hate

[earear]

this girl rejected me in a harsh way. I hated her and still fucking hate her for how she did it

someone told me this.

“you’re upset that she won’t accept you for your flaws, but you won’t accept hers”

hmmmmm

I just have to be better. people act the way they do based on instinct. I just have to look better. dress better, smell better, be more controlled. no use blaming these stupid fucks who run around like headless chickens, not knowing how lucky they are, everything handed to them. I hate them but I need to realize my hatred is hypocritical. I hate myself I hate everything.

I want respect above all. basic human decency and respect. as a starting point.

but then again. if I’m changing myself in order to get what I want from people……..!37;67-$/@,9,8

I guess it only matters once I’ve done that? then, I can judge others, once I’m not a complete fucking loser. is this fair? life isn’t fair do what you can

 

[Jgns]

yeah thats fair good that u realised that but keep in mind that doing it for urself first is the best way to not go crazy and let it all come crashing down if after everything it still isnt good enough

 

[psltristan1]

It's ok Bhai we're not chad anyway
It never began for us

 

[earear]

yeah thats fair good that u realised that but keep in mind that doing it for urself first is the best way to not go crazy and let it all come crashing down if after everything it still isnt good enough

what would it working out mean for you specifically?

 

[Jgns]

what would it working out mean for you specifically?

I guess like if I were to give u an example what I said before happened to me, but now im genuinely tryna yk hardmax in my case to look in the mirror and be like im that nigga. Good enough to fit my standards, not to get a relationship or iois or anything, just to feel human yk.

 

[Jgns]

My name is Yoshikage Kira. I'm 33 years old. My house is in the northeast section of Morioh, where all the villas are, and I am not married. I work as an employee for the Kame Yu department stores, and I get home every day by 8 PM at the latest. I don't smoke, but I occasionally drink. I'm in bed by 11 PM, and make sure I get eight hours of sleep, no matter what. After having a glass of warm milk and doing about twenty minutes of stretches before going to bed, I usually have no problems sleeping until morning. Just like a baby, I wake up without any fatigue or stress in the morning. I was told there were no issues at my last check-up. I'm trying to explain that I'm a person who wishes to live a very quiet life. I take care not to trouble myself with any enemies, like winning and losing, that would cause me to lose sleep at night. That is how I deal with society, and I know that is what brings me happiness. Although, if I were to fight I wouldn't lose to anyone.

 

[earear]

yeah. I just want to feel human

 

[Frenulum]

do whatever you want, never change

 

[earear]

do whatever you want, never change

???? what I want is to change

 

[Frenulum]

???? what I want is to change

changing is low t

 

[earear]

changing is low t

progress/struggle vs stagnance/comfort