nsk4ll
a delusion a day keeps the rope away
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i am up on the hills of montecito right now. its really a beautiful day today. but as i have always said, a beautiful environment is the darkest hell if you have to experience it all alone. and sadly, ive been alone for a very long time, ive been attending college at santa barbara for 2 and a half years now. and in those 2 and a half years ive experienced nothing but loneliness and misery. and my problem is girls, there are so many beautiful girls here, but none of them give me a chance. and i dont know why. i dont know why you girls so repulsed by me. it doesnt make sense, i do everything i can to appear attractive to you, i dress nice, i am sophisticated, iam magnificent, i have a nice car a bmw, well nicer than 90% of college, yknow iam polite, am the ultimate gentleman and yet you girls never give me a chance, i dont know why. yknow i-i put a lot of effort to dressing nice. this sunglasses here it was 300$ giorgio armani, i will put em up. see? look at how fabulous i look. yknow, i feel so invisible as i walk through my college because none of the girls there pay attention to me, i see so many beautiful blonde haired, just so many blonde haired girls walking everywhere, in their revealing shorts, cascading blonde hair, their pretty faces, and i want one for a girlfriend. i wanna take a girl out on a date to prove that im worthy. i wanna feel that sense of being worthy of a girl's love and affection. i am 22 years old and ive never had a girlfriend, i am still a virgin, i have never had a pleasure of having sex with a girl, sleeping with a girl, kissing a girl, ive never even held a girl's hand. hell, i dont even have a young girls number in my cell phone. and thats such an injustice because i am so magnificent, i deserve girls much more than all those slobs i see at my college who are somehow able to walk around with beautiful girls
