high inhib classic

[zodiac killer]

be me:
>never had any positive female attention
>high inhib most of the time
>ruin mood bc no inhib with friends
>fail at trying to get gf all my life
>loose hope in obtaining relationship
>can never see what they see in me
>stay KHHV bc I cant love myself

wednesday:
>wake up and look in mirror (see mtn)
>go to hs like normal
>sit in 2nd period doing work
>mtb I've never talked to b4 comes over
>she starts a conversation
>mind forgets how to conversate
>overthink and laugh at a srs comment
>foid cant take a hint, refuses to fuck off
>she finnaly leaves
>unable to tell if making fun or likes me

thursday:
>wake up (still mtn)
>in 2nd period again
>fem from yesterday is seemingly absent
>be in hallway walking to lunch
>foid appears behind me from idk where
>tries to trip me, pulls me from behind
>conclude she doesn't like me, feel relief
>she then tells me that I look good (JFL)
>return comment in a state of confusion
>realise u have just fed her delusions
>relief is gone, back to high inhib
>eat lunch with friends, low inhib 4 once
>friend tells me that someone is staring
>look over, its the fem from 2nd period
>finish lunch with dreading tmr
>dont see her for the rest of the day
>shes gone, low inhib for the rest of day

thursday night:
>hoco football game coming up
>plan to go cause friends will be there
>going to carpool w/ 4 other friends
>pregame party, im planning to go to
>guy w/ car says pregame cancelled
>friends go pregame w/out me knowing
>everybody is at the game
>be at home bc I thot evrbdy cancelled
>get word that the game was "super fun"
>find out that pregame wasn't cancelled
>be only person told that its "cancelled"

summary:
fml

 

[Rudeus Dues]

> she then tells me that I look good

Why didn't you escalate further? You should be more bold and keep talking to various girls. I wish I did that when I was in HS.

 

[issey miyake]

Stopped reading at friends