having a loving/coddling mother but deadbeat dad is life sentence

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im suprised how im not a faggot yet atp, its probably cuz of youtube and shit natural drive as a man to want to be the man in the room, to speak what i want on my mind. Ong if i didnt have that drive atp i would be an actual homosexual and probably wouldnt be on here.

U cant do shit since if u wanna be lower inhib, slay girls, or even have any social presence in a friend group, your all living a fake reality u come back home and ur mom is like overly loving and cooking shit for u.

Im not a confrontational person either shit just feds me up, i dont see a point of making amends with my dad i tried b4 he still drank alcohol and fucking basically harassed the whole house. I just dont talk to him , idont even wanna see him so theres no point of contension. Like literally havent seen eye to eye with him in months which last time was when he broke down my door jfl.

Some niggas crawl in and become neet homosexuals overly terrified, some people become thugs and super confrontational as a defense mechanism, i just became kinda high inhib and just dont speak to anyone and instantly get pissed off if someone asks me for something.

 

[FiendFiend]

i know some blacks come home to loving suburban families but still somehow gangbang im fucking mirin how they end up doing that. I was one of the only white kids in my ethnic school so we never had no clique and there is no white unity or groups.

I have got into fights cuz of it but genually i'll always be the guy who is non confrontational, just sticks to himself. Some people "stick to themselves" and end up just neeting and doing nothing, i have tried to resell shit and make some income, i have worked jobs, i do put a lot of time money and effort into ascending too 99% more than this forum.

Tbf looksmaxxing is the only valid self improvement there has been and that has yielded me real life results of confidence.