Sayori
ascend or die
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summarize this into one sentence for meI think I had a semi unique experience with it, when I discovered it I was tall with a slightly bellow average face but it was a good base to improve on. After doing all the basic softmaxes my face is now above average, that improvement wouldn’t have been made without discovering this community.
At this point in time I seem to be quite obsessed with the topic of looks, lookism and the blackpill; it dominates my thought, and I never really get a break from it, it covers the feed on all my social media’s too so I can’t even have some escapism there.
Sometimes I’m glad I’m aware of it because it helps me overcome being unsure of myself in social situations, I can’t just think “I’m tall and gl the halo effect will carry and what I do doesn’t matter much”. That awareness does help, back in the day I used to mentally masterbait over every single thing I did and how it may be perceived.
In other cases I just wish I could’ve unknowingly made the improvements by having good habits so I didn’t have to discover this community to look better. I think I’d enjoy the halo effect a lot more if I couldn’t exactly pinpoint the source of my newfound attention. It’d be quite nice to just have people like me more for no reason, and I was just “special” for some reason.
My experiences would probably be a lot more fulfilling. I would also actually be able to honestly tell people about my life and what I do, because I can’t exactly tell people the only things I do in my free time is stick to a looksmaxxing routine and rot on forums or socials consuming this kind of content.
Things seem a lot less special when you know how shallow human socialisation is, and how very unfair it can be
Id understand if you DNR this text wall lol, no hard feelings.