having male BPD is more damaging than autism.

[Britmaxxer]

seriously. imagine going from feeling suicidal to feeling like your on crack within the space of a few hours, and then back down again. I can barely function. sometimes I sit in my room paralysed by anxiety for days in a row, then i will go out drinking and being low inhib alpha as fuck for a week straight.

this shit is barely controllable. im constantly cleaning up my own mess, but it doesnt even feel like i am the one fucking shit up.

fuck taking meds tho.. getting all bloated and estrogenic. no way.

the only way I progress in life is when a manic phase coincides with exams/social situations.

 

[Deleted member 18244]

Sucks man, I’m the same but probably not as drastic cause i’ve never felt the urge to share. You on meds?

 

[LightSkinNoob]

I have the same diagnosis, with undiagnosed high functioning autism most likely, I’ve also refused to take meds, if I ascend to chadlite I should be able to LTRs that last longer than 3 months.

The problem with BPD for me is it’s getting progressively worse as I get older.

 

[Britmaxxer]

Sucks man, I’m the same but probably not as drastic cause i’ve never felt the urge to share. You on meds?

no. the process of getting meds in the UK is extremely long and drawn out unless you go private. and If I confess some of the stuff ive done whilst manic, a lot is very illegal. I go from feeling like the worst person ever to feeling like a literal god randomly.

If I avoid any substances and keep constant awareness of myself I can generally keep things under control but its still chaos. mostly I just avoid people because anyone who knows me for longer than a few months notices I am completely unpredictable and can be very intense or withdrawn. I have only a few close friends. BPD makes all my relationships very unstable. I go from hating someone to loving them randomly, then back again . dumping girls for no reason. ghosting people. random beliefs they are spying on me.

the only meds they give for this make you feel nothing and I dont want that, but it might be the only option.

 

[Deleted member 18244]

no. the process of getting meds in the UK is extremely long and drawn out unless you go private. and If I confess some of the stuff ive done whilst manic, a lot is very illegal. I go from feeling like the worst person ever to feeling like a literal god randomly.

If I avoid any substances and keep constant awareness of myself I can generally keep things under control but its still chaos. mostly I just avoid people because anyone who knows me for longer than a few months notices I am completely unpredictable and can be very intense or withdrawn. I have only a few close friends. BPD makes all my relationships very unstable. I go from hating someone to loving them randomly, then back again . dumping girls for no reason. ghosting people. random beliefs they are spying on me.

the only meds they give for this make you feel nothing and I dont want that, but it might be the only option.

Unfortunately it’s either numbness or extremes, I don’t know if you can find a balance. Meditating/working out help slightly but they won’t make you zen overnight

 

[currylightskin]

 

[HighClassMaxing]

legit asf

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

literally just dont be anxious

idiot