help a poor fucking incel out on how he feels about random foid he met in mental hospital

[ja37viggenlover]

for starters, I don't even like her ass. I went to the mental hospital for psychosis and I saw somebody who was similar to me and I swooned over her. Looking back her ass was larping to the maximum talking about some "incelteen" "incelbaby", she called herself a femcel and busted out those terms and I just ate it up because I was thinking "oh wow someone just like me!!!" and in the end I forgot I was in a fucking mental hospital and I looked delusional as fuck. Regardless, I can't fucking judge her for larping as I'm over here also a tiktok mainly chud. I feel insanely regretful about how I creeped her out and from here I'd normally hate on her but at the same time I can't help but feel hatred for myself by how uncomfortable I made her feel. If I sit here I'm sure eventually I'd rationalize my own self hatred and turn it outwards towards women in general but I can't help but feel like I'd rather kill myself than hate other people for problems I've caused. From the mental stay, I'm now 215 and around 18% bf, I think I'll just work on maintaining my weight as this is probably the best I've ever looked my entire life (for reference, in december of 2024 about a year and a few months ago I was 260 pounds).

 

[Lefty Rankin]

Just stop thinking about her, duh

 

[Navity]

for starters, I don't even like her ass. I went to the mental hospital for psychosis and I saw somebody who was similar to me and I swooned over her. Looking back her ass was larping to the maximum talking about some "incelteen" "incelbaby", she called herself a femcel and busted out those terms and I just ate it up because I was thinking "oh wow someone just like me!!!" and in the end I forgot I was in a fucking mental hospital and I looked delusional as fuck. Regardless, I can't fucking judge her for larping as I'm over here also a tiktok mainly chud. I feel insanely regretful about how I creeped her out and from here I'd normally hate on her but at the same time I can't help but feel hatred for myself by how uncomfortable I made her feel. If I sit here I'm sure eventually I'd rationalize my own self hatred and turn it outwards towards women in general but I can't help but feel like I'd rather kill myself than hate other people for problems I've caused. From the mental stay, I'm now 215 and around 18% bf, I think I'll just work on maintaining my weight as this is probably the best I've ever looked my entire life (for reference, in december of 2024 about a year and a few months ago I was 260 pounds).

Wtf ru tryna convey bruh, You want to be with her or Ur regretful or u hate urself or what?

 

[goku21]

Dnr+grey+fag+offtopic

 

[ignoredestiny]

mind if i ask why you were in there to begin with?

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Wtf ru tryna convey bruh, You want to be with her or Ur regretful or u hate urself or what?

I don't wanna be with her ass at all but I fucking hate the way I probably creeped her out. Of course I can say "oh well she shoulda just told me off" because she offered her tiktok to me, but I chose instead to never give her it cuz I fucking hated creeping her out more. Looking back, it probably wasnt that deep but.

TLDR: I absolutely hate myself because I always feel like every action I take harms someone negatively

 

[Navity]

mind if i ask why you were in there to begin with?

its written in the first line sherlock

 

[ja37viggenlover]

mind if i ask why you were in there to begin with?

psychosis apparently, as far as I know (because legally there's nothing on the record but I spill my own truth on the internet) a girl I used to swoon over during the summer tried to get me arrested on drug charges because earlier in the month instead of letting myself get lovebombed into oblivion I posed her the question "are we lovers or friends" (I was in a 3 month humiliationship with her last summer and I didn't wanna go through that bullshit again), in a nutshell after all that shit happened all I learned was the world isn't all sunshine and roses and I now fear every step I take because I hate harming others.

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Just stop thinking about her, duh

it's not her im thinking about more than how I creeped her out. I'm very regretful of every action I've taken in this life that weirds out other people, and even though I didn't know better I can't bring myself to forgive myself because I feel like a waste to this earth.

 

[lahari]

Don't stress man, I used to freak out when I made a social situation awkward but what helps me now is to remember that you won't see these people for the rest of your life. They won't even be thinking about you the next day, and she's in a mental hospital she's definitely seen worse and you're the least of her worries if she really did feel anything

You couldn't have harmed her in any way at all so don't fret about that

At most just take this as something to learn about social cues

 

[Navity]

I don't wanna be with her ass at all but I fucking hate the way I probably creeped her out. Of course I can say "oh well she shoulda just told me off" because she offered her tiktok to me, but I chose instead to never give her it cuz I fucking hated creeping her out more. Looking back, it probably wasnt that deep but.

TLDR: I absolutely hate myself because I always feel like every action I take harms someone negatively

Calm your ND brain, No cortisol

, 2nd of all, its alright she probly forgot abt it the next day

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Don't stress man, I used to freak out when I made a social situation awkward but what helps me now is to remember that you won't see these people for the rest of your life. They won't even be thinking about you the next day, and she's in a mental hospital she's definitely seen worse and you're the least of her worries if she really did feel anything

You couldn't have harmed her in any way at all so don't fret about that

At most just take this as something to learn about social cues

I know all I did was just follow her ass around and talk to her a shit ton for 3 hours like an autistic retard but I still can't help but beat myself up about it, but imo you're right because at the end of the day she won't remember some random guy who talked to her for like 2 hours and dipped, although I noticed she literally changed identities the next day cuz of how I was pestering her and then changed sections, I know myself and I know firstmost when I harm others and when I don't so my main worry was whether or not I actually affected her without my knowledge, but the staff told me I didn't do shit so I have nothing to worry about

 

[Lefty Rankin]

it's not her im thinking about more than how I creeped her out. I'm very regretful of every action I've taken in this life that weirds out other people, and even though I didn't know better I can't bring myself to forgive myself because I feel like a waste to this earth.

Dude, just stop. If you're ever gonna get what you want in this life you're gonna have to get very comfortable making other people uncomfortable. I don't care about creeping people out. In fact, I can't begin to tell you how many girls I've ended up fucking after creeping them out upon our first interaction.

Lol, I did more than creep a girl out earlier tonight. Read my thread.

https://looksmax.org/threads/had-to-put-a-bitch-in-her-place-for-trying-to-tell-me-how-to-deal-with-my-wife.1912866/#post-26712424

 

[lahari]

I know all I did was just follow her ass around and talk to her a shit ton for 3 hours like an autistic retard but I still can't help but beat myself up about it, but imo you're right because at the end of the day she won't remember some random guy who talked to her for like 2 hours and dipped, although I noticed she literally changed identities the next day cuz of how I was pestering her and then changed sections, I know myself and I know firstmost when I harm others and when I don't so my main worry was whether or not I actually affected her without my knowledge, but the staff told me I didn't do shit so I have nothing to worry about

Dude if that's all you did then don't even worry about it, I assume mental hospitals are dreadful so atleast you kept her day lively in some way that didn't wasn't agonizing

Keep yourself in a good mindset brother don't stress at all

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Dude, just stop. If you're ever gonna get what you want in this life you're gonna have to get very comfortable making other people uncomfortable. I don't care about creeping people out. In fact, I can't begin to tell you how many girls I've ended up fucking after creeping them out upon our first interaction.

Lol, I did more than creep a girl out earlier tonight. Read my thread.

https://looksmax.org/threads/had-to-put-a-bitch-in-her-place-for-trying-to-tell-me-how-to-deal-with-my-wife.1912866/#post-26712424

as much as I wanna talk to you like I see the world as a disney movie and I wanna say "yeah but I believe I can get somebody and never weird them out!!", I hate to say that you're absolutely right. Frankly, I think back to all the women I've talked to and all the women I've interacted with and I remember admitting to them how I feel and then never actually formally asking them out and then I sit there wondering why they get angry at me after like 3 days of 0 action, I think my main problem is I care too much about other people to the point I forget about myself, but I've had so many female friends over my lifetime and all of them tell me about their stories of how men have creeped them out or their SA stories and I'm just so afraid to become like the men in the stories that they tell me

 

[changfrommumbai]

wtf does this shit is trying to tell?

 

[ASTRO_YSD]

I don't wanna be with her ass at all but I fucking hate the way I probably creeped her out. Of course I can say "oh well she shoulda just told me off" because she offered her tiktok to me, but I chose instead to never give her it cuz I fucking hated creeping her out more. Looking back, it probably wasnt that deep but.

TLDR: I absolutely hate myself because I always feel like every action I take harms someone negatively

Then just rope

 

[Centurion_Hunter]

for starters, I don't even like her ass. I went to the mental hospital for psychosis and I saw somebody who was similar to me and I swooned over her. Looking back her ass was larping to the maximum talking about some "incelteen" "incelbaby", she called herself a femcel and busted out those terms and I just ate it up because I was thinking "oh wow someone just like me!!!" and in the end I forgot I was in a fucking mental hospital and I looked delusional as fuck. Regardless, I can't fucking judge her for larping as I'm over here also a tiktok mainly chud. I feel insanely regretful about how I creeped her out and from here I'd normally hate on her but at the same time I can't help but feel hatred for myself by how uncomfortable I made her feel. If I sit here I'm sure eventually I'd rationalize my own self hatred and turn it outwards towards women in general but I can't help but feel like I'd rather kill myself than hate other people for problems I've caused. From the mental stay, I'm now 215 and around 18% bf, I think I'll just work on maintaining my weight as this is probably the best I've ever looked my entire life (for reference, in december of 2024 about a year and a few months ago I was 260 pounds).

Shes chad only

 

[ja37viggenlover]

wtf does this shit is trying to tell?

I can tell that english isn't your first language, so in a nutshell I'm extremely regretful about every time I creep out women because I hate disgusting other people, I feel performative over it but I rather feel performative than make others feel disgusted

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Shes chad only

probably not, she was telling me she had a girlfriend yet she kept letting me talk to her, she had cuts up and down her arms, but at the same time it was a mental hospital + brains are weird as shit she probably did it so I wouldn't act even creepier to her, which I ended up doing anyways being a fucking cringe nerd and talking to her 24/7

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Then just rope

I would but I feel like there's always something better. I'm only 17 and I feel like even if life doesn't get better, there's more I could experience. Maybe me feeling this way is only temporary, who knows

 

[Centurion_Hunter]

probably not, she was telling me she had a girlfriend yet she kept letting me talk to her, she had cuts up and down her arms, but at the same time it was a mental hospital + brains are weird as shit she probably did it so I wouldn't act even creepier to her, which I ended up doing anyways being a fucking cringe nerd and talking to her 24/7

Fuck a lesbian aka chadsexual
I know how it feels to have hope but always be wary if the womens full nature
You seated next to her?

 

[sub3pieceofshit]

dnr but based on the title just forget about her

 

[ja37viggenlover]

honestly all I did was sit by her, ask her "yo how much do you know about incel culture, teach me bro" (partly because I was in the mental hospital and I wanted somebody to understand me and partly because I was like "yo bro I can finally get a girlfriend!!!!",) she started talking to me about some "incelteen" and "incelbaby" and I was looking at her like "wadahell is this terminology" but because 1. I have absolutely 0 self esteem and I'll just believe whatever somebody tells me because I don't believe that I can actually know shit and 2. I'm scared to "have an ego" (even though everybody realistically does in one way or another) I went along with it. Looking back she was larping to high heaven and I was sitting there taking it like a good boy. Worse yet, I wrote about it in the diaries they give you at the mental hospital and everybody thought I was only going after her for sex when I just wrote "maaaan im an incel but someday I want to marry, have sex, have kids" and I wrote that shit with 0 context and I forgot people can't read my mind.

 

[ja37viggenlover]

dnr but based on the title just forget about her

it aint her i'm lamenting its the way I acted to her, I feel like I creeped her out and I hate negatively affecting those that I don't think deserve it (deserve it as in the context of what I believe to be a "bully", I still see this world as black and white and frankly I think I've just never seriously had any problems in life)

 

[sub3pieceofshit]

honestly all I did was sit by her, ask her "yo how much do you know about incel culture, teach me bro" (partly because I was in the mental hospital and I wanted somebody to understand me and partly because I was like "yo bro I can finally get a girlfriend!!!!",) she started talking to me about some "incelteen" and "incelbaby" and I was looking at her like "wadahell is this terminology" but because 1. I have absolutely 0 self esteem and I'll just believe whatever somebody tells me because I don't believe that I can actually know shit and 2. I'm scared to "have an ego" (even though everybody realistically does in one way or another) I went along with it. Looking back she was larping to high heaven and I was sitting there taking it like a good boy. Worse yet, I wrote about it in the diaries they give you at the mental hospital and everybody thought I was only going after her for sex when I just wrote "maaaan im an incel but someday I want to marry, have sex, have kids" and I wrote that shit with 0 context and I forgot people can't read my mind.

go back

 

[ja37viggenlover]

go back

ehhh I probably will. I see a therapist soon for the first time in my life and I'll spill how I feel, and honestly if he doesn't send me there I'll probably contemplate hanging myself afterwards.

 

[Lefty Rankin]

as much as I wanna talk to you like I see the world as a disney movie and I wanna say "yeah but I believe I can get somebody and never weird them out!!", I hate to say that you're absolutely right. Frankly, I think back to all the women I've talked to and all the women I've interacted with and I remember admitting to them how I feel and then never actually formally asking them out and then I sit there wondering why they get angry at me after like 3 days of 0 action, I think my main problem is I care too much about other people to the point I forget about myself, but I've had so many female friends over my lifetime and all of them tell me about their stories of how men have creeped them out or their SA stories and I'm just so afraid to become like the men in the stories that they tell me

Don't listen to a woman's "creep out" stories or when they try telling you they were raped. When a girl tells you, or anyone else for that matter, that she was creeped out by another man she's doing two things. One, she's humble bragging. And two, she's trying to condition you to act like a beta when interacting with her by making you nervous about crossing any lines. It's social conditioning. She does this because women get a thrill out of being able to control weak men. It's a notch to their egos.

And you should never sit there and listen to a girl's story about being "raped". When people are genuinely sexually assaulted they're not gonna tell people who aren't very close to them. When a woman tells you she was raped she's just letting you know she's a whore who had regretful sex and that she likes to manipulate men who will believe her bullshit.

Lastly, don't tell girls how you feel about them. They already know. They're way more intuitive about that sort of thing than we are. The only time she might not know is if she's very attracted to you and you're experienced enough with women to properly send mixed signals as a manipulation tactic. And by your post I know that's not the case.

Make moves with girls and see if it goes anywher. Don't confess your feelings.

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Although I will admit I can't believe your first point, your second point is spot on. I notice it myself that a lot of times women only "reward" me with attention if im submissive, and although I hate crossing boundaries I also hate looking like a fool, so I end up standing there doing jackshit and then I wonder why nothings going on. I should probably make moves with girls, but at the end of the day my character right now is at a weird point where I can notice other peoples "flaws", but I feel horrible about capitalizing on their flaws (especially with women) because I feel "manipulative" doing so, maybe I have to wait around for the next 10 years of my life to see if I can find someone who is as "genuine" as I am, or maybe I have to just accept that no matter what I do somebody in this world could be hurt by my own actions and instead I should just capitalize on others flaws and lead them toward me or some bullshit. I fucking hate how corny I sound writing this even

 

[ASTRO_YSD]

I would but I feel like there's always something better. I'm only 17 and I feel like even if life doesn't get better, there's more I could experience. Maybe me feeling this way is only temporary, who knows

Your right don't rope

 

[changfrommumbai]

I can tell that english isn't your first language, so in a nutshell I'm extremely regretful about every time I creep out women because I hate disgusting other people, I feel performative over it but I rather feel performative than make others feel disgusted

kys retard its not that deep

 

[Gosha99]

Just message her on tiktok and talk to her, might help improve your life you never know

 

[ja37viggenlover]

Just message her on tiktok and talk to her, might help improve your life you never know

Nah, I never got her tiktok and frankly I dont wanna talk with anybody from the mental hospital, I embarassed myself enough initially because I can't fucking act normally socially so I'll just leave it be. When I transfer to my new school I'll just hang around whatever group of black kids are available and leave it at that for my social interaction. I hate how fake life seems but ultimately this is the real world

 

[Vireon]

Honest advice, stop thinking about some female retard, she will 100% fuck your life up.

I want you to keep looking your best and having confidence because that will get you a better female that actually won't fuck you up for the worse

 

[mrz_selgr]

for starters, I don't even like her ass. I went to the mental hospital for psychosis and I saw somebody who was similar to me and I swooned over her. Looking back her ass was larping to the maximum talking about some "incelteen" "incelbaby", she called herself a femcel and busted out those terms and I just ate it up because I was thinking "oh wow someone just like me!!!" and in the end I forgot I was in a fucking mental hospital and I looked delusional as fuck. Regardless, I can't fucking judge her for larping as I'm over here also a tiktok mainly chud. I feel insanely regretful about how I creeped her out and from here I'd normally hate on her but at the same time I can't help but feel hatred for myself by how uncomfortable I made her feel. If I sit here I'm sure eventually I'd rationalize my own self hatred and turn it outwards towards women in general but I can't help but feel like I'd rather kill myself than hate other people for problems I've caused. From the mental stay, I'm now 215 and around 18% bf, I think I'll just work on maintaining my weight as this is probably the best I've ever looked my entire life (for reference, in december of 2024 about a year and a few months ago I was 260 pounds).

Not a word

 

[ascension]

@asdvek actual tales from the mental asylum

 

[asdvek]

@asdvek actual tales from the mental asylum

 

[milkdrinker69]

for starters, I don't even like her ass. I went to the mental hospital for psychosis and I saw somebody who was similar to me and I swooned over her. Looking back her ass was larping to the maximum talking about some "incelteen" "incelbaby", she called herself a femcel and busted out those terms and I just ate it up because I was thinking "oh wow someone just like me!!!" and in the end I forgot I was in a fucking mental hospital and I looked delusional as fuck. Regardless, I can't fucking judge her for larping as I'm over here also a tiktok mainly chud. I feel insanely regretful about how I creeped her out and from here I'd normally hate on her but at the same time I can't help but feel hatred for myself by how uncomfortable I made her feel. If I sit here I'm sure eventually I'd rationalize my own self hatred and turn it outwards towards women in general but I can't help but feel like I'd rather kill myself than hate other people for problems I've caused. From the mental stay, I'm now 215 and around 18% bf, I think I'll just work on maintaining my weight as this is probably the best I've ever looked my entire life (for reference, in december of 2024 about a year and a few months ago I was 260 pounds).

stop trying to treat girls with so much respect it doesn’t matter at all just stop trying to hard to care how u effect people and you’ll chill out mark as solution