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PseudoMaxxer
Mentally unstable.
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I hate my self and have no self love cuz obviously I’m not doing anything good for myself other than wage cucking the whole time.
I tell myself “ok, i’ll wake up at 5 am and do something productive before I got to work so that when I come home and have no energy I can relax without feeling like a total failure”.
But then It’s 5am, my phone is ringing and i’m genuinely so tired and exhausted from my life that I say “no I literally can’t, I need to go back to sleep so that i’m not too tired during my job and so that the day will pass by faster”
What happens is that I keep waking up cuz my brain is telling me to get my ass up and do something for myself but I can’t.
So now i’m at work, feeling guilty and like a piece of shit for not doing anything, and the funny thing is that i’m not even well rested since I keep waking up during the night for that shit.
And it’s been going like this for the past month.
I literally cannot save myself for MYSELF.
I tell myself “ok, i’ll wake up at 5 am and do something productive before I got to work so that when I come home and have no energy I can relax without feeling like a total failure”.
But then It’s 5am, my phone is ringing and i’m genuinely so tired and exhausted from my life that I say “no I literally can’t, I need to go back to sleep so that i’m not too tired during my job and so that the day will pass by faster”
What happens is that I keep waking up cuz my brain is telling me to get my ass up and do something for myself but I can’t.
So now i’m at work, feeling guilty and like a piece of shit for not doing anything, and the funny thing is that i’m not even well rested since I keep waking up during the night for that shit.
And it’s been going like this for the past month.
I literally cannot save myself for MYSELF.