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I'm trying to figure out if there’s a name for this or if anyone else gets it because I get so weirded out when people get emotional over me. Like if someone starts crying because they feel bad for me or if they get all mushy telling me how much they care I just feel this massive "ick" and want to get away as fast as possible. It’s a visceral thing, honestly it almost feels like a sense of disgust.
It’s not even just with friends or random people either—I feel that same weirdness showing any affection to my own mum. What’s strange is I didn’t feel this way about my grandma but she’s not here anymore so maybe that’s different.
This "ick" is a total pattern for me:
Relationships: I remember telling a girl I liked her once and as soon as she said she liked me back I felt this immediate disgust and just avoided her completely. We ended up just pretending it never happened and going back to "normal" because I couldn't handle the mushy stuff.
same with kids I actually love kids and think they're great in fact everyone says im really good with children, children love playing with me but the idea of having one of my own makes me feel that exact same sense of cringe and I don’t know why.
I’m not trying to be a cold person but whenever things get vulnerable or "deep" my reflex is just to shut down and run. It feels way too intrusive and way too much. Is this a specific personality type or am I just wired weird? Does anyone else feel like emotional displays are just straight up gross?
It’s not even just with friends or random people either—I feel that same weirdness showing any affection to my own mum. What’s strange is I didn’t feel this way about my grandma but she’s not here anymore so maybe that’s different.
This "ick" is a total pattern for me:
Relationships: I remember telling a girl I liked her once and as soon as she said she liked me back I felt this immediate disgust and just avoided her completely. We ended up just pretending it never happened and going back to "normal" because I couldn't handle the mushy stuff.
same with kids I actually love kids and think they're great in fact everyone says im really good with children, children love playing with me but the idea of having one of my own makes me feel that exact same sense of cringe and I don’t know why.
I’m not trying to be a cold person but whenever things get vulnerable or "deep" my reflex is just to shut down and run. It feels way too intrusive and way too much. Is this a specific personality type or am I just wired weird? Does anyone else feel like emotional displays are just straight up gross?
