to do any sort of activities we used to do. And of course when I could get a few of them to want to hang out they would "have to check with their gf first" or some other cucked shit. WELL FUCK THAT. It quickly dawned on me that there's no way I could ever go back in time

I started coping with the only two things that gave me pleasure, video games and junk food. I did this for 10 years all through my 20's and tbh it was pretty great. I lived a solitary lifestyle, self employed and hardly left my apartment just rotted. My friend group from childhood naturally faded away and now I am living off what naturally gives me any sort of happiness in life. Of course living that lifestyle gives u plenty of time to listen to podcasts/politics/current events, etc So naturally becoming red pilled on just how fucked up our world is and the power elite that control it made me want to disconnect further from society and frankly depressed about it all.

Now knowing how shit society is, how stupid the typical normie is, theres no legitimacy to the country you live in and with the pleasure that video games and the same junk food you have enjoyed the last 10 years not really giving you the pleasure you once had its easy to think "well i guess I have lived all there is to do" and think about just ending it. I have done "traveling" I have done well in my career goals, I have money and so I have "accomplished" what most people set out to do, I have good looks and have had plenty of sex, so my suicidal thoughts come from feeling like I've done it all and I still don't fell anything.

In before have a family/kids/or at least a wife. I have tried a gf but I cannot stand cohabitating with anyone else, sleep in the same bed, live in the same house etc. I am introverted and not having a LOT of time set to be alone I end up feeling suffocated, I genuinely am NOT happy when i am around a gf for multiple days, so I find this as well as a family impossible to purse.

The only reason I really havent killed myself is my faith is Jesus and I don't think he would approve. So I do pray for a way my life can serve Him. I keep looking for it and frankly don't believe my life is mine to take. I have researched and thought out and even bought some of the supplies needed to take my life in the way I would if I "did" so the means are there, however would i, no.

I do long for that child I once was, 12 years old with my friends, it was definitely the happiest I ever was and the closest thing to heaven on earth I experienced, I would say to any young ones here, try to hold on to your childhood friends as long as possible. If you do find yourself depressed I would try to make more friends. I don't know how kids do that nowadays, through which avenues, but try. All u need is one good friend not a million to really uplift you. Quality > Quantity when it comes to relationships in your life male or female for that matter

Other than family maybe you should try to find oneitis. No matter how cucked it might seem it's only thing that makes me feel alive.

Find someone good looking enough and for whatever reason special enough to you, that she might be out of reach but maybe you can get her. That's when obsession kick in. And with obsession,desire, nervousness comes feelings of aliveness. But this might lead to considering rope even more too like it did for me. But maybe you luck out. For something to be worth it and for feeling alive there must a chance at extreme brutal failure something irreplaceable that you might lose that scares you more than anything. That's vulnerabikity at it's true from exposing yourself to extreme true expirences. It's scary when there is something irreplaceable which makes you alive.

 

[Chad69]

I think about that daily,too many reasons tho

 

[LocalDanger]

Yes because of my oneitis.

A lot of people here have weird reasons for wanting to commit suicide. I think it's because they don't have a chance with girl beautiful enough or that would be reason for sure why they wanna rope.

I was so close to getting jb something I always wanted teen love. Plus she was beautiful. And then chance disappeared.

How to cope then? What awaits me? Everything else pales in comparison. It would be raw true expirence of life. But most people cope because they never had it almost in grasp so they can't even start comprehending. Or else they would rope like me.